Submissions by XXcrazychickXX (Kiy)

Im so sick
Sick of the way I feel
I feel angry because I
feel so weak
I feel so depressed
and angry inside
Sometimes I just try to
hide
Hide the real me from
ever letting it show
Hiding my true feelings
while i sit back and watch
on the inside
Its like im in a horror
movie
But I cant move or run
I cant run and hide from the killer
Ill only die
Die alone from my sadness,
weakness,and loneliness
Die from the pain Ill suffer
for the rest of my life
Die because Im weak

I never understand
Why am I here why am I trying
Trying to be loved
Im never going to be loved
Never ever Im not
I dont know why
I feel this way sometimes
I feel angry,sad,and ashamed
I cant think right right now
I hate my life hate it so much
Why cant I just end all this pain
The misery
The never ending sadness

I feel as if im unloved
Like I dont have a purpose
in this world
I feel like im stuck in hell
and the hell is Earth
Im trapped by chains that dont
rust or wear
I wonder why am I here
Am I just a toy,pawn,or an animal
that should be caged up
Which is it
I need an answer
I need to know
Who am I
Am I human or an foreign and
unwanted creature
Why am I hated,shunned,
and rejected
Why do they cause me pain
Why do I always hurt inside
Why does my heart ache
Why am I shaking in fear
Fear of ever being treated...

Its the eyes he says
Theyre keeping me from retrieving
what im trying to find
The memories of what we used to be
It isnt there anymore I say
Now its just an old and broken
memory
It was so long ago
Why are you looking for something
thats only drowned in darkness
You should give up on
searching I say
Youll only find loneliness,
pain,despair,and sorrow
Why do you say these things
he asks
Because I say
You left me there
All alone with noone to tell me
its alright dont cry anymore
Youll never know how i felt...