Tucked away barely alive Shallow breathing Sitting in dark room Willing my heart to be still But still I ache With the same wretched burn That has tormented me In the same silence that healed me. The errie presence of static With nothing else To remind me That even my mind is gone.
I've peeled away Searching for answers in between the lines... Somewhere along the line, I became stripped Gleaned for happiness of others ...
It's as if I am paralyzed and muteó Caught between twisted realities That weave themselves in and out Of the visions in other's eyes.
My heart tightens like clenched fists Leaving ever present sharpness Like a blade pressed against me Digging a deeper wound
Like a delirious adventurer seeking treasure, I hurl myself almost passionately toward my demise. Manic and lost, I dismantle every beacon of light in my soul, Only to be left with this heaviness when all else is gone.
How did I get here? From enraptured gazes that only a lover Underneath a sunset could know, To stoic expressions facing a dead end happy place.
My speech skips and screeches Like a ruined cassette Spitting ribbons of misplaced thoughts. Things once full of passion and direction Have escaped me in a surreal night Of a trailer park nightmare. Just another cigarette tinged regret On my ever heavy shoulders.
I want the ecstasy of poetry on my tongue again, Tasting Earth's succulent breath as she kisses...
There's an underlying monster of fear Rumbling beneath this euphoric happiness, Sending gritty murmurs through my bones Like the wake of a disturbed labyrinth of devil's surprises under my feet.
You feel like spring sunshine on my face During a dark, dreary October chill. You are the seductive whisper of Autumn leaves Kissing my skin as they fall in the wind. An innocently persistent nuzzle Of a peace wrapping me up so sweetly I can't help but know I'm home.
The heartbreaks and confusion of the months and years past ...