Happy Mother's Day to a Careless Bitch

I can't imagine how you tricked yourself  
into believing that you are a decent human being  
This denial you have built around yourself  
to guard yourself from proper self-loathing  
only let's me know you never fucking cared  
 
It's hilarious that you have allowed yourself  
to think that you have come to the point  
where you deserve to be happy and loved  
oblivious to feelings once hidden for your benefit  
Well no, Mother, your debt hasn't been paid  
 
Resentment isn't a strong enough word  
for what you have driven me to feel for you  
you always did less than the bare fucking minimum  
of what would be acceptable to pass as neglect  
and now I hear that you thought you did a good job?  
   
I don't think I can take that as a compliment  
to be approved by you, as if you did your part  
It is the biggest insult to me that you have  
the audacity to say that your carelessness  
is to praise for making me into who you think I am  
 
Your many many shortcomings have left me  
unprepared and lost in a world I am not fit for  
I'm glad you think it's oh so fucking funny  
that you never taught us life lessons and reality  
"Because it's so cute how my kids grew up to be quirky."  
 
By quirky I think you mean ruined beyond repair  
not even years of therapy have touched the damage  
you inflicted by carelessly disregarding your children  
So don't expect me to swallow my pain one more year  
and wish someone who never tried to be a parent  
yet another undeserved "Happy Mother's Day"

(not dedicated to my own mother)