Don't try and figure me out. re-write for theo! first non rhyming poem  

My heart abandoned by me
left alone and misunderstood
Just a muscle with no thoughts
Held responsible for all my heart breaks

Don't come too close!
Step back!
Oh, here it goes again
Pushing away a good thing

Why couldn't the good ones come first
I wasted my time with all these jerks
decomposed feelings I was left with
And your still around trying to put me back together

I'm not worth all this work and effort
Ill just treat you bad I know how this goes
I'm a bad person with a good heart
I know what to do but i just can't!

I should let you go, and keep you away
I still try and make myself love you
I know you are what I deserve
And what I use to be, you deserve

Why did you come now?!
I needed you to save me a while ago
Before my heart stopped pumping feeling
Now your stuck trying to do all this healing

for what?
For me to walk away
and all your attempts be a waste
Leave while you can!!

Dissipate from me....
LEAVE!!!