Submissions by luvtrish05
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
1st Dec 2015 00:22am
1st Dec 2015 00:22am
To The One Who Should Matter
To The One Who Should Matter,
I know how you feel, I still feel that way. There's no easy fix, or even one I know of, although I still hope. There aren't words to make it better - magic doesn't exist in the world we live in.
We've both forgotten what it's like to want to exist, to continue living. I've never been convinced that we ever knew what that feels like. It's been so long that we've lived this way; I can't remember ever not. I still hope it gets better. Even when you stopped caring, I still hoped. Even when I stop caring, that hope still burns - it hurts.
...
I know how you feel, I still feel that way. There's no easy fix, or even one I know of, although I still hope. There aren't words to make it better - magic doesn't exist in the world we live in.
We've both forgotten what it's like to want to exist, to continue living. I've never been convinced that we ever knew what that feels like. It's been so long that we've lived this way; I can't remember ever not. I still hope it gets better. Even when you stopped caring, I still hoped. Even when I stop caring, that hope still burns - it hurts.
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SELF POEM
Published
30th Nov 2015 11:43pm
30th Nov 2015 11:43pm
Nonexistent
Let's pretend I don't exist
Makes it easier to me
It's not like I'm ever really here
At least, that's how it seems
I've called, I've begged, I've screamed for help
Stuck in this horrible dream
No one seems to have even heard
I think they all went running
Alone, alone
I don't want to be
Existing, but just barely
I can't do this on my own
Everybody has left me
I can't bring myself to care
I barely have energy to breathe
But none of this I should ever share
I just don't want this to be my ending
Heart is breaking, lungs...
Makes it easier to me
It's not like I'm ever really here
At least, that's how it seems
I've called, I've begged, I've screamed for help
Stuck in this horrible dream
No one seems to have even heard
I think they all went running
Alone, alone
I don't want to be
Existing, but just barely
I can't do this on my own
Everybody has left me
I can't bring myself to care
I barely have energy to breathe
But none of this I should ever share
I just don't want this to be my ending
Heart is breaking, lungs...
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SELF POEM
Published
21st Sep 2015 8:28pm
21st Sep 2015 8:28pm
Sleep
Maybe if I sleep enough
I'll eventually not wake up
Who really wants to live my day?
There's nothing that's enough
I can't live with this silence
I can't stand the noise
Spending my days staring at the ceiling
Screaming lyrics, every verse
Maybe if I scream enough
I can lose all those words
Scream away ghosts of every other
And, just maybe, I'm sure
If I can manage to sleep long enough
I'll eventually not wake up.
I'll eventually not wake up
Who really wants to live my day?
There's nothing that's enough
I can't live with this silence
I can't stand the noise
Spending my days staring at the ceiling
Screaming lyrics, every verse
Maybe if I scream enough
I can lose all those words
Scream away ghosts of every other
And, just maybe, I'm sure
If I can manage to sleep long enough
I'll eventually not wake up.
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
12th Jul 2015 7:43pm
12th Jul 2015 7:43pm
Social Worker To Save
I've finally figured out why I want to be a social worker more than anything, why I specifically want to work with child protective services.
I want to be a social worker to save a little 7 year old from waking up before everyone else, grabbing a knife, and thinks about suicide and if their little body has the strength to shove that sharp metal into their body, just so they can die. So, I can save a child from wanting to die before they have a chance to live.
I want to be a social worker because I want to save a little 8 year old from thinking everyone hates them, and...
I want to be a social worker to save a little 7 year old from waking up before everyone else, grabbing a knife, and thinks about suicide and if their little body has the strength to shove that sharp metal into their body, just so they can die. So, I can save a child from wanting to die before they have a chance to live.
I want to be a social worker because I want to save a little 8 year old from thinking everyone hates them, and...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Jul 2015 8:43am
12th Jul 2015 8:43am
Sleepless Night
This is the night that never ends
It just goes on and on, my friends
Dancing in the dark, visiting my sins
Mourn every death, every lost friend
This is the night that never ends
The clock ticks on and on, my friends
It just goes on and on, my friends
Dancing in the dark, visiting my sins
Mourn every death, every lost friend
This is the night that never ends
The clock ticks on and on, my friends
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Jul 2015 11:02pm
7th Jul 2015 11:02pm
Enough
The incoming rejection
Something I always see coming
It's something I don't want
Will I ever be enough?
I wasn't meant to become this
I wasn't meant to heal
But so many people with so many problems
Only I seem like enough
circle after circle
Cornered in the same old wall
I just want to break free
None of this is good enough
Facing shadows, facing pasts
Facing horrors, facing mirrors
I see me in every one of you
Maybe none of us are good enough
I keep trying to find something different
Everything is the...
Something I always see coming
It's something I don't want
Will I ever be enough?
I wasn't meant to become this
I wasn't meant to heal
But so many people with so many problems
Only I seem like enough
circle after circle
Cornered in the same old wall
I just want to break free
None of this is good enough
Facing shadows, facing pasts
Facing horrors, facing mirrors
I see me in every one of you
Maybe none of us are good enough
I keep trying to find something different
Everything is the...
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Jul 2015 10:57pm
7th Jul 2015 10:57pm
My Shame
Those screams echoed the ones in my head
She just had more courage than I ever did
While she immediately fought, I wished for Death
If I had done the same, could it have turned out different?
Circles, running in the same old thoughts
Still haven't found the answers I have sought
Too many what if's, not enough change
I think of 8 years ago
Some things are the same
I just want to take it back, redo everything
Apologize to all for what I've done
Find some way to carry on
But attempting to right my wrongs
Is living a life I didn't want
I...
She just had more courage than I ever did
While she immediately fought, I wished for Death
If I had done the same, could it have turned out different?
Circles, running in the same old thoughts
Still haven't found the answers I have sought
Too many what if's, not enough change
I think of 8 years ago
Some things are the same
I just want to take it back, redo everything
Apologize to all for what I've done
Find some way to carry on
But attempting to right my wrongs
Is living a life I didn't want
I...
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Apr 2015 7:18pm
8th Apr 2015 7:18pm
Keep It In
Keep it in, keep it in, keep it in
Why did you ever do otherwise?
So happy you thought
That thought was a lie
Why did you ever believe it?
Are you that good at suffocating yourself?
Drowning in the traps
Keep it in, keep it in, keep it in
Whoever really wanted to hear that anyway?
Let's speak the truth so they can be angry
Keep it in
Jesus Christ, keep it in
You'll die if you do otherwise
To live you have to keep it in
Why did you ever do otherwise?
So happy you thought
That thought was a lie
Why did you ever believe it?
Are you that good at suffocating yourself?
Drowning in the traps
Keep it in, keep it in, keep it in
Whoever really wanted to hear that anyway?
Let's speak the truth so they can be angry
Keep it in
Jesus Christ, keep it in
You'll die if you do otherwise
To live you have to keep it in
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SELF POEM
Published
30th Mar 2015 4:27pm
30th Mar 2015 4:27pm
Both
Walking through my memory
Watching my own pain
If I could have it any other way
I would already have it changed
I was asked to speak to the 16 year old me
But I don't think she understands
How much I have changed
To not be able to help who I was then
Her and I are not alike
I don't think we ever were
She is who I once was
And I am who she'll be
She is one I used to love
I am one she doesn't want to see
All we have between each other
Are fingers pointing the blame
We're both wrong
We're both right
We're both one and the...
Watching my own pain
If I could have it any other way
I would already have it changed
I was asked to speak to the 16 year old me
But I don't think she understands
How much I have changed
To not be able to help who I was then
Her and I are not alike
I don't think we ever were
She is who I once was
And I am who she'll be
She is one I used to love
I am one she doesn't want to see
All we have between each other
Are fingers pointing the blame
We're both wrong
We're both right
We're both one and the...
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SELF POEM
Published
30th Mar 2015 4:19pm
30th Mar 2015 4:19pm
Dear 16
To my dear 16
If only you could have known
What I've learned only now
So you could avoid what I've done
To my dear 16
If only you had known
That running never helps
So we'll never be alone
To my dear 16
If only you had known
That those were the wrong choices
So I didn't have to escape what you've done
To my dear 16
If only I had known
To let you speak up
So we both could let go
If only you could have known
What I've learned only now
So you could avoid what I've done
To my dear 16
If only you had known
That running never helps
So we'll never be alone
To my dear 16
If only you had known
That those were the wrong choices
So I didn't have to escape what you've done
To my dear 16
If only I had known
To let you speak up
So we both could let go
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
15th Jan 2015 4:51am
15th Jan 2015 4:51am
Manic Ramblings
A phone call would be all it would take, and yet I know I can't do that. My mental state can't take anymore of the same games. I can't take anymore of the blame. I had a part, I take responsibility for what I've done, but I can't take the whole burden. I did what I had to, I shouldn't feel guilty, but I do. I broke a promise, I walked away, I went back on my word, but I had to escape. Even with the aftermath caused by my actions, I can't take this back, and I really don't want to. Not everything is my fault, although the consensus says otherwise. There are two sides to every story, people...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
3rd Dec 2014 2:57am
3rd Dec 2014 2:57am
Show Me You
Show me your shadows
Your demons left unseen
Open up your sorrow
And all your unanswered dreams
Share with me your fears
The truth I desire to see
Rather than what you show
The product of your editing
Share with me your hell
The chaos you live in by day
Let me see what darkness does
Especially when you can't be seen
Let me witness your unchecked tears
The truth I desire to see
Rather than what you show
The product of your editing
Show me how you lose control
And how you fall apart
Show me how you fix yourself...
Your demons left unseen
Open up your sorrow
And all your unanswered dreams
Share with me your fears
The truth I desire to see
Rather than what you show
The product of your editing
Share with me your hell
The chaos you live in by day
Let me see what darkness does
Especially when you can't be seen
Let me witness your unchecked tears
The truth I desire to see
Rather than what you show
The product of your editing
Show me how you lose control
And how you fall apart
Show me how you fix yourself...
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