Submissions by msbeav (Brenda)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Why
Why do we begin if we
dont plan to finish?
Why do we love if we don't want to get hurt?
Why do we live if someday we must die?
Why do we smile if we hurt inside?
Why do we frown when our world is upside down?
Why do we plan but not take action?
Why do we cry and say were alright?
Why do we get mad when were just sad?
Why do we say hello if we mean goodbye?
Why do we question what shouldn't be questioned
and answer what shouldn't be answered?
WHY?
dont plan to finish?
Why do we love if we don't want to get hurt?
Why do we live if someday we must die?
Why do we smile if we hurt inside?
Why do we frown when our world is upside down?
Why do we plan but not take action?
Why do we cry and say were alright?
Why do we get mad when were just sad?
Why do we say hello if we mean goodbye?
Why do we question what shouldn't be questioned
and answer what shouldn't be answered?
WHY?
#identity
#confessional
#myself
#confusion
#SelfReflection
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What If ?
Maybe things don't happen for a reason. Maybe we're just grasping for ways to make sense of the chaos around us. Maybe we're giving meaning to things that have no meaning. Maybe we're clinging to hope so hard that we forget about reality. What if we're wrong and nothing is meant to be?
What if we're just lost souls wandering aimlessly, desperately seeking comfort from the notion that things will work out in the end, no matter what.
What if we tricked ourselves into believing that everything will be ok just so we don't have to face the reality that maybe it won't?
What if we're just lost souls wandering aimlessly, desperately seeking comfort from the notion that things will work out in the end, no matter what.
What if we tricked ourselves into believing that everything will be ok just so we don't have to face the reality that maybe it won't?
#frustration
#confusion
#disappointment
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Daddys Girl
I was always a daddy's girl ... Even after I was grown with a daughter of my own, my dad was always there for me. He believed in me and encouraged me to take chances and to step outside of the Box.
He loved me unconditionally and
when he died a part of me died also
He was my hero and now he was gone.
But when the wind blows through the trees, I feel him right next to me.
Sometimes he meets me in my dreams, and i feel him kiss my forehead before he leaves. When I wake I can smell his cologne lingering in the room, and I know I'm the luckiest girl alive...
He loved me unconditionally and
when he died a part of me died also
He was my hero and now he was gone.
But when the wind blows through the trees, I feel him right next to me.
Sometimes he meets me in my dreams, and i feel him kiss my forehead before he leaves. When I wake I can smell his cologne lingering in the room, and I know I'm the luckiest girl alive...
#father
#separation
#daughter
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I'm Tired
I'm tired of hearing words like
Time heals everything.
Time will never heal this empty place called my heart.
I'm tired of hearing
She loves you, your her mom and you can't be replaced.
Hmm ... seems I'm not only replaceable but disposable too.
I'm so tired of putting on a fake smile and pretending to be happy.
I'm tired of being strong and holding back the tears.
Truth is - I'm lost.
The pain is unbearable.
I can hardly breathe.
I'm so very , very, tired.
Time heals everything.
Time will never heal this empty place called my heart.
I'm tired of hearing
She loves you, your her mom and you can't be replaced.
Hmm ... seems I'm not only replaceable but disposable too.
I'm so tired of putting on a fake smile and pretending to be happy.
I'm tired of being strong and holding back the tears.
Truth is - I'm lost.
The pain is unbearable.
I can hardly breathe.
I'm so very , very, tired.
#anger
#heartbroken
#despair #emptiness
#despair #emptiness
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Speed Demon
I'm writing this letter to tell you goodbye. I admit this is not easy for me, you were my first love and we've been together 33 years. I barely remember life without you.
When we were together, I was able to forget my problems and all my fears seemed to disappear. But so did my morals, feelings and any self worth I ever had. My depression was gone with your presence and you put a smile on my face, not even death could erase. We've seen many die before and in front of us and you said " Never look back " which I didnt ... until now.
I've had some of my best conversations with...
When we were together, I was able to forget my problems and all my fears seemed to disappear. But so did my morals, feelings and any self worth I ever had. My depression was gone with your presence and you put a smile on my face, not even death could erase. We've seen many die before and in front of us and you said " Never look back " which I didnt ... until now.
I've had some of my best conversations with...
#addiction
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Living a Lie
She was lost.
And didn't know how to feel anymore.
She was both happy and sad.
At the same time.
Nobody knew how she really felt.
She kept it quiet.
She kept it for herself.
She lost so much.
And gained so little.
She never felt good enough.
For anyone.
Not even herself.
She walked with a smile.
Like everything was fine.
But deep down she knew.
She was living a lie.
She would forgive.
Over and over again.
She expected too much.
She never learned to let go.
What she...
And didn't know how to feel anymore.
She was both happy and sad.
At the same time.
Nobody knew how she really felt.
She kept it quiet.
She kept it for herself.
She lost so much.
And gained so little.
She never felt good enough.
For anyone.
Not even herself.
She walked with a smile.
Like everything was fine.
But deep down she knew.
She was living a lie.
She would forgive.
Over and over again.
She expected too much.
She never learned to let go.
What she...
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Final Act
I no longer think
But act
Its a complicated play
I've written
Is the final act about to close
Or is there more to see?
No eye contact now
Or I will break
And the play will be gone
The curtains drawn
And they will see
Its not a play
But reality
And the figure
On the stage
Is really me.
But act
Its a complicated play
I've written
Is the final act about to close
Or is there more to see?
No eye contact now
Or I will break
And the play will be gone
The curtains drawn
And they will see
Its not a play
But reality
And the figure
On the stage
Is really me.
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Daddy
I'm not ready for your goodbye
Nor so long or see you later
I'm not ready for the end.
Not ready for this reality.
I'm not ready for this life.
One without you in it.
I'm not ready for your goodbye.
Maybe someone else's.
Anyone else's.
Just not yours, never ever yours
Death doesn't become you
It isn't your best color
Please remind me your indestructible
Just like we always believed
Please tell me Daddy
You will always be my best friend
Tell me you will never leave me
And you will be here till the end ...
Nor so long or see you later
I'm not ready for the end.
Not ready for this reality.
I'm not ready for this life.
One without you in it.
I'm not ready for your goodbye.
Maybe someone else's.
Anyone else's.
Just not yours, never ever yours
Death doesn't become you
It isn't your best color
Please remind me your indestructible
Just like we always believed
Please tell me Daddy
You will always be my best friend
Tell me you will never leave me
And you will be here till the end ...
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Look At Me
You brought me to my knees
I'm not as strong as I used to be.
Where once there was confidence
Now there is only defense.
I'm the enemy in your eyes
I'm captured in this web of lies.
I sit alone without a prayer
My body shakes with despair.
You've taken from me all you can take
And made sure I paid for each mistake.
You watch me sit in total fear
And laugh at each and every tear.
As I lean against this giant wall
I pray that God will take my call.
You tell the world of all my faults
And now you win by...
I'm not as strong as I used to be.
Where once there was confidence
Now there is only defense.
I'm the enemy in your eyes
I'm captured in this web of lies.
I sit alone without a prayer
My body shakes with despair.
You've taken from me all you can take
And made sure I paid for each mistake.
You watch me sit in total fear
And laugh at each and every tear.
As I lean against this giant wall
I pray that God will take my call.
You tell the world of all my faults
And now you win by...
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Mama
Mama, why am I so alone?
I can't go outside
I'm scared I might not make it home.
I'm alive
But I'm sinking.
I've been here before
But I deserve a little more.
Mama, why are they lying?
When I think of heaven
I think of dying.
Please help me ...
I'm falling
Sinking.
Believe in me
Help me believe in me.
I want to be someone who believes
Mama, can't you see?
I can't go outside
I'm scared I might not make it home.
I'm alive
But I'm sinking.
I've been here before
But I deserve a little more.
Mama, why are they lying?
When I think of heaven
I think of dying.
Please help me ...
I'm falling
Sinking.
Believe in me
Help me believe in me.
I want to be someone who believes
Mama, can't you see?
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Don't You Know ?
I whisper your name.
Can you feel my heart broken
Can you see my tears flowing
Can you hear my soul shouting?
I wonder if you ever think of me
Do you ever dream of me?
Do you ever cry out for me
Alone, in the dark, at night?
Dont you miss me?
Don't you need me?
Don't you love me?
Don't you know ...
A child needs her mama
And mama needs her Brandi Lee.
Can you feel my heart broken
Can you see my tears flowing
Can you hear my soul shouting?
I wonder if you ever think of me
Do you ever dream of me?
Do you ever cry out for me
Alone, in the dark, at night?
Dont you miss me?
Don't you need me?
Don't you love me?
Don't you know ...
A child needs her mama
And mama needs her Brandi Lee.
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Best Friend - Worst Enemy
I found a new friend today
A friend to take my fears away.
It is a friend that you must buy
It has a name - it's called a high.
It seems to be the latest style
" You're welcome here , let's smoke awhile. "
It turns me loose , it sets me free
From the dullness of reality.
But sometimes though I start to wonder
Does it lift me up or drag me under?
The fears it took were only hidden
And feelings seem to be forbidden.
Now my friend has turned on me
And thus become my enemy.
I think about the price I pay
And go get high...
A friend to take my fears away.
It is a friend that you must buy
It has a name - it's called a high.
It seems to be the latest style
" You're welcome here , let's smoke awhile. "
It turns me loose , it sets me free
From the dullness of reality.
But sometimes though I start to wonder
Does it lift me up or drag me under?
The fears it took were only hidden
And feelings seem to be forbidden.
Now my friend has turned on me
And thus become my enemy.
I think about the price I pay
And go get high...
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