Submissions by sosherose

What if its all just umbrellas for the rain?
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We’ve just shoved ourselves down the drain?
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Where do I put all this pain?

My soul is on fire
You are my antidote
Though I’ll never find you
After all, I’m a blaze

You were like a blanket of fear.
I was afraid to take you off but just as afraid if not more so to keep you on.
 It was cold most nights and lonely even though it was heavy and overcrowded.
 I hated you.
 I hated the thought that you home and I hated what you had done to my family.
You broke me.
Your walls were thin and bare and most of the time the quietness that once consumed my nights had been overtaken by the sobbing of my sister and I and the relentless creaking of my mother’s bed.
 I wanted so bad to wake up and realize that this was just a...

You’re always there but I rebuke you.
My eyes find you but I refuse you
My days are bright but you threaten dark
Lingering over me like a cloud above the sea
I long to outrun you, though too dry without you
Smiles find my gaze only to blur your shadow
Who could I be
Where could I go
These things ill never know because you control me.

beautifully broken I awake standing on shattered glass
I can feel the shards puncture my feet but I feel no urge to move
maybe the pain is what my body craves, or maybe ive just become so numb to what hurts me
either way im frozen
I look down slowly as my mind generically takes in my surroundings
blood.
almost immediately my hands fall to the glass.
i clasp a piece in my grip and watch the red river flow from my hand
its nothing like the pain ive felt before
its euphoric.
its captivatingly calm.
i am alive.
all at once i succumb...