Remembering

Let's take a step back in time when the sun always shined
I was sixteen and I grew up so fast
Never could learn to let go of the past
Every word said and comment made, I took it all to heart
All those lies, they became truth in my eyes
I gave him everything until there was nothing left to give
There are some things you can never get back
You gotta think and really know before you let it all go
But I was too young to really understand
The anger I felt was really shame, just a secondary emotion
But it set it all in motion
We've gotta learn to deal with things like depression
Oh it would be so easy to fall in line with the wrong crowd
Because out thoughts are so loud
I've got alot of regrets, moments I wish I could forget
I was living to use and using to live
It was so hard to erase those memories and feelings
I wanted to push it all away
The pressue
The pain
All those moments of shame
Back then I was my own worst memory
Sometimes I wonder if I ever learned anything
I had to have faith, just a little bit of hope
I had to learn to trust
Only then did the sun shine a little brighter
My smile became a little bit wider
For the first time I could say no
I didn't feel the need to get high and I learned to say goodbye
To the good and the bad