Submissions by eswaller
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I have been writing poetry since middle school and it has stuck with me since then. I tend to write about real life situations and everything in between.
Seeing What He Does to You
I cannot turn away as I watch you secretly cry.
What good does he do if he always makes you sad?
Although you say you want to try
With him again, you should not. You should be mad
That he treats you badly. You deserve more than being
Treated like dirt. If you need a hug I am glad
To do that, but I am still always seeing
What he is doing to you. He promises to stay,
But he is going to continue to be leaving
You time and time again. His eye wanders like a stray
Bullet because he is always on the lookout for someone
Better and an easier...
What good does he do if he always makes you sad?
Although you say you want to try
With him again, you should not. You should be mad
That he treats you badly. You deserve more than being
Treated like dirt. If you need a hug I am glad
To do that, but I am still always seeing
What he is doing to you. He promises to stay,
But he is going to continue to be leaving
You time and time again. His eye wanders like a stray
Bullet because he is always on the lookout for someone
Better and an easier...
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Staying Away
It hurts to see that she still chooses
Me every time, no matter if I try to
Steer her in another direction
Towards someone who is more
Stable and can provide for her
More than I can. Someone who
Cannot hurt her like I can.
Someone who is more deserving
Of her than I am. She does not seem
To care or even notice any of it.
She is so stubborn. Does she
Not realize that I already have a
Reputation? I am already a
Heartbreaker. I am too bad for her
Maybe even too bad for someone
Who is too good like her. She is
Determined to...
Me every time, no matter if I try to
Steer her in another direction
Towards someone who is more
Stable and can provide for her
More than I can. Someone who
Cannot hurt her like I can.
Someone who is more deserving
Of her than I am. She does not seem
To care or even notice any of it.
She is so stubborn. Does she
Not realize that I already have a
Reputation? I am already a
Heartbreaker. I am too bad for her
Maybe even too bad for someone
Who is too good like her. She is
Determined to...
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Burnt to the Ground
My eyes flash in terror
To only think that my home,
My town, so beloved and
So sacred. Growing up
And staying with my friends
As kids normally do. Only to
Get destroyed and burnt
Down. I only wish that I
Could call out to my momma,
My everything since poppa
Left us. I want her to take me
Up in her arms, to tell me how
To get rid of the monsters.
If only she, my savior of
Another could protect me now,
To tell me more of her stories
That help me sleep at night.
More of those monsters
Are coming, killing every...
To only think that my home,
My town, so beloved and
So sacred. Growing up
And staying with my friends
As kids normally do. Only to
Get destroyed and burnt
Down. I only wish that I
Could call out to my momma,
My everything since poppa
Left us. I want her to take me
Up in her arms, to tell me how
To get rid of the monsters.
If only she, my savior of
Another could protect me now,
To tell me more of her stories
That help me sleep at night.
More of those monsters
Are coming, killing every...
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Your Past Together
The long line of girls who are waiting for you
Will mean nothing to you anymore as you are
Thinking about that one girl who you blew
All your chances with. She was on your radar
And one of the rare few, but she departed
From sight again. She was your only star,
Leading and guiding you. She was bighearted
And kind, which is why she forgave too much.
However with you she was cautious and halfhearted.
You tried to sooth her with a soft touch,
But it only reminded her that you have a long
History of other girls before her....
Will mean nothing to you anymore as you are
Thinking about that one girl who you blew
All your chances with. She was on your radar
And one of the rare few, but she departed
From sight again. She was your only star,
Leading and guiding you. She was bighearted
And kind, which is why she forgave too much.
However with you she was cautious and halfhearted.
You tried to sooth her with a soft touch,
But it only reminded her that you have a long
History of other girls before her....
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Companionship
To you it was never about romance
Although you gave me flowers, helped
Me over puddles, walking me to
The BART station, helping me put
On my coat, protecting me while
Crossing the street, and paying for
When we go out. Maybe it was just
The way you were raised or maybe
Deep down inside you just really
Liked me. Whatever it was, all I wanted
Was your companionship, but with a
Little something extra to it. Although
You were the one to say that you were
Not ready for this type of relationship
Because all that you have gone through,
I...
Although you gave me flowers, helped
Me over puddles, walking me to
The BART station, helping me put
On my coat, protecting me while
Crossing the street, and paying for
When we go out. Maybe it was just
The way you were raised or maybe
Deep down inside you just really
Liked me. Whatever it was, all I wanted
Was your companionship, but with a
Little something extra to it. Although
You were the one to say that you were
Not ready for this type of relationship
Because all that you have gone through,
I...
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Different This Time
I have knots in my stomach,
But I will not let them show
Especially out in the open
And to you. I have been
Vulnerable with you before
And I will not do that again.
You popped back into my
Life and I am trying to not
Rush into this like I did
The last time. I want you
To mean something to me
Like you did before. Let this
Time be different. This time
We do not have to let people
Know what we do and that
Will only be between us.
But I will not let them show
Especially out in the open
And to you. I have been
Vulnerable with you before
And I will not do that again.
You popped back into my
Life and I am trying to not
Rush into this like I did
The last time. I want you
To mean something to me
Like you did before. Let this
Time be different. This time
We do not have to let people
Know what we do and that
Will only be between us.
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Healing My Soul
What we had between you and me was only
Supposed to be a temporary fix. Then you
Had to make me believe in something holy
Because it was like you knew
That you were healing parts of my soul
That was broken. You made the whole zoo
In my chest settle. You knew how to console
Me when things were going bad and crazy.
You were the one who stole
Pieces of me when you made everything less hazy.
I wanted to heal the broken parts
In you too. I know that it was never easy
For you to let me in. I was never trying to pierce
Anything,...
Supposed to be a temporary fix. Then you
Had to make me believe in something holy
Because it was like you knew
That you were healing parts of my soul
That was broken. You made the whole zoo
In my chest settle. You knew how to console
Me when things were going bad and crazy.
You were the one who stole
Pieces of me when you made everything less hazy.
I wanted to heal the broken parts
In you too. I know that it was never easy
For you to let me in. I was never trying to pierce
Anything,...
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Reunited Once Again
Lay me down next to him
So he does not feel so alone
In this world that has let
Him down. I want to crawl
Into this cocoon with him
So that he knows that I am
Right there with him. He may
Be as dead and cold as his
Tombstone, but nothing
Including the rain could ever
Disturb the peace. Although
He is lifeless and still, he will
Be alive in my mind where
We are dancing. We are
Laughing and smiling
Although he is no longer
Walking this earth. I am
Missing the twinkle in his
Eyes and the swagger in ...
So he does not feel so alone
In this world that has let
Him down. I want to crawl
Into this cocoon with him
So that he knows that I am
Right there with him. He may
Be as dead and cold as his
Tombstone, but nothing
Including the rain could ever
Disturb the peace. Although
He is lifeless and still, he will
Be alive in my mind where
We are dancing. We are
Laughing and smiling
Although he is no longer
Walking this earth. I am
Missing the twinkle in his
Eyes and the swagger in ...
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Temporary Fix
Smoldering eyes watching my every move
Even when you did not look at me. I never
Felt that you had the need to prove
Something to me and to yourself. Whatever
This was, it was only going to be temporary
And never permanent. In that moment I needed
Something opposite of light and airy.
I wanted something fiery and we succeeded
In having that. I felt the need to be wanted.
I know that this was only a temporary fix.
There was no need to be bonded
To you forever. This was not a time for tricks
And games. You played them and me well. ...
Even when you did not look at me. I never
Felt that you had the need to prove
Something to me and to yourself. Whatever
This was, it was only going to be temporary
And never permanent. In that moment I needed
Something opposite of light and airy.
I wanted something fiery and we succeeded
In having that. I felt the need to be wanted.
I know that this was only a temporary fix.
There was no need to be bonded
To you forever. This was not a time for tricks
And games. You played them and me well. ...
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Always Mine
From the first moment I held your hand
In mine, I definitely knew that this was
Something magical. As I stand
With my head against your heart, the ice thaws
And melts away. I am left feeling your
Unwavering strength. You see the flaws
In me and still love me anyways. You pour
Your love into me so I am feeling full and you
Show me that life is more than being grandeur.
Life is more than enjoying the view.
Sometimes we have to see life from
The very bottom also. You are always trying to
Keep the skies blue....
In mine, I definitely knew that this was
Something magical. As I stand
With my head against your heart, the ice thaws
And melts away. I am left feeling your
Unwavering strength. You see the flaws
In me and still love me anyways. You pour
Your love into me so I am feeling full and you
Show me that life is more than being grandeur.
Life is more than enjoying the view.
Sometimes we have to see life from
The very bottom also. You are always trying to
Keep the skies blue....
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Rose Colored World No More
Everything, including the sky is tainted.
You showed me that much before. I wish
That you would have painted
Me the whole clear sky, but it is too childish
And romantic to do that in your eyes.
You never know that you are being too selfish
And insecure. Can I say final my goodbyes?
If only you saw it all from my perspective
Then you would not be complaining. My highs
Were better that what you could give
Me in the end. You did not care to know
About my lows either. You were being evasive
And avoiding the obvious truth. This...
You showed me that much before. I wish
That you would have painted
Me the whole clear sky, but it is too childish
And romantic to do that in your eyes.
You never know that you are being too selfish
And insecure. Can I say final my goodbyes?
If only you saw it all from my perspective
Then you would not be complaining. My highs
Were better that what you could give
Me in the end. You did not care to know
About my lows either. You were being evasive
And avoiding the obvious truth. This...
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Your True Colors
My feelings were hidden from view.
I never wanted to hide what
I was feeling away from you.
Deep down in my gut
And intuition was the truth
That everything was going to cut
Me deep. It did nothing to soothe
My irrational fears of you leaving.
It turned out that I saw your true
Being and colors shining
On through. I prayed for some
Miracle. I thought it would bring
You and I back in rhythm like a drum.
We got out of sync and you were no
Longer a part of this dance. I feel numb.
You and I were supposed to go...
I never wanted to hide what
I was feeling away from you.
Deep down in my gut
And intuition was the truth
That everything was going to cut
Me deep. It did nothing to soothe
My irrational fears of you leaving.
It turned out that I saw your true
Being and colors shining
On through. I prayed for some
Miracle. I thought it would bring
You and I back in rhythm like a drum.
We got out of sync and you were no
Longer a part of this dance. I feel numb.
You and I were supposed to go...
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