Submissions by copingwithwords__
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
hi! currently, i try to heal from what’s going on in my head. my poems are a mirror to this journey - deep, painful, dark and honest.
SELF POEM
Published
3rd May 2023 10:27pm
3rd May 2023 10:27pm
low
hitting a low in class, swearing.
squinting at the board, staring.
digits, words blurring
my mind's shutting down
unable to focus,
uncontrollably shaking,
breathe!
don’t panic!
stay awake!
contribute to class!
never ending shouts
staringblurringshuttingdownbreathingspinning-
panic.
no end.
keep your head down until you run dry.
squinting at the board, staring.
digits, words blurring
my mind's shutting down
unable to focus,
uncontrollably shaking,
breathe!
don’t panic!
stay awake!
contribute to class!
never ending shouts
staringblurringshuttingdownbreathingspinning-
panic.
no end.
keep your head down until you run dry.
#loneliness
#school
#illness #diabetes
#illness #diabetes
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SELF POEM
Published
26th Apr 2023 9:36pm
26th Apr 2023 9:36pm
connect
i just can’t think of words
can‘t carry the weight they do
and can’t think as sharp
as i’d like to be.
there’s no creativity
or passion left
in my veins
blood runs cold
nights get shorter
and i get smaller
can’t think of something to write
and it drives me crazy
my mind is a mess
all confused because of them
people
circumstances
i am sick
and just want to lie down
in the dark, and
connect with the words again
can‘t carry the weight they do
and can’t think as sharp
as i’d like to be.
there’s no creativity
or passion left
in my veins
blood runs cold
nights get shorter
and i get smaller
can’t think of something to write
and it drives me crazy
my mind is a mess
all confused because of them
people
circumstances
i am sick
and just want to lie down
in the dark, and
connect with the words again
#night
#WritersBlock
#WritingPoetry
#confusion
#healing
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LOVE POEM
Published
15th Apr 2023 11:13pm
15th Apr 2023 11:13pm
reach out to you
it really is a shame
that i want to reach out to you
again.
exposing myself,
catching myself thinking about you.
it won’t change a thing,
it won’t matter.
do you think about me
the way i think about you
or do you even ignore me in your head?
i miss you,
i fucking miss you.
that way, it feels like you
don’t deserve that.
and why would you?
you don’t need me,
and you choose to neglect what we had.
yes, i‘m humiliated and hurt -
and i’ll express that.
i‘m not afraid, and i’m starting to get ...
that i want to reach out to you
again.
exposing myself,
catching myself thinking about you.
it won’t change a thing,
it won’t matter.
do you think about me
the way i think about you
or do you even ignore me in your head?
i miss you,
i fucking miss you.
that way, it feels like you
don’t deserve that.
and why would you?
you don’t need me,
and you choose to neglect what we had.
yes, i‘m humiliated and hurt -
and i’ll express that.
i‘m not afraid, and i’m starting to get ...
#anger
#grief
#memories #denial
#memories #denial
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ANGER POEM
Published
12th Apr 2023 4:36pm
12th Apr 2023 4:36pm
why
i saw you again today
and i wanted to scream
wanted to scratch my eyes out
so i don’t have to witness
you’re not looking at me,
you’re still ignoring me.
i smelled your scent again today
laying in bed with your hoodie on
i want to scream
break my nose
so i don’t have to witness
you’re not here with me.
i‘m done with sadness -
i am furious,
i am angry,
i am hurt,
i am disappointed.
why the fuck did you break your promises
the ones you swore you’d never break ...
and i wanted to scream
wanted to scratch my eyes out
so i don’t have to witness
you’re not looking at me,
you’re still ignoring me.
i smelled your scent again today
laying in bed with your hoodie on
i want to scream
break my nose
so i don’t have to witness
you’re not here with me.
i‘m done with sadness -
i am furious,
i am angry,
i am hurt,
i am disappointed.
why the fuck did you break your promises
the ones you swore you’d never break ...
#anger
#grief
#loneliness
#confusion
#separation
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LOVE POEM
Published
2nd Apr 2023 11:21pm
2nd Apr 2023 11:21pm
lighthouse
she’s my lighthouse
or at least
she was.
during storms,
she guided me
and guarded me -
lit up my way out
out of the trouble
or inner turmoil
and grounded me.
when the sun shone,
i made sure to tell her
how much i enjoyed her presence
and the freedom
she gave me -
i did not need her light,
in order to survive
but i adored it
in every color.
today,
she refuses to light up my way
to shine
so i can...
or at least
she was.
during storms,
she guided me
and guarded me -
lit up my way out
out of the trouble
or inner turmoil
and grounded me.
when the sun shone,
i made sure to tell her
how much i enjoyed her presence
and the freedom
she gave me -
i did not need her light,
in order to survive
but i adored it
in every color.
today,
she refuses to light up my way
to shine
so i can...
#love
#sea
#storm
#MovingOn
#IMissYou
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Apr 2023 11:07pm
2nd Apr 2023 11:07pm
tearless
heat came
and left me tearless
then people raged like storms
running right through me
dragging me
left me scarred
devastated
after the storm cleaned out
i was a mess
and i still am
heat still comes
storms still rage
and i still have scars
they display my strength
and will to clean up
i’m no longer tearless
there’s no drought
and i’m learning to be proud
without you
but with them
and left me tearless
then people raged like storms
running right through me
dragging me
left me scarred
devastated
after the storm cleaned out
i was a mess
and i still am
heat still comes
storms still rage
and i still have scars
they display my strength
and will to clean up
i’m no longer tearless
there’s no drought
and i’m learning to be proud
without you
but with them
#sadness
#strength
#friendship
#LifeStruggles
#storm
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LOVE POEM
Published
29th Mar 2023 11:10pm
29th Mar 2023 11:10pm
why do i miss you?
why do i miss you
the one who brought the drought
and, at the same time,
drowned me for everything that i had?
why do i miss you
the one to abuse me
at 13 years old
and locked me up in his room?
why do i miss you
the stupid, selfish
purely immature
teenage boy?
tonight, there’s no answer
there’s just a lack
lack of love and worth
of myself
there’s lack of physical touch
and kisses
and words of affirmations
words i fell for
and kisses i used to die for
so why...
the one who brought the drought
and, at the same time,
drowned me for everything that i had?
why do i miss you
the one to abuse me
at 13 years old
and locked me up in his room?
why do i miss you
the stupid, selfish
purely immature
teenage boy?
tonight, there’s no answer
there’s just a lack
lack of love and worth
of myself
there’s lack of physical touch
and kisses
and words of affirmations
words i fell for
and kisses i used to die for
so why...
#love
#children
#betrayal
#abuse
#manipulation
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Mar 2023 11:02pm
29th Mar 2023 11:02pm
memories of him
tonight,
my own scent triggers me
brings back memories of him
his hands where i didn’t want them to be
too young to understand,
too much to cope with.
but i liked to be touched
and from then on, i was stained
missed being touched
and sometimes i didn’t mind
whose hands touched me
because i wanted it so bad.
tonight,
i wondered who would touch me
feel my skin and what’s underneath
because if i am too much,
hands could barely hold me
so it only seemed fair
that the hands once holding me
just...
my own scent triggers me
brings back memories of him
his hands where i didn’t want them to be
too young to understand,
too much to cope with.
but i liked to be touched
and from then on, i was stained
missed being touched
and sometimes i didn’t mind
whose hands touched me
because i wanted it so bad.
tonight,
i wondered who would touch me
feel my skin and what’s underneath
because if i am too much,
hands could barely hold me
so it only seemed fair
that the hands once holding me
just...
#love
#lust
#abuse #SelfWorth
#abuse #SelfWorth
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SONG LYRICS
Published
25th Mar 2023 10:13pm
25th Mar 2023 10:13pm
; (keep on going)
(Verse 1)
You‘re the perfect friend
But you can’t seem to mend
There’s always something
That one dumb thing
That illness fighting you
Think you wont get through
It may seem easier to die
But you just can’t deny
That it won’t be any better
If you leave into the sky
By jumping of a ladder
(Refrain)
So try to keep on going
Fight for yourself and stop throwing
Yourself away
Someday it will be better
So please don’t jump of that ladder
And keep on going
(End Refrain)
So keep on...
You‘re the perfect friend
But you can’t seem to mend
There’s always something
That one dumb thing
That illness fighting you
Think you wont get through
It may seem easier to die
But you just can’t deny
That it won’t be any better
If you leave into the sky
By jumping of a ladder
(Refrain)
So try to keep on going
Fight for yourself and stop throwing
Yourself away
Someday it will be better
So please don’t jump of that ladder
And keep on going
(End Refrain)
So keep on...
#love
#friendship
#lyrics
#MentalHealth
#EatingDisorder
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LOVE POEM
Published
24th Mar 2023 7:46pm
24th Mar 2023 7:46pm
let‘s talk again
on my phone
nearly 30 poems
influenced by your soft soul
on my phone
evidence of my fondness
for your eyes, your lips,
for your voice, your hands
running over the keys of my piano
through my hair
i still feel your fingers on my skin
i can’t erase my memories
that night
the day in the park
i can’t forget about that
about us
about you
i‘m not over you,
i don’t think i’ll ever be
can we stop being in between
and clear this mist?
paper hearts water down
when there not in the dry ...
nearly 30 poems
influenced by your soft soul
on my phone
evidence of my fondness
for your eyes, your lips,
for your voice, your hands
running over the keys of my piano
through my hair
i still feel your fingers on my skin
i can’t erase my memories
that night
the day in the park
i can’t forget about that
about us
about you
i‘m not over you,
i don’t think i’ll ever be
can we stop being in between
and clear this mist?
paper hearts water down
when there not in the dry ...
#breakup
#LGBT
#lover #TimeHeals
#lover #TimeHeals
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SELF POEM
Published
19th Mar 2023 6:44pm
19th Mar 2023 6:44pm
wordsmith
my skin is a canvas
since i was born, i drew on it
i always had the utensils to create a masterpiece
since i was born, i knew that.
when i first went to school
they saw how different i was,
my mind and my body,
they didn’t like that
nor the fact that my skin
shone bright in all the colors of the rainbow.
the others may not have all the utensils i had
or didn’t know how to use them
now my pride began to crumble
because everything i liked -
everything i was - was disliked.
fast forward,...
since i was born, i drew on it
i always had the utensils to create a masterpiece
since i was born, i knew that.
when i first went to school
they saw how different i was,
my mind and my body,
they didn’t like that
nor the fact that my skin
shone bright in all the colors of the rainbow.
the others may not have all the utensils i had
or didn’t know how to use them
now my pride began to crumble
because everything i liked -
everything i was - was disliked.
fast forward,...
#anxiety
#courage
#abuse
#art
#acceptance
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LOVE POEM
Published
18th Mar 2023 11:33am
18th Mar 2023 11:33am
this bond
this bond was so much more
it was the strongest love i know
deep enough to survive hurricanes.
but now, all these memories
are being washed away
like chalk drawings on the sidewalk
trampled over and faded.
all these memories are being washed away
and i don‘t understand:
was this bond an illusion
a fata morgana to a dehydrated mind?
or am i the tsunami
that broke everything
without knowing it -
without wanting to?
it was the strongest love i know
deep enough to survive hurricanes.
but now, all these memories
are being washed away
like chalk drawings on the sidewalk
trampled over and faded.
all these memories are being washed away
and i don‘t understand:
was this bond an illusion
a fata morgana to a dehydrated mind?
or am i the tsunami
that broke everything
without knowing it -
without wanting to?
#grief
#loneliness
#shame
#memories
#separation
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