For A Long time

I've been telling myself for a long time that it is going to be ok
and for a long time it has not been ok
I've been told for a long time that im going to be ok
and for a long time i have NOT been ok


I've been telling myself for a long time that i am going to get better
and for a long time i have not gotten better
I have been told for along time that i am going to get better
and I don't feel like i have gotten any better


I've been telling myself for a long time that i am going to wake up
and for a long I have remained asleep
I have been told for a long time that my eyes are going to open
and for a long time I have walked around blind


I've been telling myself for a long time that this nightmare is going to end
and for a long time this nightmare has not ended
I have been told for a long time that the this nightmare will pass
and for a long time I have still been haunted by it


I've been telling myself for a long time that my pain will pass with time
and for a long time my pain has remained
I' have been told for a long time that time will heal my wounds
and for a long time my wounds have continued to bleed


I've been telling myself for a long time that I can get past the dark
and for a long time I have been overshadowed
I have been told for a long time that I can see past this dark
and for a long time I have not been able to see the light


I've been telling myself for a long time that I am strong enough to overcome
and for a long time i have not been able to fight
I have been told for a long time that i do indeed have the strength
and for a long time I have fallen too weak to try