i remember

you just call and i cant tell you no
ive been in and out of my resalution
but when its cold i want you so bad
i miss your smile and the way you
made me laugh i miss your fowl
you arent ever gonna say what i want
dont you know that time stays
words make me remember and pain
burns in my heart i just want you to say you need me
say you hate life without me in it
say waking up feels like hell
especially cause you need more than dope to be well

i hear you smile and your laugh and you just
always know i cant say no to you
i never want you to suffer or feel pain
im not dead inside i just hate what you could do to me
everytime i begin to heal you come smling
and i remember all you do to me
im too close to the edge to even start
to finish i pretend that your promises wont end