Submissions by brokentitanium (k.)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I'm just a human living my life, and this is where I spill the stuff I can't say out loud. Sometimes the words arrange themselves nicely, and that's pretty cool.
Boxed in
Boxed in
I'm trying to breathe.
Expressions of self hit the glass
and fall limp with crooked wings
leaving nothing but a smear of hopeless feathers
My soul peeking out of this
mime-created imaginary cube,
I reach out and my fingers crumple
against an invisible wall
A prison - is it of my own making?
What holds me inside?
The easy answer is fear
but there is no prowling tiger out there
no mortal enemy
so fight-flight-freeze makes no rational sense
Yet here I sit, encased in ice. ...
I'm trying to breathe.
Expressions of self hit the glass
and fall limp with crooked wings
leaving nothing but a smear of hopeless feathers
My soul peeking out of this
mime-created imaginary cube,
I reach out and my fingers crumple
against an invisible wall
A prison - is it of my own making?
What holds me inside?
The easy answer is fear
but there is no prowling tiger out there
no mortal enemy
so fight-flight-freeze makes no rational sense
Yet here I sit, encased in ice. ...
#identity
#shame
#memories
#healing
#PersonalGrowth
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Shadow
knee-jerk forgiveness
brushes angry child aside
shadow, shunned again
.
brushes angry child aside
shadow, shunned again
.
#conflict
#senryu
#SelfDiscovery
#healing
#hurt
100 reads
4 Comments
Misjudged
I thought you knew my heart.
You certainly should have, because
I handed it over, piece by piece,
in return for crumbs from your table,
trusting they were your best offering.
"I don't want to think badly of anyone,"
I told her.
But after opening so many doors,
choosing vulnerability over and over
until I was powerless...
to then be so grossly misjudged?
It hurts.
I'm embarrassed by how much.
I really thought I was tougher than this.
The thrill of connection was worth
dancing with flames -- ...
You certainly should have, because
I handed it over, piece by piece,
in return for crumbs from your table,
trusting they were your best offering.
"I don't want to think badly of anyone,"
I told her.
But after opening so many doors,
choosing vulnerability over and over
until I was powerless...
to then be so grossly misjudged?
It hurts.
I'm embarrassed by how much.
I really thought I was tougher than this.
The thrill of connection was worth
dancing with flames -- ...
#regret
#hurt
#SelfWorth
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Smile
surface cracks heal up
faster than the wound inside
no one needs to know
.
faster than the wound inside
no one needs to know
.
#senryu
#MovingOn
#hurt
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Fallen
Fallen, deep in my darkness...
But what if it's the best of me?
the part that connects
with the hurts of the world
On the other side I sense
the oneness that eludes me
Here in coolness of shadows
I can feel my own warmth
.
But what if it's the best of me?
the part that connects
with the hurts of the world
On the other side I sense
the oneness that eludes me
Here in coolness of shadows
I can feel my own warmth
.
#love
#dark
#LifeStruggles
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Hellion
Why did I join this team?
This group of
steeped-in-tradition,
trained-in-conformity,
blinded-by-doctrine,
very certain
old white dudes?
Because this is where you've put me.
Maybe it's where I can
do the best damage.
.
This group of
steeped-in-tradition,
trained-in-conformity,
blinded-by-doctrine,
very certain
old white dudes?
Because this is where you've put me.
Maybe it's where I can
do the best damage.
.
#courage
#religion
#God #risk
#God #risk
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Plot twist
Reaching for a hand
bumped a trigger instead
Watching the projectile enter between ribs
Standing frozen
in that familiar helpless distortion
Reality melting as ears buzz
with the roar of silent confusion
Feeling the slow explosion inside
fragments flying off in all directions
lodging in heart, brain, throat
Smearing memories, slicing futures
This was an unforeseen plot twist
But look!
That growing red stain is so pretty
I guess this is how the end begins
.
bumped a trigger instead
Watching the projectile enter between ribs
Standing frozen
in that familiar helpless distortion
Reality melting as ears buzz
with the roar of silent confusion
Feeling the slow explosion inside
fragments flying off in all directions
lodging in heart, brain, throat
Smearing memories, slicing futures
This was an unforeseen plot twist
But look!
That growing red stain is so pretty
I guess this is how the end begins
.
#conflict
#PTSD
#apathy
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15 Comments
257 reads
18 Comments
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10 Comments
Not this time
paranoid
narcissistic
asshole
abuser
you have
tied me
into knots
for too long
I know
blood says
I should
love you
not sure I can
and still stay sane
it's not safe
I've forgiven
the past
many
years ago
we were young
you were
a victim
first
your weakness
becoming strength
over the only one
weaker
But
your present
victimhood
is in your head
not my fault
and I won't let you
make it
my burden
Not this...
narcissistic
asshole
abuser
you have
tied me
into knots
for too long
I know
blood says
I should
love you
not sure I can
and still stay sane
it's not safe
I've forgiven
the past
many
years ago
we were young
you were
a victim
first
your weakness
becoming strength
over the only one
weaker
But
your present
victimhood
is in your head
not my fault
and I won't let you
make it
my burden
Not this...
#family
#MentalHealth
#hurt #SelfWorth
#hurt #SelfWorth
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Black Hole Heart
My black hole heart
will suck in every ounce of love you give
and still be
empty
Once your acts of kindness
cross my event horizon
no matter how monumental your efforts
they will be crushed by the gravity of my need
into an infinitesimal
meaningless
speck
until you are
ultimately
frustrated to tears
and leave me
bereft
.
will suck in every ounce of love you give
and still be
empty
Once your acts of kindness
cross my event horizon
no matter how monumental your efforts
they will be crushed by the gravity of my need
into an infinitesimal
meaningless
speck
until you are
ultimately
frustrated to tears
and leave me
bereft
.
#shame
#myself
#despair #emptiness
#despair #emptiness
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Things that are slippery
Freshly cooked spaghetti, obviously,
and snot
and soap
and probably lots of things
that start with S.
My brain, I suspect
would quite literally be slippery
if I were to try and
hold it in my hands.
It's also quite slick
in a figurative sense,
unable to hold things
for very long
...
and snot
and soap
and probably lots of things
that start with S.
My brain, I suspect
would quite literally be slippery
if I were to try and
hold it in my hands.
It's also quite slick
in a figurative sense,
unable to hold things
for very long
...
#FeelingLost
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