Submissions by HidingFromMe
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Is it worth it
Started off kisses and happiness
Spontaneous adventures
Date nights
Just madly in love with one another
Life was good
Then you became angry
You’ve always had a temper but
You changed
You make me cry
You hurt me
You make me hate myself
You treat me like I’m stupid
You make me feel horrible
You make me wanna relapse
Your words are like daggers into my heart
It’s like your goal is to break me
To shatter everything about who I am
You don’t love me you hate me
If you loved me you wouldn’t treat...
Spontaneous adventures
Date nights
Just madly in love with one another
Life was good
Then you became angry
You’ve always had a temper but
You changed
You make me cry
You hurt me
You make me hate myself
You treat me like I’m stupid
You make me feel horrible
You make me wanna relapse
Your words are like daggers into my heart
It’s like your goal is to break me
To shatter everything about who I am
You don’t love me you hate me
If you loved me you wouldn’t treat...
#love
#depression
#relationships #LifeStruggles
#relationships #LifeStruggles
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It’s Back
There is a darkness growing inside me
Pain,sadness,hopelessness
The old me still lingers inside
The urge to cut my flesh
The urge to end my life
The urge to just give up
I thought I was done with this part of myself
But something just won’t let me go
I’m unable to experience true happiness
My life has changed,it’s still rough
Not nearly as bad as it once was.....
But yet I still want to harm myself
The urge is growing more and more everyday
I don’t know how much longer
I’ll be able to fight my demons
I...
Pain,sadness,hopelessness
The old me still lingers inside
The urge to cut my flesh
The urge to end my life
The urge to just give up
I thought I was done with this part of myself
But something just won’t let me go
I’m unable to experience true happiness
My life has changed,it’s still rough
Not nearly as bad as it once was.....
But yet I still want to harm myself
The urge is growing more and more everyday
I don’t know how much longer
I’ll be able to fight my demons
I...
#depression
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self love
I wish I could like what I see in the mirror
I wish I wasn't repulsed by myself
I wish I was comfortable with my self
I wish I liked myself
But I know that's never gonna happen
Lost over 60lbs still hate my body
Stopped cutting but forever haunted by the scars
I just can't fucking like myself
I'm a disgusting human being
And I don't know how to love myself for who I am
I don't think I'll ever experience
Self love....
I wish I wasn't repulsed by myself
I wish I was comfortable with my self
I wish I liked myself
But I know that's never gonna happen
Lost over 60lbs still hate my body
Stopped cutting but forever haunted by the scars
I just can't fucking like myself
I'm a disgusting human being
And I don't know how to love myself for who I am
I don't think I'll ever experience
Self love....
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overwhelmed
There's just so much
Fucking pain
I want it to stop
But how do you make it stop?
How do you get rid of a problem if you're your problem?
I want to die
Maybe that's how I'll solve my problem
Jump infront of a car
Swallow the bottle of pills
Put a gun in my mouth
Cut a vein
So many options
So many say suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary problem
But what if suicide is my only answer?
My only escape from the voices in my head is my death
I feel I need to die
Through suicide I'll meet my demise
Fucking pain
I want it to stop
But how do you make it stop?
How do you get rid of a problem if you're your problem?
I want to die
Maybe that's how I'll solve my problem
Jump infront of a car
Swallow the bottle of pills
Put a gun in my mouth
Cut a vein
So many options
So many say suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary problem
But what if suicide is my only answer?
My only escape from the voices in my head is my death
I feel I need to die
Through suicide I'll meet my demise
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Hopeless
I spend my days
trying not mutilate my body
or give in to this sense of hopelessness
but inside I'm drowning in a pit of despair
Fighting this war in my mind
as I fight to the surface for air
At night while in bed it continues
there is no escaping the voices in my head
I'm up all hours of the night until
I finally cry myself to sleep
inevitably once I fall asleep
I wake up screaming from the nightmares
I don't know why my mind does this to me
Its killing me that
I don't get the chance
to dream any more
My...
trying not mutilate my body
or give in to this sense of hopelessness
but inside I'm drowning in a pit of despair
Fighting this war in my mind
as I fight to the surface for air
At night while in bed it continues
there is no escaping the voices in my head
I'm up all hours of the night until
I finally cry myself to sleep
inevitably once I fall asleep
I wake up screaming from the nightmares
I don't know why my mind does this to me
Its killing me that
I don't get the chance
to dream any more
My...
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Longdistance Pain
You know that feeling when you just love someone so much
it fucking hurts
that the way they smell is just a fucking drug to you
the way their touch fills you with passion
how you can just lay their in silence with eachother and it's not awkward at all the way you can let yourself be vaunerable around them
and not be scared to just actually be in love
to be able to cry together
and the way you love them so much when their not there you sit there with their cologne in your hand wearing his jacket just bawling your eyes out cause you miss him so much
ughhh...
it fucking hurts
that the way they smell is just a fucking drug to you
the way their touch fills you with passion
how you can just lay their in silence with eachother and it's not awkward at all the way you can let yourself be vaunerable around them
and not be scared to just actually be in love
to be able to cry together
and the way you love them so much when their not there you sit there with their cologne in your hand wearing his jacket just bawling your eyes out cause you miss him so much
ughhh...
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Tormented
I never thought my mind would
Crumple, folding itself into a prison with
Depression and hell
My ears,hear things that no
One else can hear
There’s no escape from the
War that goes on in my mind
Voices, they want me dead
Words drift through my head
"Worthless" "Kill yourself" "You deserve pain"
Even if I were deaf, I’d still hear them
They've engulfed my brain, I'm a pyshcotic mess
They keep me up until all hours of the
Night, someone else’s thoughts taking
Hold of my mind
I'm missunderstood labeled as...
Crumple, folding itself into a prison with
Depression and hell
My ears,hear things that no
One else can hear
There’s no escape from the
War that goes on in my mind
Voices, they want me dead
Words drift through my head
"Worthless" "Kill yourself" "You deserve pain"
Even if I were deaf, I’d still hear them
They've engulfed my brain, I'm a pyshcotic mess
They keep me up until all hours of the
Night, someone else’s thoughts taking
Hold of my mind
I'm missunderstood labeled as...
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Pain
Alone with my thoughts
My inner demons are screaming
I want to ask for help
But its as if I have no voice
I suffer in silence
The pain demands to be felt
The depression has consumed me
Along with self mutilation
I've lost myself in the pain
I am no longer the same
My inner demons are screaming
I want to ask for help
But its as if I have no voice
I suffer in silence
The pain demands to be felt
The depression has consumed me
Along with self mutilation
I've lost myself in the pain
I am no longer the same
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Numb
I want to be numb
I want drugs
I want vodka
I want to block out the world
I never wanna feel again
I wanna be so high that I can't move
I want an escape, a release
I want drugs
I want vodka
I want to block out the world
I never wanna feel again
I wanna be so high that I can't move
I want an escape, a release
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Cold
I've become so cold
I'm nothing but a hallow shell
With no soul
The pain has begun to numb me
What have I become
I sit here mutilating my body
Just to silence my inner demons
But how much blood must be shed
Before I can finally be at
Peace
I'm nothing but a hallow shell
With no soul
The pain has begun to numb me
What have I become
I sit here mutilating my body
Just to silence my inner demons
But how much blood must be shed
Before I can finally be at
Peace
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Help
When you look up at the stars you
Long for something more
So tell me how you feel
I take these pills to make me thin
I dye my hair
I sit here and cut my skin
I try everything to be happy
Inside my quiet hell
You can't hear my cries for help
Inside I'm such a mess
Long for something more
So tell me how you feel
I take these pills to make me thin
I dye my hair
I sit here and cut my skin
I try everything to be happy
Inside my quiet hell
You can't hear my cries for help
Inside I'm such a mess
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Torn
Part of me wants to be sober
But part of me says fuck it
All I think about is getting high
Its consumed my mind
I don't care if it kills me
I need that high
The bliss
The release
The escape to my
Fucked up wonderland
But part of me says fuck it
All I think about is getting high
Its consumed my mind
I don't care if it kills me
I need that high
The bliss
The release
The escape to my
Fucked up wonderland
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