Submissions by Nizana (Lauryn)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
My mother wrote poems when she was younger, mostly about love. Later she returned to poetry to express thoughts and desires that she'd squelched over time. She passed the torch to me (her daughter) when she entered treatment.
Chapter 7 Time for Reflection
Chapter 7 Time for Reflection
“All people are like grass, and all their faithfulness is like the flowers of the field. The grass withers and the flowers fall."
Brittney remembered the scripture reference included with the note her mother gave her with a silver cross. She'd been puzzled by it but now thought it must have predicted her conversation with David about death that would occur 9 years after she received her mother's cross.
May the flowers of your faithfulness color your world.
Wear this cross to remind you of your obligations of ...
“All people are like grass, and all their faithfulness is like the flowers of the field. The grass withers and the flowers fall."
Brittney remembered the scripture reference included with the note her mother gave her with a silver cross. She'd been puzzled by it but now thought it must have predicted her conversation with David about death that would occur 9 years after she received her mother's cross.
May the flowers of your faithfulness color your world.
Wear this cross to remind you of your obligations of ...
#lust
#religion
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Chapter 6: Surrender
Chapter 6: Surrender
As the door closed behind them, they were sealed in the quiet intimacy of Brittney's hotel room high over the Kansas City skyline. The climate-controlled air was cool and sizzled with energy. David gazed at Brittney with the eyes of desire as he closed the distance between them with slow, deliberate steps.
Brittney's heart pounded in her chest. The rhythm of her pulse echoed in her ears. She could feel the heat of his body radiating against hers, igniting a fire deep within her that she knew wouldn’t be extinguished.
Brittney pulled away...
As the door closed behind them, they were sealed in the quiet intimacy of Brittney's hotel room high over the Kansas City skyline. The climate-controlled air was cool and sizzled with energy. David gazed at Brittney with the eyes of desire as he closed the distance between them with slow, deliberate steps.
Brittney's heart pounded in her chest. The rhythm of her pulse echoed in her ears. She could feel the heat of his body radiating against hers, igniting a fire deep within her that she knew wouldn’t be extinguished.
Brittney pulled away...
#lust
#sex
#betrayal
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Chapter 5: Temptations Resurface
Chapter 5: Temptations Resurface
The second day of the conference dawned with a sense of déjà vu for Brittney. She found herself once again seated beside David, engrossed in the presentations and discussions, but this time, a nagging sense of unease gnawed at the edges of her consciousness.
As they broke for lunch, Brittney found herself grappling with conflicting emotions. Part of her longed to spend more time with David, to bask in the warmth of his companionship and the easy flow of conversation. But another part of her—the part that still clung to her sense of duty...
The second day of the conference dawned with a sense of déjà vu for Brittney. She found herself once again seated beside David, engrossed in the presentations and discussions, but this time, a nagging sense of unease gnawed at the edges of her consciousness.
As they broke for lunch, Brittney found herself grappling with conflicting emotions. Part of her longed to spend more time with David, to bask in the warmth of his companionship and the easy flow of conversation. But another part of her—the part that still clung to her sense of duty...
#lust
#sex
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Novella Chapter 4:Dinner, Wine, and More
Chapter 4 Dinner, Wine, and More
The evening air was alive with the buzz of conversation and laughter as Brittney found herself seated at a cozy restaurant with David and his friends. The dim lighting and the clinking of glasses created an atmosphere of warmth and intimacy, but beneath the surface, Brittney couldn't shake the gnawing sense of guilt that had been haunting her all day.
As they dined on delicious food and shared stories from their lives, Brittney found herself drawn deeper into the circle of David's friends. They were a diverse group, united by their...
The evening air was alive with the buzz of conversation and laughter as Brittney found herself seated at a cozy restaurant with David and his friends. The dim lighting and the clinking of glasses created an atmosphere of warmth and intimacy, but beneath the surface, Brittney couldn't shake the gnawing sense of guilt that had been haunting her all day.
As they dined on delicious food and shared stories from their lives, Brittney found herself drawn deeper into the circle of David's friends. They were a diverse group, united by their...
#lust
#marriage
#temptation
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Novella Chapter 3: A Shared Day of Learning
Chapter 3: A Shared Day of Learning
As Brittney entered the large conference hall, the hum of conversation and the scent of freshly brewed coffee filling the air. The first general session was about to begin, and she couldn't help but feel a flutter of anticipation as she searched the crowd for any familiar faces.
Then she saw David standing near the entrance with a smile that lit up his face as soon as he spotted her. Before Brittney could wave to him, he was making his way through the crowd toward her.
"Brittney, there you are!" David exclaimed...
As Brittney entered the large conference hall, the hum of conversation and the scent of freshly brewed coffee filling the air. The first general session was about to begin, and she couldn't help but feel a flutter of anticipation as she searched the crowd for any familiar faces.
Then she saw David standing near the entrance with a smile that lit up his face as soon as he spotted her. Before Brittney could wave to him, he was making his way through the crowd toward her.
"Brittney, there you are!" David exclaimed...
#marriage
#crush
#temptation
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Novella Chapter 2: Unexpected Connections
Chapter 2: Unexpected Connections
Brittney stood in the bustling airport terminal, her heart fluttering with a mixture of excitement and nerves. She was on her way to a professional conference in Kansas City, Missouri—a rare opportunity to immerse herself in the latest developments in her field and connect with colleagues from across the country.
As she scanned the crowd for her gate, she felt a familiar presence at her side. Turning, she saw her husband, Alex, smiling down at her with that same warmth and affection that had drawn her to him twelve years ago.
...
Brittney stood in the bustling airport terminal, her heart fluttering with a mixture of excitement and nerves. She was on her way to a professional conference in Kansas City, Missouri—a rare opportunity to immerse herself in the latest developments in her field and connect with colleagues from across the country.
As she scanned the crowd for her gate, she felt a familiar presence at her side. Turning, she saw her husband, Alex, smiling down at her with that same warmth and affection that had drawn her to him twelve years ago.
...
#marriage
#temptation
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Novella Chapter 1 The Longing
Chapter 1: The Longing
Brittney sat in her cozy living room, surrounded by the familiar trappings of home. Outside were the sounds of her two daughters playing after school. The sun was setting, casting a warm glow through the curtains, but inside, Brittney's heart felt cold and empty.
At thirty-two, Brittney had everything she had ever dreamed of—a loving husband, two beautiful children, a successful career, and a close-knit family. Those who knew her often commented on her beauty. She did work to take care of herself, but her attractiveness was the natural type,...
Brittney sat in her cozy living room, surrounded by the familiar trappings of home. Outside were the sounds of her two daughters playing after school. The sun was setting, casting a warm glow through the curtains, but inside, Brittney's heart felt cold and empty.
At thirty-two, Brittney had everything she had ever dreamed of—a loving husband, two beautiful children, a successful career, and a close-knit family. Those who knew her often commented on her beauty. She did work to take care of herself, but her attractiveness was the natural type,...
#happiness
#temptation
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Sacrament of the Present
Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field. I’ll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about. Rumi
As she accepted the sacrament of the present moment,
she embraced darkness and light, life, and death.
As her body and spirit was joined to another,
she found the wisdom of 'both/and' over 'either/or.'
She prayed silently, Let me be receptive to all that is.
And then, with the gentle pulsing of her hips in repeated acts of
giving and receiving, she...
there is a field. I’ll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about. Rumi
As she accepted the sacrament of the present moment,
she embraced darkness and light, life, and death.
As her body and spirit was joined to another,
she found the wisdom of 'both/and' over 'either/or.'
She prayed silently, Let me be receptive to all that is.
And then, with the gentle pulsing of her hips in repeated acts of
giving and receiving, she...
#love
#erotic
#morality
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Prayer of Confession
Last night, my lips spoke the
pleasing words of deceit to a
man who was not my husband.
I have strayed from the path of fidelity,
seeking sexual gratification in
the arms of a stranger.
As my bed linens hold the stains of a man's lust,
my feeble words of confession hold the stain of hypocrisy.
Surely, there can be no mercy for me.
pleasing words of deceit to a
man who was not my husband.
I have strayed from the path of fidelity,
seeking sexual gratification in
the arms of a stranger.
As my bed linens hold the stains of a man's lust,
my feeble words of confession hold the stain of hypocrisy.
Surely, there can be no mercy for me.
#sex
#betrayal
#morality #prayer
#morality #prayer
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Journal Entry at 28 Weeks
April 3, 2024
Well, here I am, 28 weeks into this pregnancy journey. And let me tell you, one thing that's really caught me off guard is my sex drive. It's not dwindling like I thought it would—it's actually cranking up. Joseph's noticed it too, and he's pretty happy about it, to say the least.
But here's the kicker: it's not just about Joseph. Lately, I've found myself feeling even more drawn to other men, especially those who already have families of their own. It's weird, and honestly, it's a bit confusing. But it's definitely happening.
I guess pregnancy...
Well, here I am, 28 weeks into this pregnancy journey. And let me tell you, one thing that's really caught me off guard is my sex drive. It's not dwindling like I thought it would—it's actually cranking up. Joseph's noticed it too, and he's pretty happy about it, to say the least.
But here's the kicker: it's not just about Joseph. Lately, I've found myself feeling even more drawn to other men, especially those who already have families of their own. It's weird, and honestly, it's a bit confusing. But it's definitely happening.
I guess pregnancy...
#SelfReflection
#passion
#pregnancy
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Strangers
We met on the Metro. You recognized me first then noticed my tummy and smiled. “When is your baby due?”
“In about six weeks,” I said.
“That’s very exciting,” you said, and I wondered who you were now. I remembered how you felt and the enthusiasm of our bodies acting as if on autopilot. I remembered those nights of seeking what would always be unattainable.
I knew a day would come in the future when we wouldn't even recognize one another upon meeting. Just two passing strangers preoccupied with survival and desire.
I never mastered the art of...
“In about six weeks,” I said.
“That’s very exciting,” you said, and I wondered who you were now. I remembered how you felt and the enthusiasm of our bodies acting as if on autopilot. I remembered those nights of seeking what would always be unattainable.
I knew a day would come in the future when we wouldn't even recognize one another upon meeting. Just two passing strangers preoccupied with survival and desire.
I never mastered the art of...
#breakup
#sex
#memories
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Lust for Life
Two single cells answered the call of all human animals.
I’ve carried you in some form, my daughter, for 32 weeks and
you’ve begun to make yourself known.
What began in the most wholesome of human desires
now reveals itself in your lust for life. Do you feel the
embrace of my lover this night? Where there was one
human soul, there are now three sharing one flesh.
I’ve carried you in some form, my daughter, for 32 weeks and
you’ve begun to make yourself known.
What began in the most wholesome of human desires
now reveals itself in your lust for life. Do you feel the
embrace of my lover this night? Where there was one
human soul, there are now three sharing one flesh.
#sex
#LifeCycle
#pregnancy
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