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Color Me...

I keep falling
from grace
from a place
that is dark and lacking compassion
swallowed by a metal snake...
deeper into a dimension
a mental state
that is filled with despair and misery
leaving panic as my only companion...
Color me blank and black...
take my lack of happiness as it is
and do nothing of use with it...
Hungry? Make food for thought
invent
new ways to use the shit
that flows from my mind onto these pages
I have a melting ink pen...
Color me surprised...
I have yet to die
but still can't feel alive...
am I high and fried
or left out high and dry?
Shocking how little I try
to climb out of this mine
always wondering if I should stay behind
dig deeper and see what's left to find
within my own mind
or use the easy-access ladder to climb out
Into the Light...
Color me predictable...
I always take the risk
delve deeper
knowing it could all collapse
at any moment
leaving me trapped...
My own tomb...
I would never escape
trapped perpetually in the darkness
waiting to die...
Color me pessimistic...
But to look on the bright side
of a place with no light
I would have all the time
I would ever need to mine
the darkness within my mind...
waiting to die
suffocating within the hive
of my own making
a custom-built mausoleum
a crypt for the living
but not there for the taking...
Color me trapped by choice...
I am left only with my voice
a pen and paper and some static in my head
filled by white noise...
Are my dead speaking to me?
Or are my attempts at lonely conversations
false and masked by their futility?
Color me lonely...
I guess I just feel the need
to seek this poverty greed
someone needs to put me in time-out...
Color me
in nothing but White-Out...
Like words typed by accident and deleted
I...
am no longer...
needed...
Written by NarcissusNarcosis
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