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How the Hell
The thing I want the most
Is to know what the hell I want.
The one thing I need to know
Is who the hell he was,
Is to know who the hell I am,
And why the hell no one wants to tell me.
Is he really dead, or could I be his demon's next man?
And how much worse than this life can hell be?
How the hell could he be dead when all this time I didn't know he lived?
How the hell could he dare to die in the same building as the son he never knew?
How the hell could I be so stupid, after all the things I never knew he did?
How the hell can I live without him, how the hell can I live with myself, how the hell can I live with YOU?!
How the hell can he be dead?
How the hell can I get this through your head?
How the hell can you turn a blind eye?
How the hell don't you see? If he's dead, so the hell am I!
Is to know what the hell I want.
The one thing I need to know
Is who the hell he was,
Is to know who the hell I am,
And why the hell no one wants to tell me.
Is he really dead, or could I be his demon's next man?
And how much worse than this life can hell be?
How the hell could he be dead when all this time I didn't know he lived?
How the hell could he dare to die in the same building as the son he never knew?
How the hell could I be so stupid, after all the things I never knew he did?
How the hell can I live without him, how the hell can I live with myself, how the hell can I live with YOU?!
How the hell can he be dead?
How the hell can I get this through your head?
How the hell can you turn a blind eye?
How the hell don't you see? If he's dead, so the hell am I!
Published 28th Aug 2013
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29th Aug 2013 3:13pm
I usually don't cuss, but I made an exception this once. That's because yesterday, I found out that as my Dad was dying in the ER at UC hospital, I was one floor above him, in the same hospital, waiting for his mother to get out of surgery to remove a brain tumor. I just couldn't hold some harsh words back this once.
29th Aug 2013 3:33pm
I really feel your pain in this one. I understand how you feel. Im sorry that you are going though that. If you need to talk you can message me.
31st Aug 2013 6:38pm
Thanks for the sympathy. The only thing that can be done though is just to find a way to get over it. I love making new friends though, so I'll probably take you up on the offer to talk. Thanks for the read and the comment.
3rd Sep 2013 3:54pm
Well you are more then welcome. I always enjoy helping friends out and I like reading your work.
6th Sep 2013 9:15pm
Thanks... have you been reading a lot of them? I haven't been online much lately, so I wouldn't know.
9th Sep 2013 3:25pm
Yea I have read a lot of your stuff because it makes since and its about something.
29th Aug 2013 3:37pm
I would say that I understand but I'll admit that I don't. I could try but I wouldn't succeed. I hope you can work through this without any extreme repercussions or outcomes.... I am truly sorry... I can be a friend if you like... just inbox me and I'll try to help.. :)
31st Aug 2013 6:40pm
Yeah, a friend would be nice. Thank you guys for your offers to help. I guess it's water and the bridge and I just need to get over it. It was almost three years ago, and I barely knew the man... I'll be checking out your poetry, and Raven's, too.
4th Sep 2013 3:42pm
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19th Apr 2014 10:21pm
wow thats intense and kind of unbarable! taking a chance to se it i can see that your a good person and didnt deserve tht!
19th Apr 2014 10:34pm
