Submissions by Vortex32167 (Stephan van Pinksteren)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write down whatever comes to mind. Just write and read later. Sometimes suprises sometimes dissapointment
Alone but never Alone
Two souls, one body,
Two minds intertwined.
Two ego’s in battle,
We are two of a kind.
Forever attached and so bound,
Separation the impossible task.
I’m a vessel for his corruption,
And he is my demonic mask.
A visage of evil and torment,
A brick wall shielding my inner loathing.
Protecting and cursing me at the same time,
A veil of pain, my only scrap of clothing.
Two minds intertwined.
Two ego’s in battle,
We are two of a kind.
Forever attached and so bound,
Separation the impossible task.
I’m a vessel for his corruption,
And he is my demonic mask.
A visage of evil and torment,
A brick wall shielding my inner loathing.
Protecting and cursing me at the same time,
A veil of pain, my only scrap of clothing.
#depression
#identity
#MentalHealth
262 reads
2 Comments
Vacation did not help.
Am I addicted to the torture?
Do I like the constant humiliations?
I believe I lost my composure,
Did I succumb to the manipulations?
Was it worth all the pain?
Did I achieve anything with it?
I believe I’m going insane,
And I can’t seem to quit.
The voices get louder and turn into screams.
I need to get far away from here.
My thoughts go beyond the extremes.
It has never been so severe.
I need to stop the madness,
Shut the world away for a while.
Leave this place full of sadness,
I can’t escape...
Do I like the constant humiliations?
I believe I lost my composure,
Did I succumb to the manipulations?
Was it worth all the pain?
Did I achieve anything with it?
I believe I’m going insane,
And I can’t seem to quit.
The voices get louder and turn into screams.
I need to get far away from here.
My thoughts go beyond the extremes.
It has never been so severe.
I need to stop the madness,
Shut the world away for a while.
Leave this place full of sadness,
I can’t escape...
#depression
#escape
#FeelingTrapped #manipulation
#FeelingTrapped #manipulation
238 reads
2 Comments
Woven Manipulation
The show must go on,
All puppets have taken their posistions.
Are you ready for your great performance?
The sum of all your hopeless ambitions.
As director of this grotesque play,
Your role, the part where you die.
I command you to do as I say,
Do your best, and don’t be shy.
All the strings woven in perfect sequence,
Everything is as it should be.
The music starts, and the puppets start to dance.
Nothing can disrupt this masterfull tragedy.
The sketch is nearing its end,
It’s your time to shine.
Show...
All puppets have taken their posistions.
Are you ready for your great performance?
The sum of all your hopeless ambitions.
As director of this grotesque play,
Your role, the part where you die.
I command you to do as I say,
Do your best, and don’t be shy.
All the strings woven in perfect sequence,
Everything is as it should be.
The music starts, and the puppets start to dance.
Nothing can disrupt this masterfull tragedy.
The sketch is nearing its end,
It’s your time to shine.
Show...
#depression
#MentalHealth
#manipulation
291 reads
2 Comments
Existential Crisis
Lately I’ve been searching and researching the bigger picture. Trying to make myself and my life insignificant on the great cosmic playing field. When you really think about it we as humans are very special yet we are completely trivial. We are only able to destroy and misuse our host, the earth. Humanity, parasites of this beautiful planet full of life that would have lived in perfect harmony without us. Without us humans the planet will be fine and healthy within a few hundred years. Is there any point of being here and now? I think there is none. I am convinced that life is completely...
#depression
#TruthOfLife
#MentalHealth
#confusion
#despair
503 reads
4 Comments
Self and Humanity
I’m just a little speck in this cosmic cycle,
Nothing has meaning and all is useless.
No significant effect on the global field,
Have I already lost all usefulness?
A hallow husk wandering this planet,
One among trillions of others.
Was there even a goal to begin with?
Have I lived in a world without colors?
Has there ever been a destiny for humanity?
Did we have a purpose on this blue earth?
No, we are just a phase in the universe vast an dense.
We as humans have been and always will be without worth.
Nothing has meaning and all is useless.
No significant effect on the global field,
Have I already lost all usefulness?
A hallow husk wandering this planet,
One among trillions of others.
Was there even a goal to begin with?
Have I lived in a world without colors?
Has there ever been a destiny for humanity?
Did we have a purpose on this blue earth?
No, we are just a phase in the universe vast an dense.
We as humans have been and always will be without worth.
#dark
#universe
#humankind #SelfWorth
#humankind #SelfWorth
315 reads
2 Comments
My Valley
My eyes red and swollen,
I cry for you my dear sanity.
I’m losing it on all levels of existence,
Losing grip of my own humanity.
In search for truths I will not find,
Existing only to wonder and ponder.
The feeling of being and draw breath,
Alone and misunderstood I wander.
Through a valley of tears and broken dreams,
I walk the long and wavey trench of sorrow.
Wondering if I will ever reach the end,
Beginning a day without tomorrow.
A short period of enlightenment and relieve,
24 hours of pure bliss and...
I cry for you my dear sanity.
I’m losing it on all levels of existence,
Losing grip of my own humanity.
In search for truths I will not find,
Existing only to wonder and ponder.
The feeling of being and draw breath,
Alone and misunderstood I wander.
Through a valley of tears and broken dreams,
I walk the long and wavey trench of sorrow.
Wondering if I will ever reach the end,
Beginning a day without tomorrow.
A short period of enlightenment and relieve,
24 hours of pure bliss and...
#depression
#loneliness
#identity #emptiness
#identity #emptiness
263 reads
2 Comments
Questionable visions
Delusions plaquing my thoughts,
Visions haunting my dreams.
I don’t understand them,
I can’t decipher the schemes.
Do they mean anything?
Do I need to act on these manifestations?
Are they just scribbles of a troubled mind?
Just a collection of vague hallucinations?
How do I tell which is which?
Is there a true and false reality?
Can I distinguish the differences?
Do they affect my morality?
Visions haunting my dreams.
I don’t understand them,
I can’t decipher the schemes.
Do they mean anything?
Do I need to act on these manifestations?
Are they just scribbles of a troubled mind?
Just a collection of vague hallucinations?
How do I tell which is which?
Is there a true and false reality?
Can I distinguish the differences?
Do they affect my morality?
#depression
#MentalHealth
#nightmares
290 reads
0 Comments
Competition Poem: "Tangled Strings"
Puppeteer of my darkest convictions,
Tangled are your vexatious strings.
I move now without your restrictions.
No longer controlled by the wires.
Cut off from your delinquent mind,
Free from the unhealthy desires.
But I can feel the needle with new threads,
I know you want to reattach the bond.
I have to stop you before it spreads.
Like a true puppet master, thorough and neat,
You attach every yearning back to my vest.
The puppet show will soon repeat.
Tangled are your vexatious strings.
I move now without your restrictions.
No longer controlled by the wires.
Cut off from your delinquent mind,
Free from the unhealthy desires.
But I can feel the needle with new threads,
I know you want to reattach the bond.
I have to stop you before it spreads.
Like a true puppet master, thorough and neat,
You attach every yearning back to my vest.
The puppet show will soon repeat.
#depression
#MentalHealth
#manipulation
331 reads
2 Comments
Back to the Ward
Can we be one and the same?
Can we ever coexist in this universe?
Is it possible to end this ridiculous game,
Without making it even worse?
Stealing thoughts like moral thieves.
Mind games back and forth in rapid succession.
Degrading each other’s believes.
Distorting the line between happy and depression.
Can I only be happy without you?
Can I only be free when you’re gone?
Is there no middle ground to pursue?
Do we have to fight every night till dawn?
I’m tired of the endless confrontations,
I can no longer...
Can we ever coexist in this universe?
Is it possible to end this ridiculous game,
Without making it even worse?
Stealing thoughts like moral thieves.
Mind games back and forth in rapid succession.
Degrading each other’s believes.
Distorting the line between happy and depression.
Can I only be happy without you?
Can I only be free when you’re gone?
Is there no middle ground to pursue?
Do we have to fight every night till dawn?
I’m tired of the endless confrontations,
I can no longer...
#depression
#MentalHealth
#FeelingLost
271 reads
2 Comments
My Asylum 2
Another day in the palace of insanity,
The warden kindly greeting me with fake smiles.
I tip my hat to you dear keeper of profanity,
Tell me, what did you find this time between the files?
I found your history my majesty,
An epic chronicle of love, death and deceit.
How pleasant is it to read another travesty,
A tale full of lies, constantly on repeat?
Speak the truth and hear the answer my lord,
Take your pills and get some rest.
Hug the straitjacket until restored.
And you will no longer be possessed.
The warden kindly greeting me with fake smiles.
I tip my hat to you dear keeper of profanity,
Tell me, what did you find this time between the files?
I found your history my majesty,
An epic chronicle of love, death and deceit.
How pleasant is it to read another travesty,
A tale full of lies, constantly on repeat?
Speak the truth and hear the answer my lord,
Take your pills and get some rest.
Hug the straitjacket until restored.
And you will no longer be possessed.
#MentalHealth
#sleep
#nightmares
316 reads
0 Comments
Competition Poem: "My Daring Present"
Her eyes burning with romantic intent,
Her figure, a daring pose of beauty.
Laced with lingerie, wrapped like a present.
Bows and strings magnifying her appeal,
Red fabric covering her warm intimacy.
Sprinkled with drops of liquified wax, her passionate seal.
Her figure, a daring pose of beauty.
Laced with lingerie, wrapped like a present.
Bows and strings magnifying her appeal,
Red fabric covering her warm intimacy.
Sprinkled with drops of liquified wax, her passionate seal.
#erotic
#sensual
#sexy
648 reads
2 Comments
Competition: "Poet and I didn't know it"
Please don’t disturb me.
My bed warm and cozy.
Tossing and turning,
Trying to get some sleep.
My pillows on one big heap.
Hiding my face under the covers,
The light creating all kinds of colors.
My bed sheets thick and comfortable.
Muffling the sounds outside my room,
Trying to block the impending doom.
“Will you come out to play?!”
A voice I didn’t want to hear today.
“Get out of bed you lazy swine!”
I don't want to; I just pressed snooze.
I want to sleep through...
My bed warm and cozy.
Tossing and turning,
Trying to get some sleep.
My pillows on one big heap.
Hiding my face under the covers,
The light creating all kinds of colors.
My bed sheets thick and comfortable.
Muffling the sounds outside my room,
Trying to block the impending doom.
“Will you come out to play?!”
A voice I didn’t want to hear today.
“Get out of bed you lazy swine!”
I don't want to; I just pressed snooze.
I want to sleep through...
#dreams
#sleep
423 reads
2 Comments
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