Submissions by pixxxiepoet (XKill Me RomanticallyX)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Hi, I'm Molly & I'm an addict... oh wait, wrong building, huh? Every fuckin' time, I swear...
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
25th Jan 2010 8:48pm
25th Jan 2010 8:48pm
Expirience.
Words left on repeat to replay my backwards fading memories,
and I think you may have misunderstood me when I said
I might still believe in myself.
What I really meant to say
was that my mind still remains but I’m tied down to this shame
well you antagonize my each and every mistake.
These chains are such a waste of space,
I’ve given up on running away,
I finally took the blame and I think I’m ready to face this now.
I was so wrong to deny a belief in these demons,
the ones I willingly consumed…
all the while knowing I could never escape...
and I think you may have misunderstood me when I said
I might still believe in myself.
What I really meant to say
was that my mind still remains but I’m tied down to this shame
well you antagonize my each and every mistake.
These chains are such a waste of space,
I’ve given up on running away,
I finally took the blame and I think I’m ready to face this now.
I was so wrong to deny a belief in these demons,
the ones I willingly consumed…
all the while knowing I could never escape...
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SELF POEM
Published
21st Jan 2010 5:49am
21st Jan 2010 5:49am
I would shut up if I thought it mattered.
A young girl wonders alone along a windy broken path,
A passage filled with monsters and demons brought up from her past,
Along this road she'll search and seek a cure for a curses wrath,
To find only potions and spells that wear off only to fast.
She trips and tumbles getting nowhere at all,
Running throughout an endless forest bearing a fork at each bend,
Slipping into eternity to forever fall...
All this only to destroy the shattered future she struggles to defend.
She's fighting a war no person could win,...
A passage filled with monsters and demons brought up from her past,
Along this road she'll search and seek a cure for a curses wrath,
To find only potions and spells that wear off only to fast.
She trips and tumbles getting nowhere at all,
Running throughout an endless forest bearing a fork at each bend,
Slipping into eternity to forever fall...
All this only to destroy the shattered future she struggles to defend.
She's fighting a war no person could win,...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
21st Jan 2010 5:42am
21st Jan 2010 5:42am
I can't afford to care.
Don't take it all to seriously,
we were only telling the
TRUTH
...
But that never mattered, it's just not all that important to people like you.
Not as long as you can avoid it, take it and run until they get far enough away to twist my word into your tangled-tattered lies.
You were charging by the moment, and all the while they're passing this along down the line as payment for another hit.
And you get off by passing it on as a social disease.
((a new brand of the designer STD))
Society excepts this, without hesitation. I mean, everyone's doing...
we were only telling the
TRUTH
...
But that never mattered, it's just not all that important to people like you.
Not as long as you can avoid it, take it and run until they get far enough away to twist my word into your tangled-tattered lies.
You were charging by the moment, and all the while they're passing this along down the line as payment for another hit.
And you get off by passing it on as a social disease.
((a new brand of the designer STD))
Society excepts this, without hesitation. I mean, everyone's doing...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
20th Jan 2010 6:20pm
20th Jan 2010 6:20pm
Lawless & Lost (f**ked with fusion)
It’s just a little insane, the thought that, even after growing up surrounded by drug addicts… people who really never gave a fuck about anything more then the drugs they did, the dealers that dealt them and themselves, in that order, can still manage to hurt me, and I still manage to care about them. After so many years of watching there constant up and downs, being treated like I matter, only to be made to feel like complete shit five minutes later. Anyone else in the world would have so quickly just said “fuck you” and left, erasing any and all memories of them, but I just can’t. I guess...
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Jan 2010 6:10pm
20th Jan 2010 6:10pm
(stuck in a state of questioning)
What’s left to believe in once you’ve taken the “lie” from this belief?
These indefinite explanations you always leave me with can only maintain my nearly overwhelming uncertainties,
and I’m already feeling so completely unsure while becoming even more dependant on past experience’s to fight off my pressing insecurities.
I’m here just watching time expire.
All the while I’ve been letting myself honestly open up to these things I haven’t felt in years.
I might almost let this moment pass as we’re nearly ready to release.
Once hindered pendulums are left hanging low with...
These indefinite explanations you always leave me with can only maintain my nearly overwhelming uncertainties,
and I’m already feeling so completely unsure while becoming even more dependant on past experience’s to fight off my pressing insecurities.
I’m here just watching time expire.
All the while I’ve been letting myself honestly open up to these things I haven’t felt in years.
I might almost let this moment pass as we’re nearly ready to release.
Once hindered pendulums are left hanging low with...
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LOVE POEM
Published
20th Jan 2010 9:13am
20th Jan 2010 9:13am
You're no good at lying & I'm no good at comebacks.
Because I didn’t want to go down that road again…
I didn’t want to be there anymore
I fought my hardest to break down those walls
And you’d just hurt me again like you did before
The whole time believing you’d never let me fall
But then the world around us came crumbling down
And the only thing you really cared about was your own tragedy
You never even heard her heart break.. You didn’t hear a sound
Too jaded to see that there was so much more right in front of you, hidden,
Stalking you and lurking from within the irony
And all this...
I didn’t want to be there anymore
I fought my hardest to break down those walls
And you’d just hurt me again like you did before
The whole time believing you’d never let me fall
But then the world around us came crumbling down
And the only thing you really cared about was your own tragedy
You never even heard her heart break.. You didn’t hear a sound
Too jaded to see that there was so much more right in front of you, hidden,
Stalking you and lurking from within the irony
And all this...
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LOVE POEM
Published
20th Jan 2010 9:07am
20th Jan 2010 9:07am
Undead and Dying for your Love
We live for this pain we still love today,
All in spite of regrets left from yesterday.
(lie to us)
Can't you see- trust is NOTHING but a word,
And true trust can be seen- not always heard.
(push us)
So go ahead and break me- make me go crazy.
I'm of flesh and blood- something you can't be.
(still undead)
Now it's all on you- just make the call,
You fucked yourself over- nowhere left to fall.
(crash and burn)
So this was the fear you kept hidden inside?
Now we've uncovered the truth- masks...
All in spite of regrets left from yesterday.
(lie to us)
Can't you see- trust is NOTHING but a word,
And true trust can be seen- not always heard.
(push us)
So go ahead and break me- make me go crazy.
I'm of flesh and blood- something you can't be.
(still undead)
Now it's all on you- just make the call,
You fucked yourself over- nowhere left to fall.
(crash and burn)
So this was the fear you kept hidden inside?
Now we've uncovered the truth- masks...
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LOVE POEM
Published
18th Jan 2010 8:06am
18th Jan 2010 8:06am
Out of sight... Out of mind. (are we running out time?)
There is a difference between HERE…
And NOW.
See-
I’m still HERE,
Waiting
The same place I’ve always been…
And right NOW,
This very moment
You’re living in a lie.
(but only when you’re lying to me)
You’re alive
And breathing
With the world at your finger tips…
And my life is in your hands.
I’m alone
And fading.
Every heartbeat only serves as a reminder
I may drown in these flames…
But I want you to remember-
I will ALWAYS love you.
And NOW.
See-
I’m still HERE,
Waiting
The same place I’ve always been…
And right NOW,
This very moment
You’re living in a lie.
(but only when you’re lying to me)
You’re alive
And breathing
With the world at your finger tips…
And my life is in your hands.
I’m alone
And fading.
Every heartbeat only serves as a reminder
I may drown in these flames…
But I want you to remember-
I will ALWAYS love you.
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DRUGS POEM
Published
18th Jan 2010 8:04am
18th Jan 2010 8:04am
Medicate Me, My Love
This tangled web we must weave,
Runs around between these days,
A permanent shelter to the lies we’ll believe,
Destroying passages built along the way.
Reinforcement of dreams drag beyond this life,
Naïvely brainwashed as we’ve slept to cleanse these filthy minds,
Foretold of futures written in an afterlife,
Expectations to hold our faith alone among the blind.
Presenting a pill for every problem,
Opened up and shoved down our throats,
Fresh desires contain new ways to fully medicate them,
Monitor every moment to take down careful notes.
Living...
Runs around between these days,
A permanent shelter to the lies we’ll believe,
Destroying passages built along the way.
Reinforcement of dreams drag beyond this life,
Naïvely brainwashed as we’ve slept to cleanse these filthy minds,
Foretold of futures written in an afterlife,
Expectations to hold our faith alone among the blind.
Presenting a pill for every problem,
Opened up and shoved down our throats,
Fresh desires contain new ways to fully medicate them,
Monitor every moment to take down careful notes.
Living...
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ANGER POEM
Published
17th Jan 2010 10:52pm
17th Jan 2010 10:52pm
f**k. You.
FUCK
the bullshit.
FUCK the liars.
FUCK all the fucking idiots.
&& FUCK people who say they care.
FUCK passion.
&& FUCK you people.
FUCK your words.
FUCK all your fucking lies.
FUCK promises- they don't mean shit.
FUCK your 'just don't give a fuck' attitude.
&& FUCK stupid excuses.
FUCK all your fucking explanations.
FUCK feelings.
&& FUCK second chances.
FUCK every wasted fucking day.
FUCK my trust- it's never enough anyways.
&& FUCK how you think I'm so fucking stupid...
FUCK...
the bullshit.
FUCK the liars.
FUCK all the fucking idiots.
&& FUCK people who say they care.
FUCK passion.
&& FUCK you people.
FUCK your words.
FUCK all your fucking lies.
FUCK promises- they don't mean shit.
FUCK your 'just don't give a fuck' attitude.
&& FUCK stupid excuses.
FUCK all your fucking explanations.
FUCK feelings.
&& FUCK second chances.
FUCK every wasted fucking day.
FUCK my trust- it's never enough anyways.
&& FUCK how you think I'm so fucking stupid...
FUCK...
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Jan 2010 10:48pm
17th Jan 2010 10:48pm
I may be a sinner, but it wasn't me this time..
Trying to defend myself once again in this trial to prove my guilt.
I’m standing here stripped naked…
accused among a jury of critics.
Your faults are far greater then mine,
but only I’m exposed by hypocrites.
Verdict now pending.
Just pretend you don’t hear me confessing…
I’m taking this last chance to tell you the truth,
prove my innocence.
We tend to fall for every pretty word,
which was more then enough and not even what we need,
but that’s what keeps us coming back for more.
I just kept falling for you.
Why should you see through me,...
I’m standing here stripped naked…
accused among a jury of critics.
Your faults are far greater then mine,
but only I’m exposed by hypocrites.
Verdict now pending.
Just pretend you don’t hear me confessing…
I’m taking this last chance to tell you the truth,
prove my innocence.
We tend to fall for every pretty word,
which was more then enough and not even what we need,
but that’s what keeps us coming back for more.
I just kept falling for you.
Why should you see through me,...
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LOVE POEM
Published
17th Jan 2010 2:02pm
17th Jan 2010 2:02pm
A(nother) Letter To Someone Like You
What the fuck do you think love means?
(a different interpretation of the obvious)
You know I could have faked it too,
But I’m not that selfish,
Pathetic… or reckless.
Your mental fictions covered the bullshit
Kept you clear from succumbing to this condition.
And your forked tongue will undoubtedly be your fall from grace
But it’s your silence that’s left me stunned and speechless.
You just don’t give two shits about my own self doubt now do you?
All along I was led to believe you were the escape
Meant to remind me…
Turns out you were only the...
(a different interpretation of the obvious)
You know I could have faked it too,
But I’m not that selfish,
Pathetic… or reckless.
Your mental fictions covered the bullshit
Kept you clear from succumbing to this condition.
And your forked tongue will undoubtedly be your fall from grace
But it’s your silence that’s left me stunned and speechless.
You just don’t give two shits about my own self doubt now do you?
All along I was led to believe you were the escape
Meant to remind me…
Turns out you were only the...
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