Methadone Nightmares

I feel you on this one Crimsin.
I was hooked on meth for a while,
(no-where as near as long as you
with methodone), 5 years ago and
I finally hauled-ass to get away
from it.
I guess one day I had an epiphany
of sorts and it slapped me in the face.

But I still occasionally have dreams
of it and cravings even after 5 years.
Definately not urges that I fear that
I will give into but still strong.

It's amazing how something so deadly
can have uch control and influence over
us even after so long.

But a huge heart-felt congratulations to
you and hang in there; it will get easier.


   A great poignant scribe... Pan

Pan i'm so happy you escaped the nightmare that is Meth I know a lot of people that went down that road and never came back.. you are a strong man to have been able to overcome it.. thank you for reading me and getting my poem.. peace Crim

poignant as always Dear Crim...I think some knowledge is just easier to deal with as time moves on. Happy to see You here Dear Crim-excellent Pen as always!!!

thank you sweet Soul glad to be back :) peace Crim

Thanks crim.  Missed your work here...read you.

strider.

thank you for reading me Strider and the welcome back :) peace Crim

A difficult road Crim. Keep on keeping on dear.  Inked so well. :)

thank you lovely Magdalena.. peace Crim

Effective portrayal of the thoughts and struggle. Good to see you here, Crim.

thank you Atakti beautiful lady love the welcome back :) peace Crim

Oh ms crimson, ever since I came back to du I've been patiently awaiting your poetry to give me a good slap.

because I came to the clinic naked
other times I get lost down streets I've never seen
asking other junkies the way there they just stare
 
This was so tragically perfect. You're stronger than you realize ma'me.. if you can hold yourself long enough to resist I know you'll be ok. Much love beautiful.

Koutniss oh how you've touched my heart and soul with your love thank you lovely one.. peace Crim :)

painful and perfect.

thank you kind lady peace Crim :)

i like methadone...

can never not appreciate colors the same....

John I fucking love Methadone that's why three years later after coming off of it having been on it for thirteen years is a bitch and I still crave it thank you for your honesty.. peace Crim

I'm sure they'll end all in due time. Just hang in there. Stay strong.

Good scribe,Crim (:

Thank you for the read and inspiring comment.. peace Crim :)

:'( Beautiful...ohhh I know how this feels. I saw your comment on my page and I had to read yours too. Kindred spirit.

thank you Meggy I've been reading your poems and just didn't know what to say as some of them bring back painful memories like losing my little ones to madness brought on by the drugs.. yes kindred spirits.. hugs Brenda

I could tell I stirred up some difficult memories but not of that nature (children). I'm sorry. You seem outstanding...how DID you do it?

I was still able to see them as family took over so that helped a lot.. peace Brenda

I went with suboxone after detoxing, for like three months. I am what the group goers might call a 'dry addict'. Ten months ago I kicked and though I am sober I am in no better mental condition. It probably wouldn't have made a difference but I wish I would have been aware of the psychological toll scag takes on a person. I feel there is no going back, I saw such moral lows and am left unwilling to participate in socialization. I cannot bring myself to infect another human existence with my putrid soul. Ya dig?

I'm sorry you're going through such pain.. I kicked methadone cold and I definitely relate to the socializing thing I have trouble with it too.. I still feel out of place after three and a half years later.. wishing you some peace Crim