Submissions by zz7070 (Xeara)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I began writing stories in 5th grade and was introduced to poetry in 6th grade. I use writing as method of coping with my depression.
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
5th Jun 2019 10:10pm
5th Jun 2019 10:10pm
I never told
I never told
you blamed me
screamed and cried
you blamed me
I never told
I was 6
I was scared
I simply froze
I cried later
you threatened me
"if you tell,
I'll kill you"
I believed you
I never told
no one knew
I was scared
I had nightmares
I never tiold
I was 10
I fought back
I just cried
no one knew
I was alone
you knew better
I trusted you
I didn't understand
what I'd done
I blamed myself
you blamed me
screamed and cried
you blamed me
I never told
I was 6
I was scared
I simply froze
I cried later
you threatened me
"if you tell,
I'll kill you"
I believed you
I never told
no one knew
I was scared
I had nightmares
I never tiold
I was 10
I fought back
I just cried
no one knew
I was alone
you knew better
I trusted you
I didn't understand
what I'd done
I blamed myself
#anger
#anxiety
#loneliness
#childhood
#abuse
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
16th May 2019 4:54pm
16th May 2019 4:54pm
She's Gone
The first look
She weakly opened her eyes, it took all her strength
Said she was sorry
Then she was gone
I had tears streaming down my face
Crying like a two year old
Over something I couldn't change
She's gone
They blankly stated facts as if they'd already...
Been left...
Emotionless...
I hadn't...
She's gone
I whispered
As they hugged me
It's okay we're gonna be alright
We promise...
Promises aren't forever
So easily broken
You promised, remember?
I'm not okay
Not then...
She weakly opened her eyes, it took all her strength
Said she was sorry
Then she was gone
I had tears streaming down my face
Crying like a two year old
Over something I couldn't change
She's gone
They blankly stated facts as if they'd already...
Been left...
Emotionless...
I hadn't...
She's gone
I whispered
As they hugged me
It's okay we're gonna be alright
We promise...
Promises aren't forever
So easily broken
You promised, remember?
I'm not okay
Not then...
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness #death
#loneliness #death
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
16th May 2019 4:53pm
16th May 2019 4:53pm
I hate you
I hate you, but I love you too.
I've loved you for a long time, but truth is I hate you too.
I guess I don't hate you.
I hate the pain you've caused me.
No, wait.
I hate the pain I've let you cause me.
The fact that I've let you get to me
The fact that I've let you hurt me
The fact that I've let you make me cry
I hate that I've allowed you to control me.
I've loved you for a long time, but truth is I hate you too.
I guess I don't hate you.
I hate the pain you've caused me.
No, wait.
I hate the pain I've let you cause me.
The fact that I've let you get to me
The fact that I've let you hurt me
The fact that I've let you make me cry
I hate that I've allowed you to control me.
#anger
#depression
#regret #disappointment
#regret #disappointment
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DRUGS POEM
Published
6th May 2019 5:51pm
6th May 2019 5:51pm
Untitled
No one can see the anger she held at bay in her heart. She could not tell you that but mostly you were a part of the reason why she was angry. She could not admit that every single breath she took caused her pain so badly she could barely think. How was she supposed to be able to believe that someone loved her with her mother always knee deep in meth and heroin, her daddy always in a jail cell or with some other bitch she never knew what was going on she never knew what to do when she finally got to see him she was afraid of not being enough for him, why would she think she that she was...
#depression
#childhood
#family
#drugs
#addiction
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
6th May 2019 5:50pm
6th May 2019 5:50pm
Therapy
I always began the same
questions I couldn't answer
They kept telling me,
"no one can help you if you don't
tell them what's wrong"
you acted like I didn't want to
I wanted to talk about it!
I wanted to scream and yell!
I wanted to tell you everything...
but I couldn't
I wanted to tell you everything
everything he'd done
while you were away
But all I could manage was
an hour of I don't know's
and I'm fine.
But I wasn't...
I wanted to tell you everything damn it!
If...
questions I couldn't answer
They kept telling me,
"no one can help you if you don't
tell them what's wrong"
you acted like I didn't want to
I wanted to talk about it!
I wanted to scream and yell!
I wanted to tell you everything...
but I couldn't
I wanted to tell you everything
everything he'd done
while you were away
But all I could manage was
an hour of I don't know's
and I'm fine.
But I wasn't...
I wanted to tell you everything damn it!
If...
#anger
#anxiety
#depression
#abuse
#disappointment
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3 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
9th Apr 2019 11:03pm
9th Apr 2019 11:03pm
Dear Addiction
Dear Addiction,
I take each pill to make me numb. To take away these feelings, and you helped, for a while at least. My mind became numb and I thought way less. But the actual emotions themselves never left. I used to try to get it to go away, but cutting and starving are harder to hide. I’m constantly under pressure and pushed way too far, until one day, I’ll snap.
She takes each pill to try to numb her. She tries to shut off these feelings but she can’t. She gets high as hell, and still feels the regret, anger, sadness, and loneliness. They tell her she has friends,...
I take each pill to make me numb. To take away these feelings, and you helped, for a while at least. My mind became numb and I thought way less. But the actual emotions themselves never left. I used to try to get it to go away, but cutting and starving are harder to hide. I’m constantly under pressure and pushed way too far, until one day, I’ll snap.
She takes each pill to try to numb her. She tries to shut off these feelings but she can’t. She gets high as hell, and still feels the regret, anger, sadness, and loneliness. They tell her she has friends,...
#depression
#addiction
#support
#FeelingLost
#emptiness
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