Aimless and Alone (pt.2)

Wondering aimless and alone will I ever find a place to call home,
Even in a group of people I'm all on my own,
What is wrong with me I don't know,
I just want to feel accepted,
But even with my friends who love me I feel rejected,
This is something that's inside me,
When miles away from society is the only time I feel free,
I'm alone in a highly populated city,
Lost in a crowd and its only me,
I feel so invisible,
Fuck my life this is miserable,
The more I show my love I'm pushed away,
What causes people to act this way,
I'm destined to not get what I'm wanting,
This is so bullshit this is haunting,
Its like life want's me to feel this,
This feeling of rejection and just being pissed,
I mean I really don't get this bullshit,
The more I stay away and people hate it,
But when I actually try and make an effort to be around people get pissed,
I'm always on the wrong level,
I'm not doing anything wrong this is the work of the devil,
Just be my friend and want me around,
I feel so low I wanna just lay on the ground,
Why must life be this way,
Why must you all just push me away,
It wouldn't be so bad but you make it have to be MY choice,
I can't even call, you won't let me hear your voice,
Now I'm out here frustrated, devastated,
You keep minimal contact leaving me irritated,
This is so much worse than just completely shutting me out,
It's childish and I know its wrong but I wanna drop to the floor and pout,
In a huge house all by lonesome,
So many extra rooms but I'm here with no one,
I'm starting to make imagery friends,
Your never to old for that activity to end,
Now I understand why end is in the word friend,
Because its enviable before it happens,
When its over my insides start crackin,
But I guess its just destiny,
No one was ment to spend their lives with me,


Written by a true Meenjataka