Deprioritized (rap)

when did I stoop so low
as to want to be an option?
pain so slow flows through the hole
that is my soul
my home with the darkness
loveless and heartless
longing for the song of love
to swoon me once again
to be a priority
not part of the majority
to be free from pain
is the goal I must obtain
yet pain and I
we're so entwined
I can see why
I can't break free
of the chains binding me
from the love I need

I hate the way
they say things get better
when they don't
they never and they won't
I'll still see him
when my eyes close
while wrapped in another's arms
so what's the point?
love is just a joke
the only thing that exists
is lust and never trust
when they say they love you
'cause in reality they don't
they're only using you
really, I tried
in the end we're just an option
in their eyes
we're deprioritized
love is a lie
you remember that time
they held you
whispered softly
"I love you"
memory shatters like glass
and you fall into
the black pit of sorrow
living in the shadow of tomorrow

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I swore I loved you and I did
gave you my heart
you cut it open and watched as it bled
I swore I'd always be there and I am
you're my priority
and I'm just your option
still just your option...

waiting, praying 'n hoping
standin' here thinking of you
daydreamin' of the things
we once had
your hands entwined with mine
breathing me in
head so close
nose to nose
my lips to yours
such memories
so bittersweet
so painful
they flow through my mind
seeping away to a dull ache
deep in my chest
funny how it keeps me sane
this pain that drains
the hate from my eyes
replacing them with tears
and I cry
for the loss of a bond
now severed forever
and I know I'll never
have the care I did
when I was yours
this heart was torn
had to fix it myself
as usual
it's unusual for me
to sink so low
shot be Cupid's arrow
his bow
is the very thing
I just want to break
I know what's at stake
when I fall into one's eyes
I know I'll fall for it
every time, there's no denyin'
that I'll still search for love
even when I know it don't exist

Chorus

last night
I had a dream
you were kissin' her
holding her, carresin' her
just like you did with me
and I could see
the love in your eyes
and the worst thing
is that it wasn't for me
so deprioritized
knowing all you did for me
was a lie
in the dream I cried
you tried to fix it
didn't know what was wrong
and I cried even more
tears spilling onto the floor
knowing you couldn't help anymore
if this is all so-called love
has in store
I want nothing to do with it

chorus