My monster

Life today is overlooked,
Unappreciated,
Unloving,
I hate waking up to the pain I feel but I appreciate every day that i do wake,
I can't stand seeing so many people under appreciating the days they have.
You see, I have a disease..
No, not the normal STD's and HIV's.
Nothing of that sort,
I have leukemia.
Every morning I wake is a grace from god for my mother and father.
Every breath I take is another closer to my death.
I know I only have weeks but I choose to be happy.
To live while I can.
Am I scared?
Yes
Does it hurt?
Yes
Have I lost all of my hair from the kemo and tests?
Yes
But will I give up and let this monster take my happiness?
No
Smoke your cigarettes.
Drink your beer.
Appreciate that your not dying as fast as me.
Live happily and free..
But don't take life for granted.
It can be taken in a moment.
I won't survive.
Ill die in this bed.
But ill be sure to be happy while I'm here.
Ill be sure to appreciate every second I'm still breathing.
Ill be sure to appreciate the time I've had with my family.
I have time to say goodbye. Some don't have that fortune.
Appreciate what time you have..
I know I do.....