I leave here now

The steel is cold against my brow
The thoughts grow deep inside me now
I hold the moment in my hand
I know nothing will change in the  land
The world will go on without me here
No one will miss me I know this clear
I did what was asked I loved her so
She betrayed everything I could ever know
The pain will stop with a trigger squeeze
My memories will fade away like a springs breeze
All my days mean nothing in the end
I do not even have one dear friend
This world will go on as nothing is gone
If I pull real fast & try to hold on
I wont feel a thing and thats what I need
All I want is for the pain to be freed
Goodbye cruel world I leave here now
I feel the hot steel against my brow