Submissions by black_rose180 (Stephanie)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
ANGER POEM
Published
14th Aug 2015 10:33am
14th Aug 2015 10:33am
Tears to Zzzs
All I want is to be in his arms,
To feel safe again.
I miss waking up to his face every morning.
I was happy,
I miss feeling happy.
Now it feels like I've been knocked back down to square one,
Angry,
Depressed,
Scared,
Confused,
Frustrated,
Negative.
I can't even sleep without him next to me.
The only way I can actually sleep is crying myself there.
It seems like all my so called "friends" aren't my friends.
What is a friend anymore?
Sure as hell isn't the people that think they're my best friends.
To feel safe again.
I miss waking up to his face every morning.
I was happy,
I miss feeling happy.
Now it feels like I've been knocked back down to square one,
Angry,
Depressed,
Scared,
Confused,
Frustrated,
Negative.
I can't even sleep without him next to me.
The only way I can actually sleep is crying myself there.
It seems like all my so called "friends" aren't my friends.
What is a friend anymore?
Sure as hell isn't the people that think they're my best friends.
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
7th May 2015 7:05am
7th May 2015 7:05am
Stupid Dreams
I can't stop having the dreams.
It's almost like I can feel it all.
I couldn't tell anyone,
He's my cousin,
Family.
How he touched me,
Pinned me,
Hit me,
and raped me.
I knew something wasn't right,
I was 12 and still felt something bad,
and yet I couldn't run or fight back.
He was 22 and I was 12.
Happy vacation and birthday to me
It's almost like I can feel it all.
I couldn't tell anyone,
He's my cousin,
Family.
How he touched me,
Pinned me,
Hit me,
and raped me.
I knew something wasn't right,
I was 12 and still felt something bad,
and yet I couldn't run or fight back.
He was 22 and I was 12.
Happy vacation and birthday to me
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LOVE POEM
Published
14th Mar 2015 4:35am
14th Mar 2015 4:35am
Lies To Love
When I first saw you,
It was love at first sight.
Now I stand here looking,
For your everlasting lies.
Lies upon lies.
Who knows what to believe now,
Deceit at its finest,
Just lurking in the shadows you've conceived.
What's next?
More lies on top of these?
I knew all along what was done,
My heart broken,
Over and over again,
And I played along.
So blindly,
I followed you,
While my heart decayed.
It didn't matter to me that it was all a joke.
Now I ponder,
And wonder why I wasted my time for love I thought.
But...
It was love at first sight.
Now I stand here looking,
For your everlasting lies.
Lies upon lies.
Who knows what to believe now,
Deceit at its finest,
Just lurking in the shadows you've conceived.
What's next?
More lies on top of these?
I knew all along what was done,
My heart broken,
Over and over again,
And I played along.
So blindly,
I followed you,
While my heart decayed.
It didn't matter to me that it was all a joke.
Now I ponder,
And wonder why I wasted my time for love I thought.
But...
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SONG LYRICS
Published
13th Dec 2014 6:14am
13th Dec 2014 6:14am
My Favorite Song
Hello darkness my old friend,
I've come to talk to you again,
Because in visions softly creeping,
Left it's seeds while i was sleeping,
And the visions that was planted in my brain,
Still remains.
In the sound of silence.
This song makes my heart spill. It's just so pretty
I've come to talk to you again,
Because in visions softly creeping,
Left it's seeds while i was sleeping,
And the visions that was planted in my brain,
Still remains.
In the sound of silence.
This song makes my heart spill. It's just so pretty
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SELF POEM
Published
3rd Dec 2014 8:11pm
3rd Dec 2014 8:11pm
Happy?
Are you happy with yourself now?
I've stopped talking to everyone,
Stopped hanging out with everyone,
Told people off for you.
I'm lonely as shit,
I'm so depressed.
I can't go anywhere by myself without you assuming something bad,
Just to keep you.
I have no motivation to do anything anymore.
I can't have friends it seems with you or you'll scare them off.
You go through my phone and shit.
I can't stop crying or hurting,
Why should I trust you when you don't trust me?
I feel like I'm your own personal slut.
What does this ring on my...
I've stopped talking to everyone,
Stopped hanging out with everyone,
Told people off for you.
I'm lonely as shit,
I'm so depressed.
I can't go anywhere by myself without you assuming something bad,
Just to keep you.
I have no motivation to do anything anymore.
I can't have friends it seems with you or you'll scare them off.
You go through my phone and shit.
I can't stop crying or hurting,
Why should I trust you when you don't trust me?
I feel like I'm your own personal slut.
What does this ring on my...
952 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
16th Nov 2014 4:21am
16th Nov 2014 4:21am
Black Rose
Empty pedal piece,
eerie of horrible swirls,
a life faded or gone,
shades of lies and sins,
captured the beauty,
and turned it black,
all it wanted was some magic,
and love,
to turn it back to,
it's beautiful self.
eerie of horrible swirls,
a life faded or gone,
shades of lies and sins,
captured the beauty,
and turned it black,
all it wanted was some magic,
and love,
to turn it back to,
it's beautiful self.
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Nov 2014 10:00pm
15th Nov 2014 10:00pm
Loneliness is my worst enemy
I keep telling you,
Nothing's going on,
But you dont believe me,
No matter what i say,
You dont believe me.
You say that you know im hurting,
But you dont understand how much.
Yea you're hurting too,
But that doesnt mean you have to threaten me.
I know im a fuck up,
You dont have to keep reminding me.
Please don't leave,
I am trying to get better,
I truely am trying.
But all i really want is support and a friend.
Im trying to stop doing stupid things,
Im sorry,
So so sorry.
No matter how much i say it,
You just go...
Nothing's going on,
But you dont believe me,
No matter what i say,
You dont believe me.
You say that you know im hurting,
But you dont understand how much.
Yea you're hurting too,
But that doesnt mean you have to threaten me.
I know im a fuck up,
You dont have to keep reminding me.
Please don't leave,
I am trying to get better,
I truely am trying.
But all i really want is support and a friend.
Im trying to stop doing stupid things,
Im sorry,
So so sorry.
No matter how much i say it,
You just go...
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LOVE POEM
Published
21st Aug 2014 8:57pm
21st Aug 2014 8:57pm
Finally?
I believe I have found him.
My mystery man that i've been looking and yearning for,
he's swept me off my feet like superman,
protects me like batman,
is by my side like robin,
funny like deadpool,
psycho and super smart like joker,
intimidating like the hulk,
glares and growls at everyone who stares like a pitbull,
keeps me warm like a wood stove keeps a cabin warm.
Cooks his best dish like im the critic,
kisses me like it's the first,
stares and drools at me like a predator stalks his prey.
He feels bad for waking me up or bumping into me....
My mystery man that i've been looking and yearning for,
he's swept me off my feet like superman,
protects me like batman,
is by my side like robin,
funny like deadpool,
psycho and super smart like joker,
intimidating like the hulk,
glares and growls at everyone who stares like a pitbull,
keeps me warm like a wood stove keeps a cabin warm.
Cooks his best dish like im the critic,
kisses me like it's the first,
stares and drools at me like a predator stalks his prey.
He feels bad for waking me up or bumping into me....
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DRUGS POEM
Published
20th Aug 2014 4:42pm
20th Aug 2014 4:42pm
Sobriety
Moderation in or abstinence from liquor or other drugs
the day fades away into a terror filled night of loneliness and painful memories. Oh how I dread these nights alone I sit lost inside my head so I eat some zanex to put my mind to rest, and
when dawn breaks as always I finde my self alone and depressed but these valume I found should do the trick.
As to ease the pain of body and minde a hand full of morphene will do just fine untill the high is gone leaving me just alone as before sick and numb.
So this word sobriety has little meaning its a distasteful word all in its...
the day fades away into a terror filled night of loneliness and painful memories. Oh how I dread these nights alone I sit lost inside my head so I eat some zanex to put my mind to rest, and
when dawn breaks as always I finde my self alone and depressed but these valume I found should do the trick.
As to ease the pain of body and minde a hand full of morphene will do just fine untill the high is gone leaving me just alone as before sick and numb.
So this word sobriety has little meaning its a distasteful word all in its...
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DARK POEM
Published
3rd Aug 2014 5:20pm
3rd Aug 2014 5:20pm
Darkness Surrounds Me
I step in through the door and inside the house,
immediately black,
brick walls surround me.
Rust and paint creeping into my nostrils.
A rush of coldness flows through me,
filling my arms with goosebumps.
Out the corner of my eye,
I catch strands of silver mist swirling around.
It sped up to me,
whispers hisses in my ear.
I have no choice but to walk deeper into the darkness.
A crowd of bodies pushes me forward.
Webs slither like snakes against my bare legs.
The crunching of glass beneath my feet creates a steady rhythm.
A grotesque...
immediately black,
brick walls surround me.
Rust and paint creeping into my nostrils.
A rush of coldness flows through me,
filling my arms with goosebumps.
Out the corner of my eye,
I catch strands of silver mist swirling around.
It sped up to me,
whispers hisses in my ear.
I have no choice but to walk deeper into the darkness.
A crowd of bodies pushes me forward.
Webs slither like snakes against my bare legs.
The crunching of glass beneath my feet creates a steady rhythm.
A grotesque...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th Jun 2014 1:36am
13th Jun 2014 1:36am
Pep Peeve
It's kind of annoying,
how chicks are all like,
"I want my prince charming,"
but all they look for is if they're attractive.
or the size of their dicks,
they reject the guys that are actually a gentlemen,
and treat them like shit,
so they go for the douche bags that are players,
and immature assholes,
then the girls all cry and whine on facebook,
or any other social network about how they got hurt.
It's just a pep peeve of mine.
how chicks are all like,
"I want my prince charming,"
but all they look for is if they're attractive.
or the size of their dicks,
they reject the guys that are actually a gentlemen,
and treat them like shit,
so they go for the douche bags that are players,
and immature assholes,
then the girls all cry and whine on facebook,
or any other social network about how they got hurt.
It's just a pep peeve of mine.
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