Overwhelming Soul

I hate this feeling that dwells inside of me.
It stays and consumes my soul.
Once I thought this was the only side of me.
Until an everlasting hope spoke a secret I was never told.

I was scared that this hope was full lies.
Something so unreal,so untrue.
The truth is in this feeling, my tears, my cries.
I didn't want to believe in something that could make me such a fool.

So I ignored that 'truth' and we went our separate ways.
But something missing was still there that even this feeling couldn't replace.

So I let go of the pain, the heaviness of my soul.
So that this hope could speak to me and take me on a stroll

to the wonders of life
and the smiles I see
to the glimmer of eyes
and love meant to be.

And this hope took me far from the world and showed me a place.
It wasn't heaven or hell it was just a place.

A place where there was no suffering, no tears, and no wounds.
And a lovely melody like a lullaby tune.

That whispered through this place and made me see.
That this feeling doesn't have to take over me.

When I came back from the place and into this world we Fear.
I decided to rip from me the feeling I thought I needed the most.
And even though it tried to doubt me and prance around me like a deer.
Telling me that I will lose myself without it and be nothing but a ghost.

I did doubt and think of how this feeling has been with me, and how I would be lost without it.
Just as I was to give in, this whispering voice entered my mind.
It was warning of the danger I was about to commit.
Then I knew I had to leave because this feeling was not kind.

It wanted to consume my soul but I couldn't let that happen.
This voice showed me differently and filled me with something more, that that 'feeling' couldn't give me.
So I was not what that feeling wanted me to be, a soul so misshapen.
Instead I was me, and for the first time I was so glad to be.