Submissions by LadyLoss
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
LadyLoss is who I am when I don't want to be me anymore.
SELF POEM
Published
26th Apr 2013 10:48pm
26th Apr 2013 10:48pm
scared
I've had an idea
A spark
An inkling.
Whether or not to do anything about it
Is proving to be a problem.
I'm a student.
I have plenty of writing to do.
I always wanted to be a writer, of sorts.
Not full time, but as a hobby
But settled for half assed poetry
When the mood struck me.
And now,
I have an idea,
For something bigger.
Something longer.
Something.
What if it's a bad idea?
What if, as a concept, it's great,
But in reality,
It's been done,
It's boring,
It's the biggest pile of...
A spark
An inkling.
Whether or not to do anything about it
Is proving to be a problem.
I'm a student.
I have plenty of writing to do.
I always wanted to be a writer, of sorts.
Not full time, but as a hobby
But settled for half assed poetry
When the mood struck me.
And now,
I have an idea,
For something bigger.
Something longer.
Something.
What if it's a bad idea?
What if, as a concept, it's great,
But in reality,
It's been done,
It's boring,
It's the biggest pile of...
643 reads
2 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
22nd Apr 2013 10:33am
22nd Apr 2013 10:33am
Watching
The woman who raised me,
Is slowly losing the plot.
I'm 21 now,
Some days she struggles to finish a sentence,
Without getting frustrated
Because she can't think of the word she wants.
It reminds me of when I sat on her lap,
As she taught me to read,
But she'd never tell me the word,
Make me sound it out,
And work it out on my own.
Because she didn't believe
It was up to the school to teach me everything.
So while everyone else was still reading Biff and Chip,
I was on Tracy Beaker.
She taught me to say please and...
Is slowly losing the plot.
I'm 21 now,
Some days she struggles to finish a sentence,
Without getting frustrated
Because she can't think of the word she wants.
It reminds me of when I sat on her lap,
As she taught me to read,
But she'd never tell me the word,
Make me sound it out,
And work it out on my own.
Because she didn't believe
It was up to the school to teach me everything.
So while everyone else was still reading Biff and Chip,
I was on Tracy Beaker.
She taught me to say please and...
666 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
17th Apr 2013 00:44am
17th Apr 2013 00:44am
untitled due to apathy
Cigarette smoke,
Fills the shaft of light,
Coming from the desktop light,
That's beside my bed.
Cigarette smoke mixes with whiskey breath.
As now everybody's asleep,
I can go back to the bottle.
It always used to help.
The hangover has stopped,
Because I'm never not still drunk.
Don't need to worry about being over the limit,
There's no point in driving anywhere.
I'll just lay here,
Smoking and drinking by night,
Sleeping half the day away,
Watching trashy American sitcoms
That aren't based on real...
Fills the shaft of light,
Coming from the desktop light,
That's beside my bed.
Cigarette smoke mixes with whiskey breath.
As now everybody's asleep,
I can go back to the bottle.
It always used to help.
The hangover has stopped,
Because I'm never not still drunk.
Don't need to worry about being over the limit,
There's no point in driving anywhere.
I'll just lay here,
Smoking and drinking by night,
Sleeping half the day away,
Watching trashy American sitcoms
That aren't based on real...
624 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
16th Apr 2013 11:59am
16th Apr 2013 11:59am
My best friend
You were always my best friend,
First and foremost,
Everything else came naturally.
I'm tired of blaming someone,
Blaming you,
Blaming myself,
Blaming your friends,
Blaming mine.
Tired of backing down,
And apologising to make things easier,
When it was someone else's fault.
I'm feeling nothing,
I've hit a brick wall.
Crumpled at the bottom of it,
Just feeling nothing.
Not angry, not sad,
Not anything.
I need my best friend.
Can you, the person ignoring me,
Leave a message with the part of you that...
First and foremost,
Everything else came naturally.
I'm tired of blaming someone,
Blaming you,
Blaming myself,
Blaming your friends,
Blaming mine.
Tired of backing down,
And apologising to make things easier,
When it was someone else's fault.
I'm feeling nothing,
I've hit a brick wall.
Crumpled at the bottom of it,
Just feeling nothing.
Not angry, not sad,
Not anything.
I need my best friend.
Can you, the person ignoring me,
Leave a message with the part of you that...
620 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
15th Apr 2013 11:47am
15th Apr 2013 11:47am
Working at it
We never agreed to be that nauseating couple,
That everyone wants to take to with a shovel.
We never agreed to even be the couple.
But I'm working at it.
We never sat down and talked about where this was going.
It just went, without too much effort,
And that's where we're going wrong,
I'm working at it.
We never realised that sex wouldn't be the be-all and end-all,
Not with us, who always swore it was only sex.
We said that the day that we went to bed and cuddled, would be the last day.
I'm still working at it.
I never...
That everyone wants to take to with a shovel.
We never agreed to even be the couple.
But I'm working at it.
We never sat down and talked about where this was going.
It just went, without too much effort,
And that's where we're going wrong,
I'm working at it.
We never realised that sex wouldn't be the be-all and end-all,
Not with us, who always swore it was only sex.
We said that the day that we went to bed and cuddled, would be the last day.
I'm still working at it.
I never...
655 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
12th Apr 2013 11:31pm
12th Apr 2013 11:31pm
Moving Forward
Walking through airport security,
Leaving you a voicemail,
Just in case, one day
You want to know where I am.
Driving away with one eye on the rear view mirror,
Making sure you're still in it somewhere behind me,
Just in case, one day,
You wanted to follow me.
Walking away, looking over my shoulder,
Stopping every once in a while,
Just in case, one day,
You wanted to catch up to me.
Leaving you a voicemail,
Just in case, one day
You want to know where I am.
Driving away with one eye on the rear view mirror,
Making sure you're still in it somewhere behind me,
Just in case, one day,
You wanted to follow me.
Walking away, looking over my shoulder,
Stopping every once in a while,
Just in case, one day,
You wanted to catch up to me.
740 reads
2 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
12th Mar 2013 11:51pm
12th Mar 2013 11:51pm
Happily Ever After
Have you ever paused a TV show,
Ejected the disc/tape
Turned off the TV
Whatever you were watching it on.
And just stopped watching?
Because it was all going so well.
Bad guys were losing,
Good guys were winning.
Everyone was in love,
Getting just what they wanted from life.
The star player wins a game
The school year ends without drama.
Everyone could have lived happily ever after.
But happily ever after doesn't sell.
People don't tune in to watch
Happily ever after.
People don't buy the box set for ...
Ejected the disc/tape
Turned off the TV
Whatever you were watching it on.
And just stopped watching?
Because it was all going so well.
Bad guys were losing,
Good guys were winning.
Everyone was in love,
Getting just what they wanted from life.
The star player wins a game
The school year ends without drama.
Everyone could have lived happily ever after.
But happily ever after doesn't sell.
People don't tune in to watch
Happily ever after.
People don't buy the box set for ...
646 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
10th Mar 2013 1:39am
10th Mar 2013 1:39am
one year
It's been exactly a year,
Almost to the minute,
Since we kissed for the first time.
It's been exactly a year,
Things have changed beyond repair.
But it's like it's frozen in time.
I'd still kill to taste your lips,
Just one more time,
As long as that one time lasted forever.
I'd still give it all up
To feel your skin under mine,
As long as it was permanent.
I talk a big talk about hating you,
Walk a long way to get away from you,
And yet you're still there.
In the back of my mind,
At the front of my brain, ...
Almost to the minute,
Since we kissed for the first time.
It's been exactly a year,
Things have changed beyond repair.
But it's like it's frozen in time.
I'd still kill to taste your lips,
Just one more time,
As long as that one time lasted forever.
I'd still give it all up
To feel your skin under mine,
As long as it was permanent.
I talk a big talk about hating you,
Walk a long way to get away from you,
And yet you're still there.
In the back of my mind,
At the front of my brain, ...
774 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
8th Mar 2013 11:08pm
8th Mar 2013 11:08pm
only
I couldn’t be to you
What you deserve from me,
I couldn’t give you more
Than physical and material things.
The only three words
I could give you would be ‘coming over tonight?’
The only piece of me you’d get
Is what’s left over at the end of the day.
I could only give you attention
When there was no one else around.
I could only feel your touch
In secret and I don’t want that for you.
I can only feel this way in the dark depths of my dark dreams.
I can only feel this way when you’re nowhere near me.
What you deserve from me,
I couldn’t give you more
Than physical and material things.
The only three words
I could give you would be ‘coming over tonight?’
The only piece of me you’d get
Is what’s left over at the end of the day.
I could only give you attention
When there was no one else around.
I could only feel your touch
In secret and I don’t want that for you.
I can only feel this way in the dark depths of my dark dreams.
I can only feel this way when you’re nowhere near me.
754 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
7th Mar 2013 7:52pm
7th Mar 2013 7:52pm
Could, but won't.
I remember this feeling.
The smile at every text,
The babbling when I see you,
The way you never fail to cheer me up.
I could like you,
But I won't.
Usually, right about now,
I wouldn't text you first.
I'd wait for you to text me.
I'd keep you waiting for hours,
Then reply with a two word text,
Just to annoy you.
Just to get an extreme emotion out of you,
It doesn't take much to turn
Anger, irritation, frustration into lust.
I could be really cruel,
But I won't.
And I could text you...
The smile at every text,
The babbling when I see you,
The way you never fail to cheer me up.
I could like you,
But I won't.
Usually, right about now,
I wouldn't text you first.
I'd wait for you to text me.
I'd keep you waiting for hours,
Then reply with a two word text,
Just to annoy you.
Just to get an extreme emotion out of you,
It doesn't take much to turn
Anger, irritation, frustration into lust.
I could be really cruel,
But I won't.
And I could text you...
1044 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
26th Feb 2013 00:09am
26th Feb 2013 00:09am
At the kiddie end of the dinner table.
Once again, I find myself,
At the shitty end of the dinner table.
The one where I end up talking more about
Who would win in a fight,
Superman or Batman
Than anything vaguely age appropriate.
Once again, I find myself,
Telling a kid to eat properly,
To stop doing whatever he's doing.
And the 13 year old making an effort to include me.
At the grown up end of the table.
Once again, it's the same fucking situation.
But one I never thought you'd put me in.
And yes, I have all the time in the world
To sit by the phone, ...
At the shitty end of the dinner table.
The one where I end up talking more about
Who would win in a fight,
Superman or Batman
Than anything vaguely age appropriate.
Once again, I find myself,
Telling a kid to eat properly,
To stop doing whatever he's doing.
And the 13 year old making an effort to include me.
At the grown up end of the table.
Once again, it's the same fucking situation.
But one I never thought you'd put me in.
And yes, I have all the time in the world
To sit by the phone, ...
789 reads
1 Comment
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
22nd Feb 2013 11:38pm
22nd Feb 2013 11:38pm
Disney film.
I was feeling low the other day.
And in a moment of clear confusion
I ordered one of my favourite Disney films from Amazon.
Because, being a 'starving' student,
I have money to piss up the wall.
It came through today.
And as I put the disc in the tray
With a valedictory 'Boom, baby!'
To see the Emperor become a llama
I snuggled down into bed
Pulled my pillow into a bear hug.
Big grin on my face.
I can remember going to see this film
As an excited kid.
I couldn't tell you how old I was,
Or how old the film is. ...
And in a moment of clear confusion
I ordered one of my favourite Disney films from Amazon.
Because, being a 'starving' student,
I have money to piss up the wall.
It came through today.
And as I put the disc in the tray
With a valedictory 'Boom, baby!'
To see the Emperor become a llama
I snuggled down into bed
Pulled my pillow into a bear hug.
Big grin on my face.
I can remember going to see this film
As an excited kid.
I couldn't tell you how old I was,
Or how old the film is. ...
671 reads
1 Comment
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