Submissions by Lethi_Messor (Lethi)

Once they told me long ago
That I would only be alone
So, I pushed them all away
So that no one would ever know

Once they told me long ago
That I was wrong, and it would show
So, I kept the fear all to myself
Let it tear me to the bone

Once they told me long ago
That I was healthy from head to toe
So, I let disorder eat me away
They know me better, I suppose

Once they told me long ago
That I had everything, high to low
So my sadness had no name
And I choose to suffer so

Once they told me...

I see the world ending

And I keep on pretending

To have plans for the future like you


Maybe it’s the snow

Or the self-hatred I sow

That makes it look like its not worth pulling through


I try to think forward

There’s fog, mist, and mortar

I couldn’t save myself a cent if I tried


I found an old letter

From myself from when I was better

It said, “Sorry I didn’t meet you before I died”


Oh, smoke in trees

Are you a sign or just a...

There’s a winged preacher on my shoulder,

But I can’t tell if it’s an angel or obsession.

It seems the harder I try to listen,

The more I start to question.

The harder I try to fight,

The further that I fall.

If I’m not trying to be perfect,

Am I trying at all?

And am I trying too hard,

Or not trying enough?

Is it an intrusive thought,

Or is it calling out a bluff?

I know I’m supposed to be happy,

But I only feel safe in the hurt.

If I’m...