Submissions by SenorTim
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Ever Fading
Hello again my friend
Wasn't expecting to see you today
Can’t say I’m happy
Can’t say I’m mad
Not exactly angry
Or even glad
Just slightly lower
Then where I was
When I arose
Yesterday
Guess I knew
That you’d come
You always do when I’m depraved
You’re all I have
But I don’t mean
To pressure you
In any way
Just so you know
When I do
Take your hand
To walk away
That I tried
But this divide
Seems to feel
More the sane
But I am tired
When I awake
And I am drowning
When I am baked...
Wasn't expecting to see you today
Can’t say I’m happy
Can’t say I’m mad
Not exactly angry
Or even glad
Just slightly lower
Then where I was
When I arose
Yesterday
Guess I knew
That you’d come
You always do when I’m depraved
You’re all I have
But I don’t mean
To pressure you
In any way
Just so you know
When I do
Take your hand
To walk away
That I tried
But this divide
Seems to feel
More the sane
But I am tired
When I awake
And I am drowning
When I am baked...
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Tape and Glue
He apologized for his actions
How he found no such obscurity
In the relevance of her presence
In the follies of his maturity
And was met with no such buzz
But only the laughter from his phone
So he threw it to his bed
And set forth a life alone
So that he’d never feel a loss
And the pain that entwines
His self-diluted vision
Amongst the massacre in his mind
That seems to never rest
As the sun begets its setting
He wouldn’t even know
If it be coming or relenting
He’s high and in the throws
Of a mind close to beheading...
How he found no such obscurity
In the relevance of her presence
In the follies of his maturity
And was met with no such buzz
But only the laughter from his phone
So he threw it to his bed
And set forth a life alone
So that he’d never feel a loss
And the pain that entwines
His self-diluted vision
Amongst the massacre in his mind
That seems to never rest
As the sun begets its setting
He wouldn’t even know
If it be coming or relenting
He’s high and in the throws
Of a mind close to beheading...
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cease of existence
I wake up hating myself a little more
I go to sleep in hopes it'll end all the gore
I don't hope for the best
It’s too much to digest
The loss at which cost is devoid of my lore
Midday my awareness comes crashing within
Shaking my nothingness with its bloated putrid whims
It pins down my head
Forced to see all I've bled
Inset to regret such a phony calloused grin
Asunder from feelings I recite as fantasies
Debated in the wakes of past vacancies
It clashes to my rind
Elated in due time
A crime of tryin’ for loves pleasantries...
I go to sleep in hopes it'll end all the gore
I don't hope for the best
It’s too much to digest
The loss at which cost is devoid of my lore
Midday my awareness comes crashing within
Shaking my nothingness with its bloated putrid whims
It pins down my head
Forced to see all I've bled
Inset to regret such a phony calloused grin
Asunder from feelings I recite as fantasies
Debated in the wakes of past vacancies
It clashes to my rind
Elated in due time
A crime of tryin’ for loves pleasantries...
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Earnest most tears
He’s grown quite prone to a desolate home
So he colored his tome a bright red
In hopes it be read
By all unto death
For their critique would quake all he’s known
A wall of sorts
His enthralled court
A mind that plagues him to atone
Swinging a pen in sorrow, anger, in doubt
That anyone would want to read his mind
And know how his thoughts were worn-out
In love throughout his desolate time
As the quaking of his ears would define
The sighs as his vent as to implement
The pulsing of his earnest most tears
Deafening the sounds...
So he colored his tome a bright red
In hopes it be read
By all unto death
For their critique would quake all he’s known
A wall of sorts
His enthralled court
A mind that plagues him to atone
Swinging a pen in sorrow, anger, in doubt
That anyone would want to read his mind
And know how his thoughts were worn-out
In love throughout his desolate time
As the quaking of his ears would define
The sighs as his vent as to implement
The pulsing of his earnest most tears
Deafening the sounds...
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Emotional Convict
I’d take it all back pretty mama
Even though it’s true I want ya
I’d sweep it under my shell
So I’m not left alone to dwell
When it fell it hit me hard
An emotional convict to contest physical scars
To which is more heavy
And to whom I’d open the levees
I’d embark I thought
From my emotionally driven rot
With the aid of your presence
Bringing happiness into existence
Being left to reset
Exchanging happiness for regret
My frets have broken their chains
Dressed in their all too familiar stains
So I’ve fallen...
Even though it’s true I want ya
I’d sweep it under my shell
So I’m not left alone to dwell
When it fell it hit me hard
An emotional convict to contest physical scars
To which is more heavy
And to whom I’d open the levees
I’d embark I thought
From my emotionally driven rot
With the aid of your presence
Bringing happiness into existence
Being left to reset
Exchanging happiness for regret
My frets have broken their chains
Dressed in their all too familiar stains
So I’ve fallen...
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Oblivious Irrelevancy
How to miss a time of irrelevance
How to step up above prevalent
To long for such a resemblance
Of a time where singularity was dominant
Though it was never brought to adherence
To approach insights so hesitant
My bamboozled shine snarks interference
Though it festers quite blatant
And should be held in reverence
Not shackled for temporary complacent
Why prolong a song of incoherence
That’ll leave your mind a vagrant
Kilometers away from competence
In the shadows of its own abandonment
Wading through its absence of benevolence...
How to step up above prevalent
To long for such a resemblance
Of a time where singularity was dominant
Though it was never brought to adherence
To approach insights so hesitant
My bamboozled shine snarks interference
Though it festers quite blatant
And should be held in reverence
Not shackled for temporary complacent
Why prolong a song of incoherence
That’ll leave your mind a vagrant
Kilometers away from competence
In the shadows of its own abandonment
Wading through its absence of benevolence...
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Like such shit
I’m thinking probably not anytime soon
You loon
You still swoon
And my feelings have drifted away
That is to say they existed anyway
But hey we can still hang out some day
Why must it hurt to feel the slightest love
It’s plaguing my mind with such stubborn cuffs
That I’ve tried to forget
But her smile begets
A longing a wanting
Hopeless to forget
I drift and ramble
I see nothing their
Open heart so I gamble
Cause lonesome so heard to bear
I sit
I can’t handle
These emotions I bare
I drift and ramble
Yet...
You loon
You still swoon
And my feelings have drifted away
That is to say they existed anyway
But hey we can still hang out some day
Why must it hurt to feel the slightest love
It’s plaguing my mind with such stubborn cuffs
That I’ve tried to forget
But her smile begets
A longing a wanting
Hopeless to forget
I drift and ramble
I see nothing their
Open heart so I gamble
Cause lonesome so heard to bear
I sit
I can’t handle
These emotions I bare
I drift and ramble
Yet...
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Im no quaff
Tomorrow is another day
I close my eyes and I wake up
With no disguise I can’t see
To realize you aint got much
Much to wear, much to do
No one to compare events ever lewd
But I’ll swear in thoughts unto you
Neither here nor there
Will this shadow forecast you
Though that’s maybe going far
Really any simple thought
For im always left ajar
Beseeching through the drought
All so sudden I am startled
By the ringing of a bell
Holy crap
man its morning
“I was asleep” my conscious yelled
What the heck was that dreamin
And...
I close my eyes and I wake up
With no disguise I can’t see
To realize you aint got much
Much to wear, much to do
No one to compare events ever lewd
But I’ll swear in thoughts unto you
Neither here nor there
Will this shadow forecast you
Though that’s maybe going far
Really any simple thought
For im always left ajar
Beseeching through the drought
All so sudden I am startled
By the ringing of a bell
Holy crap
man its morning
“I was asleep” my conscious yelled
What the heck was that dreamin
And...
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what good are memories?
Blissful thinking
Aimlessly drifting
Wishful drinking
Shamelessly sinking
Remarkably feeling
Hopeful meaning
Resourcefully grinning
Regretful dealing
Eventfully dreaming
Prideful streaming
Forcefully missing
Doubtful preceding
Seemingly seething
A reason for weaving
Aimlessly drifting
Wishful drinking
Shamelessly sinking
Remarkably feeling
Hopeful meaning
Resourcefully grinning
Regretful dealing
Eventfully dreaming
Prideful streaming
Forcefully missing
Doubtful preceding
Seemingly seething
A reason for weaving
692 reads
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No Longer
This isn’t filled with anger
This isn’t filled with tears
It’s really just a thanks
That I’ve come to see this year
For I couldn’t see tomorrow
I couldn’t hear today
But now I’ve got your worn-out memory
That’ll light and pave my way
From a past so surely rocky
And a calloused future ensues
A remembrance all too shaky
But for the best when you withdrew
Was a setting closed and wilted
And a struggle within myself
A quailing to be seen with showers
From my hearts familiar clout
Illuminating what resides inside
A disheveled blue...
This isn’t filled with tears
It’s really just a thanks
That I’ve come to see this year
For I couldn’t see tomorrow
I couldn’t hear today
But now I’ve got your worn-out memory
That’ll light and pave my way
From a past so surely rocky
And a calloused future ensues
A remembrance all too shaky
But for the best when you withdrew
Was a setting closed and wilted
And a struggle within myself
A quailing to be seen with showers
From my hearts familiar clout
Illuminating what resides inside
A disheveled blue...
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Hello, Its Sorrow
The brim of my cap can’t sink low enough
I think
As the tears sting the cuts on my face
I must be displaced
From these illogical brinks of insanity
Darkness surrounds my scorned wheel drive
I’m torn
As the glare of lights climb in a blur
My mind swerves
Leading to thoughts adorned by profanity
Calmly, influences pour down my throat
I’ll drown
As happiness replaces said tears
I’m not geared
To handle veiled frowns of calamity
The mornings easing this tired body in
I’m wired
As the sun crinkles my brim
Defer...
I think
As the tears sting the cuts on my face
I must be displaced
From these illogical brinks of insanity
Darkness surrounds my scorned wheel drive
I’m torn
As the glare of lights climb in a blur
My mind swerves
Leading to thoughts adorned by profanity
Calmly, influences pour down my throat
I’ll drown
As happiness replaces said tears
I’m not geared
To handle veiled frowns of calamity
The mornings easing this tired body in
I’m wired
As the sun crinkles my brim
Defer...
646 reads
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For What Purpose
New life is given here
Don’t know how
but it was clear
I was to walk again,
A human and a man,
you said it in such cheer
Fit my mind again for fear
Don’t worry now, you’re in demand
Thrown into this plight
Grow strong now
Use insight
come back unscathed
With no burrowed brow
Your glossy sight
Will lead to what’s right
Don’t fright for I’m just down below
I hear such horrors
I feel such sorrow
I wake up tired
Crying for tomorrow
Just for a change-rearrange
This life you all seem to borrow
...
Don’t know how
but it was clear
I was to walk again,
A human and a man,
you said it in such cheer
Fit my mind again for fear
Don’t worry now, you’re in demand
Thrown into this plight
Grow strong now
Use insight
come back unscathed
With no burrowed brow
Your glossy sight
Will lead to what’s right
Don’t fright for I’m just down below
I hear such horrors
I feel such sorrow
I wake up tired
Crying for tomorrow
Just for a change-rearrange
This life you all seem to borrow
...
540 reads
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