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comfort zone - attempt four
your comfort zone is where you feel safe and sound
breaking out of it seems hard, tiring
you urge to recharge to feel sanity and to start over again,
in order to grow
my comfort zone is a papercard house exposed to storms everyday
even stepping out of it
for a couple of hours will break me,
for a couple of days and i’ll be gone.
i urge to relapse in order to feel sane, to drown again
relapse, because my mind can’t handle being well for ‘too long‘,
wanting to remind myself that i deserve pain, it burns all night
punishment for...
breaking out of it seems hard, tiring
you urge to recharge to feel sanity and to start over again,
in order to grow
my comfort zone is a papercard house exposed to storms everyday
even stepping out of it
for a couple of hours will break me,
for a couple of days and i’ll be gone.
i urge to relapse in order to feel sane, to drown again
relapse, because my mind can’t handle being well for ‘too long‘,
wanting to remind myself that i deserve pain, it burns all night
punishment for...
#depression
#SelfHarm
#MentalHealth #SelfWorth
#MentalHealth #SelfWorth
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maybe i am // too much
i pick my skin until i bleed
shut my eyes so i can’t see
how bad i look, but i hear them say
fat, disgusting, ugly, get away
maybe i am
maybe i am a problem
maybe i am my own death
maybe i am a person without depth
and all i do is hate myself
for everything that i am not
too much
too fat
too loud
too ill
too sad
too negative
too dramatic
all i hear
all i see
is what is disliked
is what is too much
how can i stop hating myself
stop hurting myself
in order to be liked
by...
shut my eyes so i can’t see
how bad i look, but i hear them say
fat, disgusting, ugly, get away
maybe i am
maybe i am a problem
maybe i am my own death
maybe i am a person without depth
and all i do is hate myself
for everything that i am not
too much
too fat
too loud
too ill
too sad
too negative
too dramatic
all i hear
all i see
is what is disliked
is what is too much
how can i stop hating myself
stop hurting myself
in order to be liked
by...
#hate
#dark
#SelfHarm
#shame
#SelfWorth
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fool
i may not be skinny
or can do a backflip
i don’t read the most books
or have the smartest brain
so what?
is the body i was born with,
a gift of the universe,
something i must be ashamed of?
what a fool i‘d be
to turn my back on something
so much bigger than us
than all of our prejudices
or can do a backflip
i don’t read the most books
or have the smartest brain
so what?
is the body i was born with,
a gift of the universe,
something i must be ashamed of?
what a fool i‘d be
to turn my back on something
so much bigger than us
than all of our prejudices
#love
#identity
#healing #SelfWorth
#healing #SelfWorth
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most beautiful soul
you were the one who told me
my eyes sparkle
you decided
that they’re ocean eyes
you are poetry in a world
that knows no depth
you are the light in my brain
that won’t open the blinds
how am i supposed to forget that?
wherever i am
i want to be with you
whatever i do
i want to share with you
lay in your loving arms
feel your warm breath
be part of your life
i am in between
wanting to forget everything i know
about you
me
us
and start to show you my love again
fully or not at...
my eyes sparkle
you decided
that they’re ocean eyes
you are poetry in a world
that knows no depth
you are the light in my brain
that won’t open the blinds
how am i supposed to forget that?
wherever i am
i want to be with you
whatever i do
i want to share with you
lay in your loving arms
feel your warm breath
be part of your life
i am in between
wanting to forget everything i know
about you
me
us
and start to show you my love again
fully or not at...
#love
#hope
#IMissYou #apathy
#IMissYou #apathy
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btcywtsitw
she has the power over me
she ignites flames
and erases it
just as easily
with her words
wordsmith
and i’m the imitator
copycat
she taught me so much
love and pain
showed me so much
music and resilience
i love her
i miss her
it’s a dangerous game
she ignites flames
and erases it
just as easily
with her words
wordsmith
and i’m the imitator
copycat
she taught me so much
love and pain
showed me so much
music and resilience
i love her
i miss her
it’s a dangerous game
#ImSorry
#TimeHeals
#admiration
#IMissYou
#apathy
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bittersweet
i told you everything
you knew about every detail
laid myself in your hands
like it was my undoubted fait
in the end, it hurt me so much
and i hurt you, too
now were not talking anymore
and i try to heal
from comparing us
except i’m 20 years younger
thought i needed to be perfect
in order to be liked
to be good
misinterpreted your words
day by day
almost a year passed since that day in may
passed by
almost a year passed
since you completely altered my life
i would do it all again ...
you knew about every detail
laid myself in your hands
like it was my undoubted fait
in the end, it hurt me so much
and i hurt you, too
now were not talking anymore
and i try to heal
from comparing us
except i’m 20 years younger
thought i needed to be perfect
in order to be liked
to be good
misinterpreted your words
day by day
almost a year passed since that day in may
passed by
almost a year passed
since you completely altered my life
i would do it all again ...
#ImSorry
#friendship
#MovingOn #bittersweet
#MovingOn #bittersweet
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mentally relapsing
it comes and goes in waves
but i didn’t learn how to ride
i was told to drown in them,
stay quiet, stay low.
it’s so dark at night, even darker in my head
and there it goes.
i relapsed mentally
why did i, why did i do that?
too fat, too big, too much of me
gross, disgusting, sick,
it doesn’t stop.
god, why doesn’t it stop?
like i don’t deserve the highs, the feel goods
no, i had to step on a scale
i had to relapse
mentally
and now i’m overwhelmed with guilt
please
don’t let me drown
but i didn’t learn how to ride
i was told to drown in them,
stay quiet, stay low.
it’s so dark at night, even darker in my head
and there it goes.
i relapsed mentally
why did i, why did i do that?
too fat, too big, too much of me
gross, disgusting, sick,
it doesn’t stop.
god, why doesn’t it stop?
like i don’t deserve the highs, the feel goods
no, i had to step on a scale
i had to relapse
mentally
and now i’m overwhelmed with guilt
please
don’t let me drown
#depression
#dark
#MentalHealth #FeelingLost
#MentalHealth #FeelingLost
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hope
my heart remains to hope
because it knows it wasn’t an ending
that should last forever
maybe it is now,
but it wasn’t when we decided to part ways
maybe it’s not real love
but desire
and maybe it’s because
you were the first to show me love
the realest love i’ve experienced
by now
but i can’t close the book
i keep rereading the chapters
until we talk again
our moon keeps rising
and i keep smiling
because it knows it wasn’t an ending
that should last forever
maybe it is now,
but it wasn’t when we decided to part ways
maybe it’s not real love
but desire
and maybe it’s because
you were the first to show me love
the realest love i’ve experienced
by now
but i can’t close the book
i keep rereading the chapters
until we talk again
our moon keeps rising
and i keep smiling
#love
#hope
#women #moon
#women #moon
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desperately trying to find an answer
your name on my screen
never left me cold
my heart always skipped a beat.
what keeps me going is the question whether
i am still grieving
or in love
never left me cold
my heart always skipped a beat.
what keeps me going is the question whether
i am still grieving
or in love
#love
#grief
#girlfriend #healing
#girlfriend #healing
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intelligence
the thing with intelligence is
you hold power
you pay the price
for you can see the depth
you see what goes wrong
and the beauty of what seems ugly at first
you know how to heal yourself
and intellectualize it
and you feel the downside:
self-destruction on the highest of levels
and fear that the power you hold
can’t be controlled
with the force it needs
you fear to hurt other people
and end up hurting yourself anyways
- please don’t isolate yourself because of this fear
you hold power
you pay the price
for you can see the depth
you see what goes wrong
and the beauty of what seems ugly at first
you know how to heal yourself
and intellectualize it
and you feel the downside:
self-destruction on the highest of levels
and fear that the power you hold
can’t be controlled
with the force it needs
you fear to hurt other people
and end up hurting yourself anyways
- please don’t isolate yourself because of this fear
#loneliness
#MentalHealth
#fear
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neuroplasticity
when i look in the mirror
i start to see someone beautiful
someone who knows her worth
and what makes her unique
the way my nose wrinkles when i laugh
and my eyes tear up when i read poetry
the way i love people
and my downward smile.
but what i came across is:
i want to be recognized as the things i relate to,
the intelligence and views on interesting topics.
universal beauty is a privilege, yet so shallow
what really counts within me is what remains
knowledge is what i am, what i consume
it makes me stronger ...
i start to see someone beautiful
someone who knows her worth
and what makes her unique
the way my nose wrinkles when i laugh
and my eyes tear up when i read poetry
the way i love people
and my downward smile.
but what i came across is:
i want to be recognized as the things i relate to,
the intelligence and views on interesting topics.
universal beauty is a privilege, yet so shallow
what really counts within me is what remains
knowledge is what i am, what i consume
it makes me stronger ...
#love
#identity
#healing #SelfWorth
#healing #SelfWorth
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what if
what if -
in a parallel universe,
against all odds -
you came across one of those poems
written while obsessing over you.
how would you feel?
would you be terrified?
or moved?
would you think of me?
or has your memory of me been deleted
like my number on your new phone?
you’re so near, yet so far
and i wonder
what if
i show you, and everything would change?
what if
i show you, and we’d be ready?
in a parallel universe,
against all odds -
you came across one of those poems
written while obsessing over you.
how would you feel?
would you be terrified?
or moved?
would you think of me?
or has your memory of me been deleted
like my number on your new phone?
you’re so near, yet so far
and i wonder
what if
i show you, and everything would change?
what if
i show you, and we’d be ready?
#love
#hope
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