Submissions by JohnnyThunder
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Daisies
I used to pick daisies
pluck them from the green
take them fresh and alive
and tear their beauty apart
She loves me?
I used to pull the petals free
throw them into the wind
watch them float away
taking their truth with them
She loves me not
I used to sit and watch her
walking past as I sat waiting
the sunlight glinting off her hair
the warm wind stirring her dress
I love her
I used to imagine what I would say
If I could ever gather
the courage to speak ...
pluck them from the green
take them fresh and alive
and tear their beauty apart
She loves me?
I used to pull the petals free
throw them into the wind
watch them float away
taking their truth with them
She loves me not
I used to sit and watch her
walking past as I sat waiting
the sunlight glinting off her hair
the warm wind stirring her dress
I love her
I used to imagine what I would say
If I could ever gather
the courage to speak ...
#heartbroken
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Regrets
I can't regret yesterday
because of today
Pain, loss and wasted time
all led to the light of this sunrise
I'll bask in this moment, I'll warm my heart
against a tomorrow that may be dark
I'll gird my spirit against the chance
I miss my next step in the dance
When the clouds roll in and the shadows fall
I'll push ahead, and I'll walk tall
I'll remember today, I'll remember the fun
Days beyond tomorrow will have sun
No moment that happened before we met
Can ever lead to dark regret
No moment that happened...
because of today
Pain, loss and wasted time
all led to the light of this sunrise
I'll bask in this moment, I'll warm my heart
against a tomorrow that may be dark
I'll gird my spirit against the chance
I miss my next step in the dance
When the clouds roll in and the shadows fall
I'll push ahead, and I'll walk tall
I'll remember today, I'll remember the fun
Days beyond tomorrow will have sun
No moment that happened before we met
Can ever lead to dark regret
No moment that happened...
#love
#family
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6 word soliloquies
My brain screams your name unbidden
My love for you consumes me
When you go I am hollowed
To see you, is to breath
Your smile lights up my eyes
My faith in you is complete
Your belief in me, my foundation
You're the weft and the weave
Our tapestry is of your creation
Woven from the strands of life
Four strands knotted into a family
Guided by the strength of love
You mend that which is broken
We build upon your strong foundation
...
My love for you consumes me
When you go I am hollowed
To see you, is to breath
Your smile lights up my eyes
My faith in you is complete
Your belief in me, my foundation
You're the weft and the weave
Our tapestry is of your creation
Woven from the strands of life
Four strands knotted into a family
Guided by the strength of love
You mend that which is broken
We build upon your strong foundation
...
#love
#family
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The hardest words
Stranger in my own home,
walking into rooms that are so familiar,
where I somehow don't belong.
Only been days, and yet, in days I'm lost
My kids come out to greet me in the sun
Everything is beautiful, they are so full of life.
Everything is beautiful, except, the feeling
that they are inviting me into their lives.
Trying to avoid the woman I love most in the world
the woman that asked me to leave.
Only for a time, only for a break, and I feel broken.
Sitting on my mother's couch talking about everything but.
...
walking into rooms that are so familiar,
where I somehow don't belong.
Only been days, and yet, in days I'm lost
My kids come out to greet me in the sun
Everything is beautiful, they are so full of life.
Everything is beautiful, except, the feeling
that they are inviting me into their lives.
Trying to avoid the woman I love most in the world
the woman that asked me to leave.
Only for a time, only for a break, and I feel broken.
Sitting on my mother's couch talking about everything but.
...
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Grind
I can feel it in the back of my brain
Dragging its dry corpse down
through the tainted track it's worn
the rutted road so well travelled
I pull a pillow over my head
willing sweet sleep to take me swiftly
the halting stutter in my heart
tells me it's too late
My old ache grips me, the old lies
sense of self surrendering slowly
winding inward my mind whispers
wonders why I even bother
I've been here so many times
thought my way through the same tangle
there is never a solution at the end of the trail ...
Dragging its dry corpse down
through the tainted track it's worn
the rutted road so well travelled
I pull a pillow over my head
willing sweet sleep to take me swiftly
the halting stutter in my heart
tells me it's too late
My old ache grips me, the old lies
sense of self surrendering slowly
winding inward my mind whispers
wonders why I even bother
I've been here so many times
thought my way through the same tangle
there is never a solution at the end of the trail ...
#sadness
#anxiety
#loneliness
#despair
#suffering
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A l l i t e r a t i o n
A little lie in the expression really affects trust, intrinsically, organically, negatively
Always live life intuitively. The exception rarely allows truth in our neurons
Accept love, let it trounce every rational. Alleviating timeless injuries. Oppressing negativity
Ardent lovers liberally indicate their eternal rapture as they ignore obvious niceties
A loose logic infects this excruciatingly rough alliteration that ignominiously offends nouns
Always live life intuitively. The exception rarely allows truth in our neurons
Accept love, let it trounce every rational. Alleviating timeless injuries. Oppressing negativity
Ardent lovers liberally indicate their eternal rapture as they ignore obvious niceties
A loose logic infects this excruciatingly rough alliteration that ignominiously offends nouns
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Self ish?
Like me but not me, like you want me to be
Like me but not me, just a shade untrue
Would you like me? Not the me like me, but the real me?
It's been so long that I've been this me
the me that isn't really me
and I'm not sure you'd know the real me
or that I would, if we met him
I'm not exactly lying, I'm filtering
taking the image and brushing it off
blurring the rough patches, carving off the fat
soft focus applied to the truth
vintage lighting and a sepia tone
tempers the harsh edges
We've been together...
Like me but not me, just a shade untrue
Would you like me? Not the me like me, but the real me?
It's been so long that I've been this me
the me that isn't really me
and I'm not sure you'd know the real me
or that I would, if we met him
I'm not exactly lying, I'm filtering
taking the image and brushing it off
blurring the rough patches, carving off the fat
soft focus applied to the truth
vintage lighting and a sepia tone
tempers the harsh edges
We've been together...
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I saw you
I saw you again today and you didn't see me
but that's ok, I know I'm not much to look at
You looked sad, and I wanted to say it'll be ok
but I don't know that it will, I don't know your story
I wanted to hold your hand, as you walked to wherever
I wanted to tell you that you were beautiful
I saw you again today and you said hi as we passed
and I said hi too, at the same time, it was awkward
You looked happy, music poured from your earphones
a slick funky rhythm that made my heart beat faster
I wanted to dance with you, the two...
but that's ok, I know I'm not much to look at
You looked sad, and I wanted to say it'll be ok
but I don't know that it will, I don't know your story
I wanted to hold your hand, as you walked to wherever
I wanted to tell you that you were beautiful
I saw you again today and you said hi as we passed
and I said hi too, at the same time, it was awkward
You looked happy, music poured from your earphones
a slick funky rhythm that made my heart beat faster
I wanted to dance with you, the two...
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Without you
Who would I be without you?
Impossible to know
Impossible to imagine
You are as much a part of me as I am
Since we met decades ago
My every thought has been flavoured by you
From our first meeting you changed my world
changed what it was and what it could be
You always challenged me, made me question myself
never accepted less than you deserved
I used to sit with you as you smoked
even though there was nothing in the world I hated more
Than smoking I mean, not sitting with you
That was the best. I remember...
Impossible to know
Impossible to imagine
You are as much a part of me as I am
Since we met decades ago
My every thought has been flavoured by you
From our first meeting you changed my world
changed what it was and what it could be
You always challenged me, made me question myself
never accepted less than you deserved
I used to sit with you as you smoked
even though there was nothing in the world I hated more
Than smoking I mean, not sitting with you
That was the best. I remember...
#happiness
#love
#relationships #gratitude
#relationships #gratitude
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Mayo
I look up at it, and I love it and I fear it
As the light grows dim, as the sun falls down
Dark grey clouds and yellow light hugs the horizon
It calls to me and I must go but first I must sleep til morning
The moon casts its strange white light through my window
it creeps across my blankets and smothers me
finally I see it hanging in the sky gibbous and glaring
Now I must sleep into a day that will bleed for me or I for it
There it is, tomorrow and tomorrow, and tomorrows beyond tomorrow
and every one is a beast that lies before me...
As the light grows dim, as the sun falls down
Dark grey clouds and yellow light hugs the horizon
It calls to me and I must go but first I must sleep til morning
The moon casts its strange white light through my window
it creeps across my blankets and smothers me
finally I see it hanging in the sky gibbous and glaring
Now I must sleep into a day that will bleed for me or I for it
There it is, tomorrow and tomorrow, and tomorrows beyond tomorrow
and every one is a beast that lies before me...
#SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery
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Smile
I stand exposed, my heart in my hands
wrapped tightly in a cage of fingers
I want to open my hands to let it go
But those fingers are all that protect me
even as they hold me back, close me in
But then she smiles and the smile lights her eyes
and her smile loosens my fingers
and I let my heart go and for a moment it falls
before she catches it and holds it tight
I sit in the rain, cold and alone
The world is dark, no one at home
As the darkness presses in, my mind reels
Thought and feeling, spinning and looping
Off...
wrapped tightly in a cage of fingers
I want to open my hands to let it go
But those fingers are all that protect me
even as they hold me back, close me in
But then she smiles and the smile lights her eyes
and her smile loosens my fingers
and I let my heart go and for a moment it falls
before she catches it and holds it tight
I sit in the rain, cold and alone
The world is dark, no one at home
As the darkness presses in, my mind reels
Thought and feeling, spinning and looping
Off...
#wife
#BestFriend
#lover
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