Submissions by cnbsoulmates
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
All This Time
I struggle to hold on
My heart just can’t let go
I miss you with every breath in me
And no way to let you know
The words on the radio
Always hit too close to home –
Like the country singer sings
“I Wanna Be That Song”
I am lost without my soulmate
I don’t know what to do
My mind just cannot accept
That I will never again see you
I long to look into your eyes
And see my own reflection
Wrap my arounds around you
Slip into that soul connection
I always felt alive with you
I was actually...
My heart just can’t let go
I miss you with every breath in me
And no way to let you know
The words on the radio
Always hit too close to home –
Like the country singer sings
“I Wanna Be That Song”
I am lost without my soulmate
I don’t know what to do
My mind just cannot accept
That I will never again see you
I long to look into your eyes
And see my own reflection
Wrap my arounds around you
Slip into that soul connection
I always felt alive with you
I was actually...
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Me - Part 1
I am a dreamer.
I have been all my life.
I am emotional.
I am overly emotional sometimes.
I don't know how it happened, but it did.
I tried to do the unthinkable when I was a stupid teen.
Yes. I admit it. I tried to kill myself.
Not once.
But twice.
First time - overdose.
I had it all planned.
I put my "goodbye world" letter in the local school paper.
Publishing day - I did it.
I swallowed a handful of Vicoden and percocet.
All I did was fall down and get really sick.
Of...
I have been all my life.
I am emotional.
I am overly emotional sometimes.
I don't know how it happened, but it did.
I tried to do the unthinkable when I was a stupid teen.
Yes. I admit it. I tried to kill myself.
Not once.
But twice.
First time - overdose.
I had it all planned.
I put my "goodbye world" letter in the local school paper.
Publishing day - I did it.
I swallowed a handful of Vicoden and percocet.
All I did was fall down and get really sick.
Of...
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My Life Line
When the night begins to lift away
memories begin to pour
Raging through my body
Before my feet ever hit the floor
I feel a whisper
Drift through the room
I sigh and say your name
Hoping you somehow hear it too
Life goes on for me
But I am empty in my heart
I miss “good morning” and “good night”
It hurts being so far apart
This life is very different now
Nothing feels the same
I seem to live in two different worlds
There is no one that’s to blame
The words to others have no meaning ...
memories begin to pour
Raging through my body
Before my feet ever hit the floor
I feel a whisper
Drift through the room
I sigh and say your name
Hoping you somehow hear it too
Life goes on for me
But I am empty in my heart
I miss “good morning” and “good night”
It hurts being so far apart
This life is very different now
Nothing feels the same
I seem to live in two different worlds
There is no one that’s to blame
The words to others have no meaning ...
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Unchartered Waters - The Poem
I hear the very first note of a song
I am suddenly paralyzed
Tears, laughter, hurt rushes in
I steady myself for the rising tide
The crazy wave of emotions
Lust, hunger, desire
The vivid memory of your eyes
Only serves to fuel the fire
I cover my eyes to no avail
Your smile just sails right through
Oh God - how I miss your voice
Telling me softly “I Love you…”
My throat begins to tighten
The heartache pours out in tears
I am overcome with emotion
I swim for the shore to outrun my fear ...
I am suddenly paralyzed
Tears, laughter, hurt rushes in
I steady myself for the rising tide
The crazy wave of emotions
Lust, hunger, desire
The vivid memory of your eyes
Only serves to fuel the fire
I cover my eyes to no avail
Your smile just sails right through
Oh God - how I miss your voice
Telling me softly “I Love you…”
My throat begins to tighten
The heartache pours out in tears
I am overcome with emotion
I swim for the shore to outrun my fear ...
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The Club Part 2 (Never Fear the Darkness)
When you cannot see the light of day
And worlds are falling apart
Never fear the darkness
It will weaken and blacken your heart
Life is full of discouraging moments
But not all of living is bleak
Never fear the darkness
The unnerving shadows will eventually retreat
Sometimes burdens suffocate
And the way is momentarily lost
Never fear the darkness
The void it creates is not worth the cost
No matter where I go, know this
My beacon is my soulmate true
Never fear the darkness
My soul is always a light...
And worlds are falling apart
Never fear the darkness
It will weaken and blacken your heart
Life is full of discouraging moments
But not all of living is bleak
Never fear the darkness
The unnerving shadows will eventually retreat
Sometimes burdens suffocate
And the way is momentarily lost
Never fear the darkness
The void it creates is not worth the cost
No matter where I go, know this
My beacon is my soulmate true
Never fear the darkness
My soul is always a light...
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The Club
Storm clouds in the distance
Where does she belong
The Suicide Club called
Wanting to take her home
Uncontrollable at times
life gets out of hand
She often questions herself
"Just where do I stand?"
What does it mean
to really be free
is that an answer
She is not meant to see?
She gives all she can
And loves with all her heart
Seems every time it beats
It takes her another mile apart
She struggles to move on
Somehow it just doesn't seem right
she says "To walk...
Where does she belong
The Suicide Club called
Wanting to take her home
Uncontrollable at times
life gets out of hand
She often questions herself
"Just where do I stand?"
What does it mean
to really be free
is that an answer
She is not meant to see?
She gives all she can
And loves with all her heart
Seems every time it beats
It takes her another mile apart
She struggles to move on
Somehow it just doesn't seem right
she says "To walk...
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A long year
Has it really been almost a year
Since last I saw your face
Or heard the words "I love you"
Or took comfort in your embrace?
Time has not made it easier
To accept that you are gone
It has only served to remind me
How much of my past you really own
One thing I have learned that
I never asked to be shown
Is how time marches slowly forward
And a life of me without you goes on
I never wanted to say goodbye
But it is what had to be done
I wish I could feel again like
When our passion had just begun
...
Since last I saw your face
Or heard the words "I love you"
Or took comfort in your embrace?
Time has not made it easier
To accept that you are gone
It has only served to remind me
How much of my past you really own
One thing I have learned that
I never asked to be shown
Is how time marches slowly forward
And a life of me without you goes on
I never wanted to say goodbye
But it is what had to be done
I wish I could feel again like
When our passion had just begun
...
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What if
What if you loved me
And could not let me go.
Would you hold my heart hostage?
Or would you even know?
What if I had never felt your warmth
Or looked into your eyes.
Would you even want to know
How much it hurts inside?
What if we could turn back time
Erase it and forget.
Would you wipe my memories away,
Consider me a regret?
What if I said I love you
Could you accept the truth?
Knowing what it could have been
If it all was up to you?
What if our paths had never crossed
And your love I...
And could not let me go.
Would you hold my heart hostage?
Or would you even know?
What if I had never felt your warmth
Or looked into your eyes.
Would you even want to know
How much it hurts inside?
What if we could turn back time
Erase it and forget.
Would you wipe my memories away,
Consider me a regret?
What if I said I love you
Could you accept the truth?
Knowing what it could have been
If it all was up to you?
What if our paths had never crossed
And your love I...
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Waiting forever on a lifetime
When I feel that soul connection
The passion runs so deep
Like being caught in a freefall
As you start to drift to sleep
A touch, a look, a glance, a smell
Searches my memory to find
The last hug, the last kiss, the last tear
Since I had to say goodbye
All it takes is just one song
The flood gates of emotion open wide
That butterfly feeling in my tummy
Makes it so hard not to smile
More than a crush or lust
Slower than a river winds
You are always in my heart
Forever on my mind
...
The passion runs so deep
Like being caught in a freefall
As you start to drift to sleep
A touch, a look, a glance, a smell
Searches my memory to find
The last hug, the last kiss, the last tear
Since I had to say goodbye
All it takes is just one song
The flood gates of emotion open wide
That butterfly feeling in my tummy
Makes it so hard not to smile
More than a crush or lust
Slower than a river winds
You are always in my heart
Forever on my mind
...
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Tomorrow
Who knows what tomorrow will bring...
Will it return lovers to love
Or will it never be the same
I am lost in total confusion
Not sure which way my fate must go
Perhaps a star will fall and be done
Always through the storms of life
Beckoning with their call
You will forever be my guide
The joy only you could give
That smile, that touch, your love
And for you my soulmate lives
I don't know what to do
My heart still beats lonely
But it will always beat for you
Will it return lovers to love
Or will it never be the same
I am lost in total confusion
Not sure which way my fate must go
Perhaps a star will fall and be done
Always through the storms of life
Beckoning with their call
You will forever be my guide
The joy only you could give
That smile, that touch, your love
And for you my soulmate lives
I don't know what to do
My heart still beats lonely
But it will always beat for you
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Rewind
Sometimes I have to catch my breath
When memories flood my mind
I sit silently still and wait
While my past suddenly rewinds
I close my eyes
And hold onto to my self really tight
I am dizzy with fear and sadness
At the thought of not really living life
Often times I abuse my mind
Call myself bad names
Spiraling downward in self hate
Because life can play cruel games
Just when I think I can't take another breath
I stop and close my eyes
I feel that soul connection
I inhale your memory and exhale with a...
When memories flood my mind
I sit silently still and wait
While my past suddenly rewinds
I close my eyes
And hold onto to my self really tight
I am dizzy with fear and sadness
At the thought of not really living life
Often times I abuse my mind
Call myself bad names
Spiraling downward in self hate
Because life can play cruel games
Just when I think I can't take another breath
I stop and close my eyes
I feel that soul connection
I inhale your memory and exhale with a...
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The Story of A Girl
Once there was a girl
tatterred, broken, and torn
love that once was hers
now it was no more
the boy she thought was him
grew farther from her heart
to him she was invisible
same room - yet miles apart
she thought she was at the end
several years went by
then she met a boy
he became her reason to smile
even though he never knew
his voice made her heart pound
then she met him face to face
head over heels - fate had made its sound!
all the time he made her day
and he never had a clue ...
tatterred, broken, and torn
love that once was hers
now it was no more
the boy she thought was him
grew farther from her heart
to him she was invisible
same room - yet miles apart
she thought she was at the end
several years went by
then she met a boy
he became her reason to smile
even though he never knew
his voice made her heart pound
then she met him face to face
head over heels - fate had made its sound!
all the time he made her day
and he never had a clue ...
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