Submissions by Oslynray (Rosalyn)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
#closetpoet
The First Heartbreak 2: The Blame
The Blame (First heartbreak 2)
As time moves on,
I realize that you are to blame,
It’s your fault for this state I’m in,
Your fault for my pain...
And for my shame,
The silent shame that comes when I look in the mirror,
The shame of a bastard child,
Disowned by her father.
With sad eyes that look like yours,
I cry and mourn what we never had,
I’ve spent my life in awe and envy of those who actually have a dad.
The ones who were loved and wired right,
I imagine life to be easy for them, not such a fight.
But in my...
As time moves on,
I realize that you are to blame,
It’s your fault for this state I’m in,
Your fault for my pain...
And for my shame,
The silent shame that comes when I look in the mirror,
The shame of a bastard child,
Disowned by her father.
With sad eyes that look like yours,
I cry and mourn what we never had,
I’ve spent my life in awe and envy of those who actually have a dad.
The ones who were loved and wired right,
I imagine life to be easy for them, not such a fight.
But in my...
#father
#relationships
#family
#daughter
#healing
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The First Heartbreak 1: Daddy Issues
By age five I felt the strain,
A void, a missing PEACE,
Questions on where you were,
And why aren’t you here for me?
Going to school, never could talk about you,
Or put a face to the name,
All I knew was I only had one parent,
And from there formed all the shame.
“There must be something wrong with me”,
Was what started to tell myself,
Because what other reason may there be for you to have left?
So now I’m growing up and I’m trying to find my way,
Gotta keep going and push past the emptiness I feel everyday.
I stand in the...
A void, a missing PEACE,
Questions on where you were,
And why aren’t you here for me?
Going to school, never could talk about you,
Or put a face to the name,
All I knew was I only had one parent,
And from there formed all the shame.
“There must be something wrong with me”,
Was what started to tell myself,
Because what other reason may there be for you to have left?
So now I’m growing up and I’m trying to find my way,
Gotta keep going and push past the emptiness I feel everyday.
I stand in the...
#father
#relationships
#LifeStruggles #daughter
#LifeStruggles #daughter
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If Ever I Should Go...
If ever I was to go...
If I was to lay down and not wake again,
Do not cry for me.
I’ve cried enough for you.
I was miserable here.
I could not escape,
I just wanted it to be quiet.
I do not want you to cry for me,
I love you all.
I was just unwell.
I couldn’t pretend anymore.
I was overwhelmed with my mental health.
I felt like there was no escape or cure.
No cure for despair and low worth.
No cure for not feeling like enough.
No cure for not being able to feel love.
I can’t stand this feeling.
I...
If I was to lay down and not wake again,
Do not cry for me.
I’ve cried enough for you.
I was miserable here.
I could not escape,
I just wanted it to be quiet.
I do not want you to cry for me,
I love you all.
I was just unwell.
I couldn’t pretend anymore.
I was overwhelmed with my mental health.
I felt like there was no escape or cure.
No cure for despair and low worth.
No cure for not feeling like enough.
No cure for not being able to feel love.
I can’t stand this feeling.
I...
#sadness
#frustration
#despair
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I.D.D
Phase one is when you believe you’ve found the one,
Feelings you’ve never felt before, so when he calls, you up and run.
Run to the euphoria, he very quickly became,
But once phase two comes along, you’ll start seeing that it’s all just a game.
But right now, the love bombs feel so good,
So when the mask starts to slip, your shocked when he treats you in a way you never thought he would.
But currently, he’s drowning you with his presence, getting you nice and hooked,
All the while you ignore every red flag in the toxic relationship book.
You just want...
Feelings you’ve never felt before, so when he calls, you up and run.
Run to the euphoria, he very quickly became,
But once phase two comes along, you’ll start seeing that it’s all just a game.
But right now, the love bombs feel so good,
So when the mask starts to slip, your shocked when he treats you in a way you never thought he would.
But currently, he’s drowning you with his presence, getting you nice and hooked,
All the while you ignore every red flag in the toxic relationship book.
You just want...
#love
#regret
#rejection
#confusion
#disappointment
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Adulting...
Adulting
This isn’t what I imagined when I was turning 18,
I had no plan in place, but I thought I’d be free.
Free from my moms rules,
But adulthood had even MORE,
Being grown? Overrated...
That much is for sure.
Now I’ve gotta work and pay my own bills,
And the aches and pains?
Gotta travel with my pain pills.
...And another gray hair...
And another crack of the knee...
Another responsibility?
Another bill addressed to me?!
ANOTHER alarm in the morning?
Guess so, cause adulthood says “FUCK YO SLEEP!”
This...
This isn’t what I imagined when I was turning 18,
I had no plan in place, but I thought I’d be free.
Free from my moms rules,
But adulthood had even MORE,
Being grown? Overrated...
That much is for sure.
Now I’ve gotta work and pay my own bills,
And the aches and pains?
Gotta travel with my pain pills.
...And another gray hair...
And another crack of the knee...
Another responsibility?
Another bill addressed to me?!
ANOTHER alarm in the morning?
Guess so, cause adulthood says “FUCK YO SLEEP!”
This...
#confusion
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Sick, Sad Little World
Where are we?
Trapped in this sick, sad world,
Where we turn a blind eye to the madness,
Where little boys think they’re little girls.
Where racism runs wild,
And we don’t quite feel safe,
I ask God for answers,
So we can find a better way.
What is really wrong?
Maybe there’s something in the air?
Maybe the decrease of the trees,
The oxygen our brains need just isn’t there.
Where the President is the most radical of them all,
And isn’t afraid to show it,
And no matter the display of his tyranny,
Foolish people will...
Trapped in this sick, sad world,
Where we turn a blind eye to the madness,
Where little boys think they’re little girls.
Where racism runs wild,
And we don’t quite feel safe,
I ask God for answers,
So we can find a better way.
What is really wrong?
Maybe there’s something in the air?
Maybe the decrease of the trees,
The oxygen our brains need just isn’t there.
Where the President is the most radical of them all,
And isn’t afraid to show it,
And no matter the display of his tyranny,
Foolish people will...
#America
#frustration
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Shadow
I am dark,
I am twisted,
I am sick in the mind,
You’ve ignored me,
Year after year...
So further I’ll bind.
Bind you from joy,
And bind you from peace,
Conditioning your thoughts with my nasty little filter,
I prevent you being able to really see.
I whisper sweet toxicity into your ear,
I am the reason you’ve been missing out,
I’ve been fueling all your fear...
I am the Shadow,
Born not long after you,
I am of another generation of trauma,
And I am here to ruin you.
When you were...
I am twisted,
I am sick in the mind,
You’ve ignored me,
Year after year...
So further I’ll bind.
Bind you from joy,
And bind you from peace,
Conditioning your thoughts with my nasty little filter,
I prevent you being able to really see.
I whisper sweet toxicity into your ear,
I am the reason you’ve been missing out,
I’ve been fueling all your fear...
I am the Shadow,
Born not long after you,
I am of another generation of trauma,
And I am here to ruin you.
When you were...
#identity
#confessional
#TruthOfLife
#honesty
#SelfReflection
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Gemini
I fell for a Gemini,
One with two sides,
He was split down the middle,
The new-age Dr. Jykll & Mr. Hyde.
My Gemini was kind,
And he listened & he learned me,
So I ignored my intuition,
& ignored my stomach turning.
Because I thought I’d found the one,
And it was just hard for the moment.
The Gemini, he courted me,
So long & patient,
So this revelation has taken away my breath
Left me feeling anxious and unkept...
Had me questioning my sanity the whole time,
Second guessing myself thinking it’s all...
One with two sides,
He was split down the middle,
The new-age Dr. Jykll & Mr. Hyde.
My Gemini was kind,
And he listened & he learned me,
So I ignored my intuition,
& ignored my stomach turning.
Because I thought I’d found the one,
And it was just hard for the moment.
The Gemini, he courted me,
So long & patient,
So this revelation has taken away my breath
Left me feeling anxious and unkept...
Had me questioning my sanity the whole time,
Second guessing myself thinking it’s all...
#love
#disappointment
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PMS
Today, I’m cranky.
And feeling a bit rude.
Must be PMS or something...
Today I have the blues.
Must be the PMS that’s got me in this mood...
Yeah... that’s the reason today its fuck you.
Must be that time,
Why else am I so tight today?
Not in a mood to laugh, joke & sit around and play,
So I’ll say PMS is to blame,
Why I’m looking at life this way,
Why a lot of shit just isn’t okay,
...I definitely have PMS today.
Today, social media is an annoyance,
And the same ol routine is sorry and boring,
And my friends’...
And feeling a bit rude.
Must be PMS or something...
Today I have the blues.
Must be the PMS that’s got me in this mood...
Yeah... that’s the reason today its fuck you.
Must be that time,
Why else am I so tight today?
Not in a mood to laugh, joke & sit around and play,
So I’ll say PMS is to blame,
Why I’m looking at life this way,
Why a lot of shit just isn’t okay,
...I definitely have PMS today.
Today, social media is an annoyance,
And the same ol routine is sorry and boring,
And my friends’...
#women
#frustration
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The Boy Who Cried Love
There was once a boy with a twisted mind,
An empty shell inside, but outside he seemed fine.
So he goes through life bending people to his will,
He’ll say he loves you so convincingly, you’ll believe that it’s real.
The boy wore a mask, painted with a beautiful smile, one that never reached his eyes,
He changes his masks when need be, to suit the situation, and the time.
The boy was beautiful, and he was well aware,
Add charm and charisma, he thrives from the pair.
He displays qualities he’s learned by watching others over time,
Able to put on...
An empty shell inside, but outside he seemed fine.
So he goes through life bending people to his will,
He’ll say he loves you so convincingly, you’ll believe that it’s real.
The boy wore a mask, painted with a beautiful smile, one that never reached his eyes,
He changes his masks when need be, to suit the situation, and the time.
The boy was beautiful, and he was well aware,
Add charm and charisma, he thrives from the pair.
He displays qualities he’s learned by watching others over time,
Able to put on...
#regret
#disappointment
#apathy
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Limbo
We’ve all been in Limbo before,
The space between single and taken,
But I swear, it all gets old,
Not having a known direction we’re heading in,
If we’re headed anywhere at all...
... do we have a clear destination?
Situationships trump relationships these days,
No one wants to commit,
More comfortable with just sometimes,
Straddling the fence.
Catching feelings along the way,
But have to keep them tucked away,
Tucked behind the prideful facade,
Pretending that being half loved is okay.
Denying our human needs,
Like...
The space between single and taken,
But I swear, it all gets old,
Not having a known direction we’re heading in,
If we’re headed anywhere at all...
... do we have a clear destination?
Situationships trump relationships these days,
No one wants to commit,
More comfortable with just sometimes,
Straddling the fence.
Catching feelings along the way,
But have to keep them tucked away,
Tucked behind the prideful facade,
Pretending that being half loved is okay.
Denying our human needs,
Like...
#anxiety
#love
#frustration #disappointment
#frustration #disappointment
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His Truth
Mirror mirror on the wall,
Line the girls up & make them fall,
Dick em down, & tell them lies,
Hint here, hint there, DL Guy.
Secrets kept, take it to the grave,
Lies of love make the girls behave,
Eyes on the prize, heart full of lies,
Don’t get tricked by the DL guy.
Mirror mirror on the wall,
He lines em up, so they can fall,
Give him cover, so no one can see,
The real truth about his sexuality.
Kiss the girls and make em cry,
Leave them with questions, asking why,
Always come up short, still they try,...
Line the girls up & make them fall,
Dick em down, & tell them lies,
Hint here, hint there, DL Guy.
Secrets kept, take it to the grave,
Lies of love make the girls behave,
Eyes on the prize, heart full of lies,
Don’t get tricked by the DL guy.
Mirror mirror on the wall,
He lines em up, so they can fall,
Give him cover, so no one can see,
The real truth about his sexuality.
Kiss the girls and make em cry,
Leave them with questions, asking why,
Always come up short, still they try,...
#secrets
#lies
#denial
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