Submissions by beanbandit (David Gonzales)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
In a half dead state, maybe comatose, I sorta chose this type of life over an overdose, and notice ghosts of a past that almost no one knows, except for maybe through a poets prose...
Kundilini
Tears fell from my eyes
the day the Martian Kundalini died
all my emotions far from surprise
as I found that I held the key to the lies
no heart could ever be heavier than mine
see, I was the one who opened the portal wide
my foolish mind
fed into the hubris that I could heal and revive
as equals in the universe I assured
that surely we deserved to survive
heart burning from the Martians cries
we would descend from the heavens
toward Earth to reside
taking the children as beloved brides
but when I, the Tau Cetian, and the Martians...
the day the Martian Kundalini died
all my emotions far from surprise
as I found that I held the key to the lies
no heart could ever be heavier than mine
see, I was the one who opened the portal wide
my foolish mind
fed into the hubris that I could heal and revive
as equals in the universe I assured
that surely we deserved to survive
heart burning from the Martians cries
we would descend from the heavens
toward Earth to reside
taking the children as beloved brides
but when I, the Tau Cetian, and the Martians...
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Speak like they do
He thought
I wanna speak like they do
he didn't look like them
and he knew they knew
when they called out to him
Like "Hey you, little guy,"
But sometimes vocal chords
betray you
And it's the words themselves
that stay glued
Until he learned the sounds
that they used
Strange tunes
The first song he learned
was "why"
And their answer was
"To play, fool"
so foolishly
he played too
And his tongue
made his word to
stay smooth
His second verse
was "how do I"...
I wanna speak like they do
he didn't look like them
and he knew they knew
when they called out to him
Like "Hey you, little guy,"
But sometimes vocal chords
betray you
And it's the words themselves
that stay glued
Until he learned the sounds
that they used
Strange tunes
The first song he learned
was "why"
And their answer was
"To play, fool"
so foolishly
he played too
And his tongue
made his word to
stay smooth
His second verse
was "how do I"...
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Much less myself
Sorry folks,
I don’t mean to bug thee,
with another sappy poem about how
happy love be,
I told you before
I don’t hide my ugly
but Imma make it clear
and simple
my loves mean,
I say nasty things,
think unhappy thoughts,
sold you hooks full of lies,
and if you bit you bought,
so know the shit I talk,
leaves my heart full of cavities,
cause the words are sweet
to hide the bitterness I have in me,
so excuse me if you thought
that I held you special,
cause if that’s what you’re looking for
go find that other fellow...
I don’t mean to bug thee,
with another sappy poem about how
happy love be,
I told you before
I don’t hide my ugly
but Imma make it clear
and simple
my loves mean,
I say nasty things,
think unhappy thoughts,
sold you hooks full of lies,
and if you bit you bought,
so know the shit I talk,
leaves my heart full of cavities,
cause the words are sweet
to hide the bitterness I have in me,
so excuse me if you thought
that I held you special,
cause if that’s what you’re looking for
go find that other fellow...
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Breathe
Breathe in
watch ticks, wrist drips
candle flame licks life
leave slits
brief flicks
snapshots
last stop
tip the tumbler
glass shatters
gulp shot
have another
gonna run away
breathe out
hits that spot
for the numb
or the dumb
if not for the funner day
gotta have it
got a habit
like one a day
return
one day we turn
to love the way we burn
at least
that's what the Sun'll say
and some'll say
the same shit
until their
skull is frayed
but me
Im'ma play
the record backward...
watch ticks, wrist drips
candle flame licks life
leave slits
brief flicks
snapshots
last stop
tip the tumbler
glass shatters
gulp shot
have another
gonna run away
breathe out
hits that spot
for the numb
or the dumb
if not for the funner day
gotta have it
got a habit
like one a day
return
one day we turn
to love the way we burn
at least
that's what the Sun'll say
and some'll say
the same shit
until their
skull is frayed
but me
Im'ma play
the record backward...
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In the bag
Aw fuckin hell
He's actin like he's in the bag again
Getting so high
Only lucifer can see me
from the vatican
And that's just me looking in the mirror
While I walk the path that I ascend
I am not bananas
Just the crate they put bananas in
I'm that akin
to beasts of burden
But am I the horse
Or the one who tightens
The straps of saddles in
I take myself back to school
In my mind
I'm Billy Madison
You wanna be high too
Well baby I'm your madicine
I just sit here crazy
Inside my walls
Going mad...
He's actin like he's in the bag again
Getting so high
Only lucifer can see me
from the vatican
And that's just me looking in the mirror
While I walk the path that I ascend
I am not bananas
Just the crate they put bananas in
I'm that akin
to beasts of burden
But am I the horse
Or the one who tightens
The straps of saddles in
I take myself back to school
In my mind
I'm Billy Madison
You wanna be high too
Well baby I'm your madicine
I just sit here crazy
Inside my walls
Going mad...
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Human
Oh am I human in my heart
or does the beast lay in my brain
should I seek truth from the stars
or is it my lie's yours the same
who were we feeding from the start
are we the fruit that shall remain
in love of hatred torn apart
to play hells heaven as a game
cursed is my reality
left cursing my duality
this curse that is my sanity
I thirst for my mistakes
Oh am I divine in my soul
trapped in the demon of my flesh
tell if this realms mine to control
with all its seasons second guessed
will all my evils take their toll
or will...
or does the beast lay in my brain
should I seek truth from the stars
or is it my lie's yours the same
who were we feeding from the start
are we the fruit that shall remain
in love of hatred torn apart
to play hells heaven as a game
cursed is my reality
left cursing my duality
this curse that is my sanity
I thirst for my mistakes
Oh am I divine in my soul
trapped in the demon of my flesh
tell if this realms mine to control
with all its seasons second guessed
will all my evils take their toll
or will...
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Starlight fall
Starlight fall
as the twilight's surrounding
come need me all
or forget that you found me
wrap your tea leaves around me
and sip the stardust groundings
Starlight fall
and leave the moon so lonely
teach me to crawl
until the scars are running bone deep
and I stand and you don't know me
while I breathe you and you only
Starlight fall
and lay here with me spinning
stay past the dawn
each day a new beginning
two strangers but we're willing
to find what life is giving
when the
Starlight
falls
as the twilight's surrounding
come need me all
or forget that you found me
wrap your tea leaves around me
and sip the stardust groundings
Starlight fall
and leave the moon so lonely
teach me to crawl
until the scars are running bone deep
and I stand and you don't know me
while I breathe you and you only
Starlight fall
and lay here with me spinning
stay past the dawn
each day a new beginning
two strangers but we're willing
to find what life is giving
when the
Starlight
falls
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Proof of me
I got a potty mouth
So everyday I'm pooping me
Who is he?
Not he who think
his shit don't stink
Just don't ever be confusing me
With all these other
Fruitless trees
I'm going nuts
So i harvest those
And give it all to you
For free
Cupid has a semiautomatic
And everyday he shoots at me
So I tell you that I love you all
And sit and grin inside my stupid glee
All I see is truth
And that's all I can give to you
Indeed
Heed my song but don't get me wrong
Only listen if you truly feel
That you've the need
Know...
So everyday I'm pooping me
Who is he?
Not he who think
his shit don't stink
Just don't ever be confusing me
With all these other
Fruitless trees
I'm going nuts
So i harvest those
And give it all to you
For free
Cupid has a semiautomatic
And everyday he shoots at me
So I tell you that I love you all
And sit and grin inside my stupid glee
All I see is truth
And that's all I can give to you
Indeed
Heed my song but don't get me wrong
Only listen if you truly feel
That you've the need
Know...
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Sleep
I can only dream of sleep
But that’s impossible you see
Cause I cant even sleep
To make the makings of a scene
That’s only seen when my eyes are closed
It only seems obscene cause my eyelids wont
And I chalk up another night where I lie awoke
And I invoke the sleeplessness of the later day
And stay awake
My last shred of patience wasted just to wait for day
And the way's been paved
By the sleep drain from the night before
And I implore the sand man to come and save me
To come and slay my...
But that’s impossible you see
Cause I cant even sleep
To make the makings of a scene
That’s only seen when my eyes are closed
It only seems obscene cause my eyelids wont
And I chalk up another night where I lie awoke
And I invoke the sleeplessness of the later day
And stay awake
My last shred of patience wasted just to wait for day
And the way's been paved
By the sleep drain from the night before
And I implore the sand man to come and save me
To come and slay my...
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HELL oN eARTH
Last night it seemed I awoke from a dream and, I was falling feelin small and screamin...
Damn... Where are we... and why are we in this hand basket?
Last night it seemed I awoke to a dream and, I was fallin feelin small and screamin, feelin like Im feenin for my demons they fleein, and it seems that I can see them, but then again man, I feel that they can see me
But this aint christian rap,
Naw preacher this aint that,
this is an infant suckin on a titty with
a tat and all he's gettin is similac,
Again this aint christian rap,
Sorry pastor this...
Damn... Where are we... and why are we in this hand basket?
Last night it seemed I awoke to a dream and, I was fallin feelin small and screamin, feelin like Im feenin for my demons they fleein, and it seems that I can see them, but then again man, I feel that they can see me
But this aint christian rap,
Naw preacher this aint that,
this is an infant suckin on a titty with
a tat and all he's gettin is similac,
Again this aint christian rap,
Sorry pastor this...
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New dealer
I had my first doctor visit
Thursday
Told him about my drug dependencies
Insomnias, incessant rhymes
“Let’s be honest.”
So I told him lots of things
Told him how my family told me
“we think you’ve got a problem D”
That mine was just a squalid dream
Because I thought I could write a lot of words
Sell them for a dollar each
And if I sold enough then
I would finally have a lot of green
What do you teach a toddler
Who could follow all the thoughts of teens?
98th percentile on every test and S.A.T.
Then turns around...
Thursday
Told him about my drug dependencies
Insomnias, incessant rhymes
“Let’s be honest.”
So I told him lots of things
Told him how my family told me
“we think you’ve got a problem D”
That mine was just a squalid dream
Because I thought I could write a lot of words
Sell them for a dollar each
And if I sold enough then
I would finally have a lot of green
What do you teach a toddler
Who could follow all the thoughts of teens?
98th percentile on every test and S.A.T.
Then turns around...
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All with my hands
I'll tear the whole world down,
brick by brick,
and move it all with my hands
till it fills all the pits,
of the empty in our hearts
and every part will fit,
and with my nails I will dig
a new foundation deep,
and require no sacrifice
and demand no sheep
our work will be the walls
with the mortar mixed with with blood
but it will only have spilled
by the work we have done,
and we will build no windows,
there will be no need
only open air holes
for us to feel the breeze
and our world will have no ceilings
save for...
brick by brick,
and move it all with my hands
till it fills all the pits,
of the empty in our hearts
and every part will fit,
and with my nails I will dig
a new foundation deep,
and require no sacrifice
and demand no sheep
our work will be the walls
with the mortar mixed with with blood
but it will only have spilled
by the work we have done,
and we will build no windows,
there will be no need
only open air holes
for us to feel the breeze
and our world will have no ceilings
save for...
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