Submissions by thoughtsdie

POEMS AND SHORT STORIES

Poet Introduction

My writing has been described as cryptic and ambiguous. I appreciate any interpretations that people may have. Often my notes are full of scrambled thoughts that I try to piece together in poetry.

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thoughtsdie
SELF POEM
Published
21st Dec 2024 7:20am

What is left

Sometimes I don't know
What keeps me here
What tortures me enough to stay
I can't tell what I am anymore
A roll of flesh
Wanting nothing more than decay
To be consumed by earths hunger

or

A demon devouring itself away?
 #dark   #death   #depression   #SelfHarm   #suicide 
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thoughtsdie
SELF POEM
Published
12th Sep 2024 8:27am

Cracks

Spiders thread themselves in my life
They hide in dark places
Under blankets
Behind paintings
Inside dead pages
Between all the cracks breaking me
 #apathy   #dark   #despair   #disappointment   #emptiness 
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thoughtsdie
SELF POEM
Published
17th Aug 2024 5:35pm

I miss shadows

I miss my little light
It kept me sane
Inside the darkness of my pain
Now crawling alone
Where my shadows used to glow
They've outgrown me
Faded into a place unknown
Where is my lighter
I miss my casted friends
 #depression   #despair   #SelfHarm   #suffering   #FeelingLost 
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thoughtsdie
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
13th Aug 2024 5:13pm

Note from the psych ward

I feel like I'm losing it, I can't hurt myself the way I want to in here. Instead, I feel parts of my soul burning in hell. I would rather feel the burn of my matches than the fires of hell below. The demons are smiling, they enjoy my torment, they know that they've done the worst. They are the ones who taught me to relentlessly torture myself. Does pain ever end? Even if it does its all for nothing. Hell is where there is no end, eternal suffering, a wasted sacrifice. I'll take my chances and hope this place isn't it. That's all I've got going for me. The hope of death. I hate the feeling of...
 #death   #depression   #despair   #emptiness   #suicide 
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thoughtsdie
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th Aug 2024 5:03pm

Moss Pillows in the Field

My pillow is sheeted in moss
Maybe this is where
The sun shines not enough
I sleep here
Guard your memory from growing green
Listen to lullaby engravings
Brush cold stone
Breath alone
Feel your absence
 #depression   #grief 
 #hurt   #TruthOfLife 
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thoughtsdie
SELF POEM
Published
15th Jul 2024 00:52am

Storms Breath

The dust of remains
Tucks in the dead
Never leaves crevices vacant
Or wrinkles clean
Land is always ready for sweeping
 
With traces of existence
I bring back faces  
Forgotten since the first grain
Expressionless  
 
Fall through grasps  
Stick onto wounds  
Grind down to a being less
Someone who never was
But a breath you took
 
Every storm carries a part of us
Gone, lost forever
Exhales gather
 #apathy   #bittersweet 
 #death   #storm 
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thoughtsdie
SELF POEM
Published
12th Jul 2024 6:26pm

Wrinkles of Potential

Words are the temptress of my fingertips
They gravitate to vastening spaces
Sometimes I get lost between lines
Or cut through edges of this wrinkled mind
Find infinite pages inside
Waiting to saturate all it’s potential
 #LifeAsAWriter   #WritingPoetry 
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thoughtsdie
DARK POEM
Published
12th Jun 2024 8:31am

Executioner

The waves have eroded mountains in your eyes Crafted by mother’s earths swordsman
Dented folds stratify infinite circles of your soul
The katana only reflects a sliver of your essence
A weapon of art, a dangerous sultry
I want you to be the one
Who ends this misery
 #apathy   #bittersweet   #dark   #death   #suffering 
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thoughtsdie
SELF POEM
Published
26th May 2024 9:05am

Without Rest

Take one step at a time
Live day by day
My feet sift across the world grave
Don't forget to dig
Before you lay
 #apathy   #death   #emptiness 
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thoughtsdie
DARK POEM
Published
16th May 2024 8:40am

Sighs of Winds

Shadows sliver days
Nightmare contours shades
Only flesh colors the grey
Inside lays graveyards of pain
I’ve decayed to dust
Waiting to bury bodies
Sighs of wind shovel us
 #apathy   #depression 
 #emptiness   #SelfHarm 
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thoughtsdie
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
17th Apr 2024 5:58pm

Deafening Scream 6/20/23

We’re all screaming over each other and no one can’t make out their own voices. The suffering is so loud we don’t even realize we’ve gone deaf, because it continues in our heads. Covering the ears only makes the sound clearer, making noise adds to the sound itself. It’s finds a way to make every second of living torture. Deaths whisper calls out in this chaos, a brief moment of relief before it fades out again and I’m stuck here unable to listen. What a fucking tease.
 #dark   #death   #despair 
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thoughtsdie
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
17th Apr 2024 7:25am

Journal Entry (1 year old)

I don’t see the point in trying if nothings going to work. I can’t climb myself out of this hole when the walls keep breaking off with each attempt. And with each effort I only fall again with new injuries. Soon enough my whole body will break and have no strength to climb up again. My body is decaying and becoming a part of this dark, empty, nothingness. The walls are caving in and it’s raining. The rain cries for me and I’m drowning. I’m stuck and all I can do is wait for my last breath to come. The only comfort I have is the certainty of my demise.
 #depression   #suicide 
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