Blunt stages of Love

I fought for sumthing in my head I felt was right.
Looking and loving something that turned my tears to fright.
Our love to balled fist.
Our truth to lies.
Our calm to chaos and these faces to digust.
We see different faces but our  eyes see different love in different places.
What was beautiful now so ugly.
Our hatred more then alarming.
These four walls we once called home.
Stares back at me with this eerey calm.
This mindless rage.Hoping I can see a change.
I hate you but we love all the same.
The life we gave each other now just lost time.
looking for meaning we lost us.
stuck in a relationship wit no trust