Submissions by marina2020 (Rain Woman)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write in the dead of night, scribbling my emotions on a page.
The Endless Forest
I go into the forest
The forest thickens
Thickens all around
Around me animals hurry
Hurry in every direction
Every direction is blocked
Blocked with vines and branches
Branches sticking out
Out of many trees
Trees are endlessly tall
Tall yet rising higher
Higher till the sky is gone
Gone from my view
My view is closing
Closing the deeper I go
I go into the forest
The forest thickens
Thickens all around
Around me animals hurry
Hurry in every direction
Every direction is blocked
Blocked with vines and branches
Branches sticking out
Out of many trees
Trees are endlessly tall
Tall yet rising higher
Higher till the sky is gone
Gone from my view
My view is closing
Closing the deeper I go
I go into the forest
#forest
#trees
#nature
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Guilty Pleasure
Guilt washes over me
as I make a forth stroke
my leg is dripping with blood
yet I don't feel much pain
I know I should stop
but I can't
I keep saying 'this is it' and 'its the last time'
but I always keep coming back for more
The scissors are sharper
than my usual dull pocket knife
the blade slides effortlessly across my pale skin
and blood oozes out
I sit here wondering
why do I do this to myself
I'm addicted
I can't stop
I can't explain the relief
that I feel with each new wound ...
as I make a forth stroke
my leg is dripping with blood
yet I don't feel much pain
I know I should stop
but I can't
I keep saying 'this is it' and 'its the last time'
but I always keep coming back for more
The scissors are sharper
than my usual dull pocket knife
the blade slides effortlessly across my pale skin
and blood oozes out
I sit here wondering
why do I do this to myself
I'm addicted
I can't stop
I can't explain the relief
that I feel with each new wound ...
#dark
#SelfHarm
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Nightmare
I'm running
but not fast enough
I try harder
but still to no avail
I look behind
someone is chasing me
He has a gun
and is aiming it at me
I turn my head back
feet still moving
I see a wall
blocking my way
I have no where to go
and I can't seem to slow down
Panic runs through my every nerve
but I still don't have control
The wall is coming on fast
I try harder to stop
suddenly as I smack the wall
I jolt awake
I panic more ...
but not fast enough
I try harder
but still to no avail
I look behind
someone is chasing me
He has a gun
and is aiming it at me
I turn my head back
feet still moving
I see a wall
blocking my way
I have no where to go
and I can't seem to slow down
Panic runs through my every nerve
but I still don't have control
The wall is coming on fast
I try harder to stop
suddenly as I smack the wall
I jolt awake
I panic more ...
#anxiety
#dreams
#scary
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Temperary Bliss
I relax with every stroke
I push my worries away
I choose the color carefully
and paint from my imagination
I think of a theme and
grab the corresponding acrylics
I take a handful of brushes
not knowing the size I'll need
I pick the 8 by 10 canvas
so I can make tiny details
I sit and I paint
for hours getting it right
I feel more calm
and less out of control
My breathing labored
and my mind blank
It is not perfect
but I am content
My goal was not the...
I push my worries away
I choose the color carefully
and paint from my imagination
I think of a theme and
grab the corresponding acrylics
I take a handful of brushes
not knowing the size I'll need
I pick the 8 by 10 canvas
so I can make tiny details
I sit and I paint
for hours getting it right
I feel more calm
and less out of control
My breathing labored
and my mind blank
It is not perfect
but I am content
My goal was not the...
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Hidden Scars
i scratch my skin
one last time
watching the blood
ooze out of my thigh
the lines go deeper
and darker every night
only a thin layer
covers it from the world
they see nothing
on my arms anymore
they never thought
to check elsewhere......
one last time
watching the blood
ooze out of my thigh
the lines go deeper
and darker every night
only a thin layer
covers it from the world
they see nothing
on my arms anymore
they never thought
to check elsewhere......
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Lonely
I'm lost without you
you are the missing piece
missing piece of my heart
my heart aches when we can't talk
can't talk nor speak for days
for day I dream of us
us all alone together
together we were invincible
invincible against the world
the world that you left
you left me alone
alone without you
you are the missing piece
missing piece of my heart
my heart aches when we can't talk
can't talk nor speak for days
for day I dream of us
us all alone together
together we were invincible
invincible against the world
the world that you left
you left me alone
alone without you
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Last Moments
His shadow looms over me where ever I go
He stares at me longer and longer each night
His voice echo's all around
"you can't resist forever"
"you know this is the only way"
"you'll feel better"
"just one more time"
And there I go
cut after cut
trying to feel anything
stroke by stroke
thinking of all the people I have let down
I feel guilty
I wish for a different life
I just make everything worse
tears flood my eyes
blood flows down my arm
as I fall asleep for the last time
He stares at me longer and longer each night
His voice echo's all around
"you can't resist forever"
"you know this is the only way"
"you'll feel better"
"just one more time"
And there I go
cut after cut
trying to feel anything
stroke by stroke
thinking of all the people I have let down
I feel guilty
I wish for a different life
I just make everything worse
tears flood my eyes
blood flows down my arm
as I fall asleep for the last time
#SelfHarm
#shadows
#tragedy
#despair
#suffering
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You Ask
You ask "what's wrong"
but its a complicated answer
It's hard to describe
the feelings within
I dont have the will power
to do anything
I feel guilty all the time
thinking I am overreacting
I listen everyday
to people joking about suicide
I plan out the easiest
way to take my life
I gets headaches everyday
from all the yelling
The constant fighting in my house
leaves me crying myself to sleep
The rational side of me says
you'll be fine
but lately the...
but its a complicated answer
It's hard to describe
the feelings within
I dont have the will power
to do anything
I feel guilty all the time
thinking I am overreacting
I listen everyday
to people joking about suicide
I plan out the easiest
way to take my life
I gets headaches everyday
from all the yelling
The constant fighting in my house
leaves me crying myself to sleep
The rational side of me says
you'll be fine
but lately the...
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I Want To...
I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to cut
I want to break
I want to kill
I want to sink
I want to fall
I want to never wake up
But instead
I act and go on with my day
I want to scream
I want to cut
I want to break
I want to kill
I want to sink
I want to fall
I want to never wake up
But instead
I act and go on with my day
#identity
#myself
#confusion
#SelfReflection
#FeelingLost
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Aftermath
I was happy for a few hours
then I realised it was temporary
I should know to never get my hopes up
but the ignorant girl in me craves the fun
I know it gets ten times worse
after I feel like living a little
I crash
hard
Life sucks again
and I do things to myself that I should not
I get annoyed way to easily
and you're never here to help...
then I realised it was temporary
I should know to never get my hopes up
but the ignorant girl in me craves the fun
I know it gets ten times worse
after I feel like living a little
I crash
hard
Life sucks again
and I do things to myself that I should not
I get annoyed way to easily
and you're never here to help...
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Mirrors Don't Lie
I look in the mirror and see
lack of sleep
even less food
no interests
pain
tears
scars
and no beauty
lack of sleep
even less food
no interests
pain
tears
scars
and no beauty
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Arguing
Why do you insist
on arguing with me
You always want
the last word
Even when you know
your fucking wrong
You challenge
everything
Just fuck off
and get out
I dont give a shit
anymore
I just can't stand
you at all
you make all my anger
rise within me
you push every button
of rage I have
you hit every
wrong nerve
I am done
just done
with you
and this world
on arguing with me
You always want
the last word
Even when you know
your fucking wrong
You challenge
everything
Just fuck off
and get out
I dont give a shit
anymore
I just can't stand
you at all
you make all my anger
rise within me
you push every button
of rage I have
you hit every
wrong nerve
I am done
just done
with you
and this world
#anger
#rejection
#conflict
#disappointment
#deception
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