Shreds

I'll rip and tear myself to shreds
claw my skin and slash my flesh
scratch my eyes and make them bleed
blind myself so I cant see


cast my brain in a chemical haze
and walk around in a fucking daze
murder my thoughts as they come to me
abortion through labomtomy


I'll vomit out this jagged pill
and hope it tears my throat to hell
make me choke on my own blood
because I've fucking had enough


for once I'll rip out my own heart
and slice that motherfucker apart
watch it die within my hand
just because I fucking can


all of this shit that I always feel
and all the wounds the never heal
all because I feel too much
and I really think I've had enough


I've had enough of all this pain
I carry around everyday
at some point it has to stop
before I become completely lost


so with my claws I'll shred my skin
I'll rip and tear my flesh again
with a scratch I blind my eyes
and make them bleed instead of cry


chemicals laced into my brain
will surely create a foggy haze
kill any thoughts that come to me
a self enduced labotomy


as for the pill thats in my throat
the one thats always made me choke
I will try to spit it out
and taste the blood within my mouth


into my heart I'll grind some salt
so the pain can be MY own fault
I've had enough of all this shit
the pain and hurt, im through with it


I dont want to feel it anymore
I want to be who I was before
even if that means I have to hide
within myself to survive


I'll push it back and mask my face
and cover up all my pain
ill dry my tears and blank my mind
and stop looking for what im trying to find


maybe everyone can be content
if no one will have to deal with it
the world can go about their lives
and I will be just fine!