Submissions by Jordanne (RubixCube)

This Heart that beats within this chest,

Never sleeps and never rests.

My Lord KNOWS exactly why,

My life which must abide.

I love so much and hurt just as much,

I rendered soul that cannot be touched.

Starved and feeling all alone,

Can someone love me?

Will someone atone?

All I can do is wait, sigh and feel,

Every emotion.. all so real.

I long for security and stability,

Will someone give me what I finally need?

Is that too much to ask?

Isn't anyone up to the task?...

Trapped in my own turmoil.
Tormented daily by my tainted woes.
Left by the wayside by my Love who still holds a grip on my soul.
Treated like a wave by my current interest who ignites a flame within so bright it burns my very core and might.
Obdurate , desolate and disaffected.. Every second of everyday is a constant struggle of neglect.
Hard to cope with my impending disease, depression beats down my door like a Hurricane 5 deadly breeze.
"Kill me yesterday" is my lament for my death, wanting what I need gravely though never do I get.
Wonder...

The Challenge with being me is that i think way too much

Hanging by a thread , ALWAYS on the cusp.

Overwhelmed by my emotions

So naturally it's hard to control them.

'Why' is the constant question

Everything i mention..

is like a curse, no exemptions.

My Black Torment: [is my] Depression

Nothing i do changes that expression.



The Challenge is Living

'Live and let live' is the beginning

Die and be only a fleeting memory

Death is the end into eternal misery.


...

You feel you need me, knowing it's only to numb your pain
The moment is only a moment, then it wanes
Cat and mouse, we play the game
The result, my Dear, is always the same
Einstein defined it as "Insanity" and he was sane

You think you see me, you don't
♪False perceptions play wicked notes ♪
The lies within the lies, truths hardly shown
I'd rather hardcore truths than insidious jokes
Trying to cope within life's slanderous scope
Silver-lining of the known verses the unknown

You want me--
You want what you cannot...