You may love me all you want, but my heart isn't to be played with. You can give me your heart, but mine is something I can't give up. My world is something you want to be a part of, but you don't understand it's off limits.
You don't understand why I have all these boundaries. It's not easy to explain it all. I hide from you, but you don't know why. The only thing I can say is I don't want to introduce you to my demons.
I am the light house that guides ships home on a dark and stormy night. I am the light that people look for at the end of a long dark tunnel. I am the moon that lights up your way home. I am the Norther Star that watches over you. I am the lamp post that shines you out of harms way. I am the shooting star that you wish upon to make your life better. I am the angel that watches over you in your darkest hour. I am the light you see when you fade into the night. I am the light that pulls you out of darkness. ...
If there is one person in the world who is what I use to be it would be you. From the first time we talked I knew I was talking to myself.
It's weird cause I was your age when darkness started to consume me. I thought I could save you like the rest, but I was wrong.
Even though I could not see your eyes, I saw right through your words on the screen. It's scary to know you are the black rose I was. You are the shattered girl I was. You are my reflection. You are the one people said couldn't be saved.
Forward or backward I'm not sure which way I'm going. I'm a hero now, but all I feel like is a loner. I don't belong here.
This place use to be my home, but now it's just a dead building. I walk through hallways that use to scream my name, but they're silent. I walk through classrooms where I had pulled myself to the top, but it was obvious I no longer reigned. I didn't want to know, but too late I already knew. The message was loud and clear. I don't belong here.
Another day Another night I can't sleep. I lay in bed look up at the ceiling. Thoughts running through my mind. What do you do till the comes up? Watch a movie, Go on you tube, Surf the internet, listen to music. Sleepless nights hurt my eyes, The only one that talks to me is my stomach. Watching the sunrise is beautiful I rather get some shut eye though.
It's been two weeks, and I can't sleep. I have so much on my mind. I want to write it all down, but I can't.