Outgrowing Chains

I realized I carried a burden
One that was beyond me
A burden that was so heavy
That dragged its weight upon my feet
The burden has been so steep
So painful I've become weak
A burden that's been with me
So far along before I could think.
Now that its been revealed
Now that I been freed
I stumble with my new freedom
Thats painful and I'm still weak.
How can I battle my present
If I just let go of my past.
Why is my new wisdom not easy to just grasp.
I want to run yet I am weak,
I want to mourn,
I want to weep.
I am freed but I'm not sleek,
I feel shackled but I'm freed. 
I'm no longer who I've been
Im above but I'm beneath.
I'm confused and I'm in grief
I'm alone but I am freed.
Ill be strong eventually
More than I have ever dreamed.