Submissions by Sundaegirl
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
25th Sep 2019 10:33pm
25th Sep 2019 10:33pm
Because I Have A Daughter
Because I have a daughter I cannot kill myself
Because of her I sit for hours crying at the fact I want to take my life but can’t because the thought of the consequences for her I cannot be so selfish
Because I have a daughter I have to act like I’m happy even though every part of me is screaming to just end it
My chest burns tears fill my eyes even thinking about the fact I do not want to live my life even though I have my daughter who I gave life
Because I have a daughter I cannot let myself take my life no matter how badly I want to just say fuck it all
Because...
Because of her I sit for hours crying at the fact I want to take my life but can’t because the thought of the consequences for her I cannot be so selfish
Because I have a daughter I have to act like I’m happy even though every part of me is screaming to just end it
My chest burns tears fill my eyes even thinking about the fact I do not want to live my life even though I have my daughter who I gave life
Because I have a daughter I cannot let myself take my life no matter how badly I want to just say fuck it all
Because...
#depression
#motherhood
#suicide
#suffering
#daughter
481 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
5th Aug 2019 1:03am
5th Aug 2019 1:03am
L
She spends her nights out late
Crying cause her life’s in such a state
No home and nothing she can call her own
All she wants is to know that she isn’t alone
Everything’s piling and piling
She can’t find a reason to keep on smiling
Every single time she thinking it’s gonna be alright
Everything turns into more of a sorry sight
She escapes by getting high as a kite
it helps her when she’s struggling and can’t see the light
She’s crumbling the worlds hit her so hard she’s stumbling
She screams at the sky I just want to know why ...
Crying cause her life’s in such a state
No home and nothing she can call her own
All she wants is to know that she isn’t alone
Everything’s piling and piling
She can’t find a reason to keep on smiling
Every single time she thinking it’s gonna be alright
Everything turns into more of a sorry sight
She escapes by getting high as a kite
it helps her when she’s struggling and can’t see the light
She’s crumbling the worlds hit her so hard she’s stumbling
She screams at the sky I just want to know why ...
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#MentalHealth #FeelingLost
#MentalHealth #FeelingLost
507 reads
8 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
14th Apr 2019 5:01pm
14th Apr 2019 5:01pm
Inside My Head
There’s no monsters under my bed
Instead they’ve moved to inside my head
The screams aren’t let out at night
Instead I mentally scream in broad daylight
I can’t escape the intrusive thoughts
Blood red, in my head I’m already dead
Broken girls can’t believe when I love you is said
Love and me don’t mix I’m damaged goods
I don’t know if I’ll ever be outta these woods
Self hate is poison and it’s started to spread
Can’t get these voices out of my head
Big smiles and laughs are the best disguise
“I’m Fine” is the most dangerous...
Instead they’ve moved to inside my head
The screams aren’t let out at night
Instead I mentally scream in broad daylight
I can’t escape the intrusive thoughts
Blood red, in my head I’m already dead
Broken girls can’t believe when I love you is said
Love and me don’t mix I’m damaged goods
I don’t know if I’ll ever be outta these woods
Self hate is poison and it’s started to spread
Can’t get these voices out of my head
Big smiles and laughs are the best disguise
“I’m Fine” is the most dangerous...
#anxiety
#depression
#SelfHarm
#MentalHealth
#emptiness
632 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
7th Apr 2019 1:40am
7th Apr 2019 1:40am
Falling Down A Rabbit Hole
It’s happening again I’m falling down a rabbit hole
I don’t know why I can’t stop my brain
I’m overthinking and it’s slowly destroying my soul
I’m the person causing myself the most pain
It’s a never ending cycle I don’t want in
I’m so tired of dying while still breathing
Nobody’s noticing as I have no relationship with my kin
My heart of gold is leaking nobody can see the bleeding
Please save me from my self I scream to up above
I’ve sinned and I repent but it was all in my quest for love
I never got it from my mother
All I’ve...
I don’t know why I can’t stop my brain
I’m overthinking and it’s slowly destroying my soul
I’m the person causing myself the most pain
It’s a never ending cycle I don’t want in
I’m so tired of dying while still breathing
Nobody’s noticing as I have no relationship with my kin
My heart of gold is leaking nobody can see the bleeding
Please save me from my self I scream to up above
I’ve sinned and I repent but it was all in my quest for love
I never got it from my mother
All I’ve...
#sadness
#relationships
#confusion
#despair
#suffering
509 reads
0 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
7th Mar 2019 2:58am
7th Mar 2019 2:58am
Free
If you want to be free don’t breathe or eat
Or Dress up and smile men will stare at you like you’re meat
They’ll want to get inside you then leave
It’ll happen so many times eventually you won’t grieve
Not for The girl you once was or the fact you thought they’d care
It will all get easier to bare
Or Dress up and smile men will stare at you like you’re meat
They’ll want to get inside you then leave
It’ll happen so many times eventually you won’t grieve
Not for The girl you once was or the fact you thought they’d care
It will all get easier to bare
#anxiety
#depression
#breakup #MentalHealth
#breakup #MentalHealth
651 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
13th Feb 2019 1:47am
13th Feb 2019 1:47am
Goodbye
I will learn to live without you
It’s going to be the hardest thing I will ever do
But it is time to move on with my life
Cause with you around I end up wanting to take my life just slit my throat with that fucking kitchen knife
I don’t deserve to feel like that you’ve made me feel so fucking broken for so many fucking years
But finally I am seeing clearly through my tears
It’s going to be the hardest thing I will ever do
But it is time to move on with my life
Cause with you around I end up wanting to take my life just slit my throat with that fucking kitchen knife
I don’t deserve to feel like that you’ve made me feel so fucking broken for so many fucking years
But finally I am seeing clearly through my tears
#ImSorry
#heartbroken
#TimeHeals
#MovingOn
#escape
586 reads
7 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
11th Feb 2019 11:23pm
11th Feb 2019 11:23pm
T
Your words dance around in my head
Like glue they stick and imprint into my brain
All the times you built me up to break me down until I wished I was dead
Because with every I love you came a indescribable pain
Because you are the being who built me up to cruelly break me back down
It took time but you slowly broke every bit of me
The way I see myself the way I think and every ounce of my pain was another jewel in your crown
You’ve locked away the girl I was and you destroyed the key And to you that was just a game
A way to see...
Like glue they stick and imprint into my brain
All the times you built me up to break me down until I wished I was dead
Because with every I love you came a indescribable pain
Because you are the being who built me up to cruelly break me back down
It took time but you slowly broke every bit of me
The way I see myself the way I think and every ounce of my pain was another jewel in your crown
You’ve locked away the girl I was and you destroyed the key And to you that was just a game
A way to see...
#regret
#rejection
#heartbroken
#UnrequitedLove
#escape
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1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
11th Feb 2019 3:42pm
11th Feb 2019 3:42pm
My Escape
The sea is oso healing
It stops my entire being from feeling
No more voices in my head
No more monsters under my bed
The world is finally still
Finally Nothing bad is real
I can finally rest my head while the water makes sure my soul is fed
The world is drowned out
By a noise that’s both quiet and loud
The silence is so telling
My heads away in the clouds.
For once I’m finally peaceful
It stops my entire being from feeling
No more voices in my head
No more monsters under my bed
The world is finally still
Finally Nothing bad is real
I can finally rest my head while the water makes sure my soul is fed
The world is drowned out
By a noise that’s both quiet and loud
The silence is so telling
My heads away in the clouds.
For once I’m finally peaceful
#depression
#beach
#water
#nature
#healing
339 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
11th Feb 2019 12:17pm
11th Feb 2019 12:17pm
My Mind
My mind is an ocean
Peaceful on the outside
but careful the unseen currents will rip you apart
I’m not really in reality but I’m on auto pilot going through the motions
I’m stuck on this rollercoaster ride
I smile outwardly but inside I’m screaming for it to stop
I don’t know how I got here
But there’s no going back
It’s a never ending self induced attack
I don’t belong here that much is clear
The darkness consumed my soul long ago
It’s time to return to the ashes that brought me here
Peaceful on the outside
but careful the unseen currents will rip you apart
I’m not really in reality but I’m on auto pilot going through the motions
I’m stuck on this rollercoaster ride
I smile outwardly but inside I’m screaming for it to stop
I don’t know how I got here
But there’s no going back
It’s a never ending self induced attack
I don’t belong here that much is clear
The darkness consumed my soul long ago
It’s time to return to the ashes that brought me here
#death
#suicide
#silence
#tragedy
#suffering
402 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
11th Feb 2019 4:30am
11th Feb 2019 4:30am
Me
I have bright eyes
I know when to smile
Behind my eyes inside my Brain are sad lies
Bad things happen to me but it’s been a while
I try to hide behind a mask of I’m fine
When really I want to be dead this life is mine
So if I don’t want to be here isn’t that my decision
But I’m called a slut a whore I’m told I’m seeking attention
So I just lock myself away and make another incision
God it’s like I’m in a mental detention
Everytime I get close I mentally make a note it’s going to destroy me when they leave
Because the people I...
I know when to smile
Behind my eyes inside my Brain are sad lies
Bad things happen to me but it’s been a while
I try to hide behind a mask of I’m fine
When really I want to be dead this life is mine
So if I don’t want to be here isn’t that my decision
But I’m called a slut a whore I’m told I’m seeking attention
So I just lock myself away and make another incision
God it’s like I’m in a mental detention
Everytime I get close I mentally make a note it’s going to destroy me when they leave
Because the people I...
#death
#silence
#TruthOfLife
#tragedy
#suffering
420 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
11th Feb 2019 3:29am
11th Feb 2019 3:29am
I Love You
I love you Lauryn but I hate to admit it you say over and over you tell me I’m beautiful and I’m the only girl you love
But inside my soul is beaten and bloody and bruised I’ve known you for so many years you’ve broken how I see myself and how I see love why would you hate to admit you love me Isit shameful? Is there something wrong with me? Because people have taken my body and used it even if I begged them not to? Because I grew up in care constantly in different care homes ? We did drugs together we got drunk together I felt safe in your arms it felt like I finally was safe little...
But inside my soul is beaten and bloody and bruised I’ve known you for so many years you’ve broken how I see myself and how I see love why would you hate to admit you love me Isit shameful? Is there something wrong with me? Because people have taken my body and used it even if I begged them not to? Because I grew up in care constantly in different care homes ? We did drugs together we got drunk together I felt safe in your arms it felt like I finally was safe little...
#abuse
#UnrequitedLove
#suffering
#emptiness
#hurt
521 reads
3 Comments
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