Submissions by Fishmander
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write in an effort to better understand myself and others. These reflections are pieces to a larger shade. Thank you for reading.
DARK POEM
Published
21st Sep 2022 9:33pm
21st Sep 2022 9:33pm
The Dirt
Nightfall releases wishes
Regrets sculpted from ashes
Have gotten mixed up with the dirt,
At least it's never getting worse
Bit more than what was needed
Whiplash then scratch then feed it
Every taste muddled by the dirt
But actions mean much more than words
My eyes glide to the ceiling
Guess I just miss the feeling:
Lay face down grinning in the dirt,
Replay lessons already learned
Disfigured are the passions
Choked up just like a poison
Whispered by faces in the dirt,
At least it's never getting...
Regrets sculpted from ashes
Have gotten mixed up with the dirt,
At least it's never getting worse
Bit more than what was needed
Whiplash then scratch then feed it
Every taste muddled by the dirt
But actions mean much more than words
My eyes glide to the ceiling
Guess I just miss the feeling:
Lay face down grinning in the dirt,
Replay lessons already learned
Disfigured are the passions
Choked up just like a poison
Whispered by faces in the dirt,
At least it's never getting...
#dark
#SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery
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DARK POEM
Published
19th Sep 2022 9:24pm
19th Sep 2022 9:24pm
Blue Thunder
It's something parasitic
Blue thunder with a pulse
A fix of venom that keeps you craving
There is pus inside your porridge
It's like a work of art
Hereditary which feeds you, breaking.
A broken bone is healing
But you know what you're like
Ignore the bleeding hun-you're just crazy
Your eyes are different colors
Flashes of who we were
There's sure been alot of reasons lately.
You lack a sense of order
Your silver tongue's a heart
You covet solace in beyond saving
Your path is a locomotive ...
Blue thunder with a pulse
A fix of venom that keeps you craving
There is pus inside your porridge
It's like a work of art
Hereditary which feeds you, breaking.
A broken bone is healing
But you know what you're like
Ignore the bleeding hun-you're just crazy
Your eyes are different colors
Flashes of who we were
There's sure been alot of reasons lately.
You lack a sense of order
Your silver tongue's a heart
You covet solace in beyond saving
Your path is a locomotive ...
#dark
#gothic
#SelfReflection #SelfDiscovery
#SelfReflection #SelfDiscovery
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LOVE POEM
Published
8th Sep 2022 8:00pm
8th Sep 2022 8:00pm
Silence
Opened myself up to you
Insides tidy yet twisted
Charmed, filled with greasy snakes
Yearning's we cannot subdue
Growing weaker each minute
Feeding leads to dreams
Leading to Fall.
We became too fond of you
Fair, headstrong and jaded
Smiles are just cracks on your face
Time to fuck up the sinew
Remain calm-cauterize it
Flowing out the seams
Cenote, end.
Opened myself up to you
Know I left you in silence
No sense in scabbing up hurt
We did not create.
Insides tidy yet twisted
Charmed, filled with greasy snakes
Yearning's we cannot subdue
Growing weaker each minute
Feeding leads to dreams
Leading to Fall.
We became too fond of you
Fair, headstrong and jaded
Smiles are just cracks on your face
Time to fuck up the sinew
Remain calm-cauterize it
Flowing out the seams
Cenote, end.
Opened myself up to you
Know I left you in silence
No sense in scabbing up hurt
We did not create.
#love
#dark
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LOVE POEM
Published
17th Jul 2022 8:41pm
17th Jul 2022 8:41pm
The Mask
In hazy blue midnight
Like a storm left to loom
In spite of starlight
Now erased just to bloom
Fall is a season bitter
With Winter full of greed
Often we're lost in Summer
Romanticized by Spring
It was only in her shadow
Where I found myself again
Frigid, frail and hollow
Sinking further as a man
Unto a life spent lonely
Dwelling in the past
You want to hug and hold me
But will only love the mask.
Like a storm left to loom
In spite of starlight
Now erased just to bloom
Fall is a season bitter
With Winter full of greed
Often we're lost in Summer
Romanticized by Spring
It was only in her shadow
Where I found myself again
Frigid, frail and hollow
Sinking further as a man
Unto a life spent lonely
Dwelling in the past
You want to hug and hold me
But will only love the mask.
#love
#dark
#relationships
#friendship
#UnrequitedLove
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Jul 2022 10:05pm
14th Jul 2022 10:05pm
Darling
In time color is leaving
Like a leak from infection foreign
Off the back of wounded passion
From the knife left lodged inside
And seen this negging road here
Again it breaks you, rapes you, needs you
In trenches of haunted rhetoric
Malfunctioned memory-out of battery
Then among the seeds they've sown
Our darkest dream realized
Looking back at us with starved eyes
The darling inside you.
Like a leak from infection foreign
Off the back of wounded passion
From the knife left lodged inside
And seen this negging road here
Again it breaks you, rapes you, needs you
In trenches of haunted rhetoric
Malfunctioned memory-out of battery
Then among the seeds they've sown
Our darkest dream realized
Looking back at us with starved eyes
The darling inside you.
#anxiety
#depression
#dark #SelfReflection
#dark #SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
6th Jul 2022 9:02pm
6th Jul 2022 9:02pm
Haywire
Down my sleeve are feelings
Manic thoughts stimulating
Trapping me behind another wall
Now my heart is squeezing
Deep inside it's still breathing
Was I ever in control at all?
Slugged, covered and draped
This hunger agape
Emerging addiction I can't escape
Yearning to feed
Licks as we bleed
It's tongue on my nape as I bawl and heave
Lost on the page
Darkness erased
Consuming all that I have built
Looming in rage
Some call it fate
This fairy tale bane I have felt.
Manic thoughts stimulating
Trapping me behind another wall
Now my heart is squeezing
Deep inside it's still breathing
Was I ever in control at all?
Slugged, covered and draped
This hunger agape
Emerging addiction I can't escape
Yearning to feed
Licks as we bleed
It's tongue on my nape as I bawl and heave
Lost on the page
Darkness erased
Consuming all that I have built
Looming in rage
Some call it fate
This fairy tale bane I have felt.
#anxiety
#depression
#dark
#MentalHealth
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
3rd Jul 2022 7:37pm
3rd Jul 2022 7:37pm
Another Taste Of
Drink for those who run away
Toast to those who led astray
Sip the blood that flows between
Gulp the wisdom of enemies
You must think I hate the pain
As I fidget in the frame
Pour another vase of red
Another taste of what's in my head
Sometimes I forget to feel
Something is always changing the deal
Things have gotten out of hand
The wine it seems has turned to sand
I don't want to take the pill
Or look below a windowsill
You might think I hate the pain
I could never hate dancing in rain
Toast to those who led astray
Sip the blood that flows between
Gulp the wisdom of enemies
You must think I hate the pain
As I fidget in the frame
Pour another vase of red
Another taste of what's in my head
Sometimes I forget to feel
Something is always changing the deal
Things have gotten out of hand
The wine it seems has turned to sand
I don't want to take the pill
Or look below a windowsill
You might think I hate the pain
I could never hate dancing in rain
#anxiety
#depression
#dark #SelfReflection
#dark #SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
1st Jul 2022 6:34pm
1st Jul 2022 6:34pm
Sunkissed
Crawling all up in my brain
Pieces that shadow behind
Faint echo of crashing train
Equal from which I can't hide
Drifting on I will atone
Like stars that reflect at night
Flares up mangled nerve and bone
As Cancer cold chokes me tight
Coursing through blackened and feeds
Ashes remaining contrived
Writhing this teasing then flees
Less once more I have survived.
Pieces that shadow behind
Faint echo of crashing train
Equal from which I can't hide
Drifting on I will atone
Like stars that reflect at night
Flares up mangled nerve and bone
As Cancer cold chokes me tight
Coursing through blackened and feeds
Ashes remaining contrived
Writhing this teasing then flees
Less once more I have survived.
#anxiety
#love
#dark
#friendship
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
1st Jul 2022 6:14am
1st Jul 2022 6:14am
Ouroboros
I could not accept,
I could not resist
Like a parasite
It lived on inside
Words we didn't say
Years which rot away
Another verbal complication
Twisted, festered, failing, left unwound
In pieces torn and frayed,
An endless masquerade;
Another serpentine reflection
Adopting faces in this gaping hole.
I could not resist
Like a parasite
It lived on inside
Words we didn't say
Years which rot away
Another verbal complication
Twisted, festered, failing, left unwound
In pieces torn and frayed,
An endless masquerade;
Another serpentine reflection
Adopting faces in this gaping hole.
#dark
#MentalHealth
#SelfReflection
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DARK POEM
Published
28th Jun 2022 8:25pm
28th Jun 2022 8:25pm
Festival
Lost in the deep
Hissing off the pages
Summoned the pain
Out poured fiery hatred
It consumed life
Eyes showed me their faces
It struck at night
Heart locked in the basement
I was so amused
Struck frostbitten and worn
Revenge cold yet so warm
As it devoured my wounds
Hissing off the pages
Summoned the pain
Out poured fiery hatred
It consumed life
Eyes showed me their faces
It struck at night
Heart locked in the basement
I was so amused
Struck frostbitten and worn
Revenge cold yet so warm
As it devoured my wounds
#dark
#confessional
#SelfReflection #revenge
#SelfReflection #revenge
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SELF POEM
Published
28th Jun 2022 8:01pm
28th Jun 2022 8:01pm
Anastatica
Crooked and out of touch with
The deep end I'm in love with
Supply your wine under my dying sun
Don't let it incubate you
Just let it liberate you
No one else has to know from which we've come
Play our breath in place of rest
No charm or spell just intimate respect
Defeated and left starving
A body here for carving
Debris among the waves
Like zombies they infect you
Like priests they resurrect you
Bottom feeders searching for hope to "save"
Dated now with the seasons
I've forgotten the reasons ...
The deep end I'm in love with
Supply your wine under my dying sun
Don't let it incubate you
Just let it liberate you
No one else has to know from which we've come
Play our breath in place of rest
No charm or spell just intimate respect
Defeated and left starving
A body here for carving
Debris among the waves
Like zombies they infect you
Like priests they resurrect you
Bottom feeders searching for hope to "save"
Dated now with the seasons
I've forgotten the reasons ...
#love
#dark
#SelfDiscovery
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LOVE POEM
Published
10th Jun 2022 9:34pm
10th Jun 2022 9:34pm
Tattoo
Chased down by the allure
Badgered by our past
Who is gonna love us now
Needles start to puncture
Conscience in the trash
Who are we without us now
Faces start to fester
Playgrounds fade to black
Enlightened by our self doubt
Should have died here after
Courage we both lack
Halls where demons aren't allowed
Stare into our poison
Lap up every drop
Look at how the tattoo sings
Adorned by a pattern
Promises forgot
This is what obsession brings.
Badgered by our past
Who is gonna love us now
Needles start to puncture
Conscience in the trash
Who are we without us now
Faces start to fester
Playgrounds fade to black
Enlightened by our self doubt
Should have died here after
Courage we both lack
Halls where demons aren't allowed
Stare into our poison
Lap up every drop
Look at how the tattoo sings
Adorned by a pattern
Promises forgot
This is what obsession brings.
#love
#dark
#friendship
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