Submissions by Longblackhair6 (DMT)

As I'm in my room 
I start staring at the white walls
My mind starts spinning 
As it try's to count my hard falls 
I feel like I never should be liked
I feel completely worthless
Because of this pain that's ripping me up
I guess it's forever endless 
When I'm tiered 
I'm not able to think 
So please just let me sleep
Or you will find blood in the sink
I know you want to care 
But I'm asking you not to 
Because I don't want you getting worried
Over the actions I will do 
My night is usually better 
When I'm not sober 
But...

The world around me is fading 
Thinking of thoughts
Impulses not planning 
Cigerettes with menthol relaxing my nerves
Trying edges that are straight
Avoiding the curves
Death shall not defeat me 
Even if I break down
But will it make a difference 
If I'm really not around
People say they care 
But then again they think I'm pretty
So would they really help me 
If they knew I was ugly 
They think just because you smile 
Inside your not in pain
Do they really know what it's like
To truly go insane 
I do every night 
It's...