I feel like I'm losing my mind. I'm going insane. I think differently now, in a way that relates to a a color, not orange or red, but definitely purple and blue. It's scary. I wanted to have a reason but now it feels like everyone will hate me no matter what. It's going to end for me very soon, I can tell. I didn't ask for much. I just wanted a wife who respected me, a daughter I could try to protect, and old friend to nod back to me one last time. A few old friends. Perhaps I am greedy. But why? Why should I want anything if I have no reason to enjoy it. Everyone puts down my faith, members...