Unsettled

My gut feeling is telling me
That something isn't good here
Can't quite put my finger on it
But it's driving me insane

Maybe it's just paranoia
It wouldn't be a surprise but
I can't seem to let it go
And I don't know what this all means

So please take me away
Where I don't have to think much
And all I can feel
Is the warmth of the sun
Don't need to use my voice
Got nothing worthwhile to say
Laying low is my choice
Don't look for me today

Feeling kind of sick and
I'm disgusted with my thoughts
Internally freaking out when
There is no reason to flip

I cannot let speculation
Become some sort of complication
Feelings with no explanation
Are no basis for formulation
And I just wish I could stop
Trying to figure it out

So how do I go on living this way?
Pretending not to be on the edge
Feeling like one of us could fall off
Any minute now
And I can't tell which one of us it is
But it's scaring me to think about it
Something unsettling is meddling with me

I just want to stay alone where nobody knows
That I'm going crazy
Because it makes no sense
A persisting feeling of no good
Can't be understood
Until something happens or
I just realize that I'm a bit off sometimes
Which is what I'd rather think and believe
So maybe I'll just stop worrying
Pose a calm smile for the camera
And leave it at that