Reality

kicked in the teeth by reality as i woke from a dream
spent the rest of the night trying to find my way back to sleep
lying as still as the dead, alone in the dark
while thoughts of loss pulled at my heart
nothing could i do but to stew in my head
clinched my fists as my anxiety fed
seconds to minutes bled by the hour
overcome by grief and consumed by it's power
grinding my teeth and locking my jaw
trying to erase the thoughts of the things I have thought
nothing to do but to lie here awake
and fight back the burning of fire and flames