Submissions by FallenAngle (TheQueenOfTheDark)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction I write a lot about mental health as its something very personal and close to my heart. I touch on topics such as self-harm, depression, suicide, grief and death.
DARK POEM
Published
27th Oct 2020 2:40am
27th Oct 2020 2:40am
Mother
Tell me what I should do
With all of my broken dreams,
How should I tend to the scars
That healed but never ceased to burn.
Show me how to close my eyes and sleep
Without hearing the cries for mercy,
Teach me to look in the mirror
And not be repulsed by what I see.
Take some of the shame from my shoulders
Atleast the weight you passed to me,
Your sins are not mine to atone for
So tell me why I'm the one paying the price.
Give me back the years you have stolen
I tried and tried to uncover our truth, ...
With all of my broken dreams,
How should I tend to the scars
That healed but never ceased to burn.
Show me how to close my eyes and sleep
Without hearing the cries for mercy,
Teach me to look in the mirror
And not be repulsed by what I see.
Take some of the shame from my shoulders
Atleast the weight you passed to me,
Your sins are not mine to atone for
So tell me why I'm the one paying the price.
Give me back the years you have stolen
I tried and tried to uncover our truth, ...
#mother
#abuse
#confusion
#FeelingLost
#daughter
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DARK POEM
Published
25th Sep 2020 1:12am
25th Sep 2020 1:12am
Reflection
I know you chase her in your dreams
And how her sobs echo in your chest,
I know you feel the coldness of her hand
Against your empty palm.
I know your haunted by her eyes
And how the despair reflects your own,
I know you gave her a piece of your soul
Since her own was stolen.
I know she hides in the shadows of the walls
And how she whispers to your mind,
I know you feel you owe her your voice
When everyone else ignored hers.
I know she scares you
And you wish you could leave her,
I know you're not just...
And how her sobs echo in your chest,
I know you feel the coldness of her hand
Against your empty palm.
I know your haunted by her eyes
And how the despair reflects your own,
I know you gave her a piece of your soul
Since her own was stolen.
I know she hides in the shadows of the walls
And how she whispers to your mind,
I know you feel you owe her your voice
When everyone else ignored hers.
I know she scares you
And you wish you could leave her,
I know you're not just...
#childhood
#abuse
#suffering
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DARK POEM
Published
2nd Jul 2020 2:50am
2nd Jul 2020 2:50am
The lessons of Death
I see her mouth open in a scream
To see she has been stripped too of sound,
Tears fill her eyes but do not fall
If only her knees held the same strenght.
I felt her heart shatter to pieces
And heard her souls mournful cries,
So much pain laced with hope
That she wasn't just told I had died.
"Why did you bring me here?" I ask quietly
But my Guide simply points
To the vessel I just left behind
Now surrounded by grieving eyes.
"Why are they sad, I went peacefully,"
My Guide shakes their head
"Can we...
To see she has been stripped too of sound,
Tears fill her eyes but do not fall
If only her knees held the same strenght.
I felt her heart shatter to pieces
And heard her souls mournful cries,
So much pain laced with hope
That she wasn't just told I had died.
"Why did you bring me here?" I ask quietly
But my Guide simply points
To the vessel I just left behind
Now surrounded by grieving eyes.
"Why are they sad, I went peacefully,"
My Guide shakes their head
"Can we...
#death
#suicide
#MentalHealth
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LOVE POEM
Published
19th Apr 2020 3:19am
19th Apr 2020 3:19am
There's no reviving love
I know I wasn't always easy to love
There were days I'm sure you felt defeated
When you looked into my eyes
I know all you saw was anger,
You tried so hard and I seen the effort
It wasn't your fault I was broken
The scars I bore weren't from you
But it was you who took the brunt of it.
You knew about the men who came before you
And how the people who gave me life
Only ever sought to hurt me
You told me you wouldn't do the same
And I told you they all said that too
You said you were a good man
And I told you I didn't even...
There were days I'm sure you felt defeated
When you looked into my eyes
I know all you saw was anger,
You tried so hard and I seen the effort
It wasn't your fault I was broken
The scars I bore weren't from you
But it was you who took the brunt of it.
You knew about the men who came before you
And how the people who gave me life
Only ever sought to hurt me
You told me you wouldn't do the same
And I told you they all said that too
You said you were a good man
And I told you I didn't even...
#love
#grief
#heartbroken
#breakup
#suicide
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LOVE POEM
Published
19th Apr 2020 2:17am
19th Apr 2020 2:17am
The victim of love
I like to sleep in the dark
When I close my eyes I play pretend
That if I just reach across the sheets
My fingers will once again entwine with yours
And I will feel your warmth
Melt away the cold.
I lull myself to sleep to memories
So real I feel the sun on my face
And your breath dance against my skin
Until I think of the nights
Under the stars our bodies became one
And I feel the hollow spaces
That you will never feel again.
I mourn for you though you breathe
In crowds I always search for you
The hope I once...
When I close my eyes I play pretend
That if I just reach across the sheets
My fingers will once again entwine with yours
And I will feel your warmth
Melt away the cold.
I lull myself to sleep to memories
So real I feel the sun on my face
And your breath dance against my skin
Until I think of the nights
Under the stars our bodies became one
And I feel the hollow spaces
That you will never feel again.
I mourn for you though you breathe
In crowds I always search for you
The hope I once...
#love
#heartbroken
#breakup
#UnrequitedLove
#hurt
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DARK POEM
Published
21st Feb 2020 1:20am
21st Feb 2020 1:20am
My son
I wear no physical scars on my body
That held your tiny heart
But I nurse the scars on my soul
That you left in your wake.
I have no memories of your smile
That I longed to see
But I sleep to the dream you gave
That I hear you laugh.
I never wiped away the tears
That you would have cried
But I feel you wipe away mine
That I shed in your place.
I couldn't give you a place
That you could have laid to rest
But I left a lily at the lake
That I left a part of me once too.
I would have given...
That held your tiny heart
But I nurse the scars on my soul
That you left in your wake.
I have no memories of your smile
That I longed to see
But I sleep to the dream you gave
That I hear you laugh.
I never wiped away the tears
That you would have cried
But I feel you wipe away mine
That I shed in your place.
I couldn't give you a place
That you could have laid to rest
But I left a lily at the lake
That I left a part of me once too.
I would have given...
#grief
#mother
#death
#memorial
#son
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DARK POEM
Published
28th Jan 2020 3:45am
28th Jan 2020 3:45am
Overdose
My legs are heavy but my steps are light
my head is loud but eerily silent,
A smile pinned in place on my face
you never could have known my thoughts were so violent,
and though with your love I got a taste of grace
tonight was the night I would end this fight.
I wanted to give you one last day
so when I'm gone you'll have seen my last smile
we talked about the nights we chased monsters away
about how we made our lives feel worthwhile
how we found each other when led astray
and I told you by you is where I'd always stay.
...
my head is loud but eerily silent,
A smile pinned in place on my face
you never could have known my thoughts were so violent,
and though with your love I got a taste of grace
tonight was the night I would end this fight.
I wanted to give you one last day
so when I'm gone you'll have seen my last smile
we talked about the nights we chased monsters away
about how we made our lives feel worthwhile
how we found each other when led astray
and I told you by you is where I'd always stay.
...
#depression
#SelfHarm
#suicide
#SelfDiscovery
#healing
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DARK POEM
Published
29th Dec 2019 00:40am
29th Dec 2019 00:40am
Destined to fight
I did what the doctor said
I took the pills he said would silence the voices in my head
told me they'd chase away the feeling of dread
reverse the poison that I was fed
but I think I was misled
because I still feel like I'm living on my deathbed.
I buckle beneath the weight of my smile
go to therapy and put my demons on trial
wish I could tell you it was worthwhile
and me and joy have reconciled
so when things go down in a spiral
my brain won't jump to suicide.
I still remember the things I would die to forget
they still...
I took the pills he said would silence the voices in my head
told me they'd chase away the feeling of dread
reverse the poison that I was fed
but I think I was misled
because I still feel like I'm living on my deathbed.
I buckle beneath the weight of my smile
go to therapy and put my demons on trial
wish I could tell you it was worthwhile
and me and joy have reconciled
so when things go down in a spiral
my brain won't jump to suicide.
I still remember the things I would die to forget
they still...
#strength
#MentalHealth
#tragedy
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DARK POEM
Published
2nd Oct 2019 11:10pm
2nd Oct 2019 11:10pm
Contaminated
As a child I thought of bathing in bleach
In an attempt to rid my body of your fingertips
Happily I would have set my body alight
And left no trace of you on my skin.
I used to scrub until the water ran red
Trying to get rid of the flesh you seen as yours
But we both know my efforts were in vain
It was more than my body you claimed.
No matter how hard I scrubbed
Or the dark years that past,
The phantom of your hands still touches me
And you are the theme of my nightmares.
A childhood wasted hiding your dirty secret
A...
In an attempt to rid my body of your fingertips
Happily I would have set my body alight
And left no trace of you on my skin.
I used to scrub until the water ran red
Trying to get rid of the flesh you seen as yours
But we both know my efforts were in vain
It was more than my body you claimed.
No matter how hard I scrubbed
Or the dark years that past,
The phantom of your hands still touches me
And you are the theme of my nightmares.
A childhood wasted hiding your dirty secret
A...
#abuse
#PTSD
#suffering
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DARK POEM
Published
10th Sep 2019 00:12am
10th Sep 2019 00:12am
Sabotage
I've started talking to the shadows in my mind
we've all got a dark side but I try to bury mine
go into myself because it's the only place I can hide
every step I take feels like I'm dying
wonder how God sees me will he save me
or has the Devil claimed me for his own?
I wear my mask with shame
everybody has a secret they won't ever speak
my narcissism and my depression are at war
too good to die but unworthy to live
I've grown up living half alive
I speak of truth but I'm naught but a liar
backed up into a corner and I don't fight,...
we've all got a dark side but I try to bury mine
go into myself because it's the only place I can hide
every step I take feels like I'm dying
wonder how God sees me will he save me
or has the Devil claimed me for his own?
I wear my mask with shame
everybody has a secret they won't ever speak
my narcissism and my depression are at war
too good to die but unworthy to live
I've grown up living half alive
I speak of truth but I'm naught but a liar
backed up into a corner and I don't fight,...
#depression
#loneliness
#SelfHarm
#alcohol
#addiction
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DARK POEM
Published
26th Aug 2019 11:25am
26th Aug 2019 11:25am
The truth about depression
I stand among the rubble
smoke and ash cloud the air
as I stumble forward wearily
treading through the battlefield
and fall to my knees in despair
taking in the aftermath of last night.
My skin is bruised
from all the things it whispered
to my broken mind left in ruins,
I look down in shame at my body
for among my scarlet past
are now masses of crimson present
deep enough to burn and bleed
but not deep enough to die
unworthy of life and undeserving of death
I turn to God and beg for a sign
I plead for him to...
smoke and ash cloud the air
as I stumble forward wearily
treading through the battlefield
and fall to my knees in despair
taking in the aftermath of last night.
My skin is bruised
from all the things it whispered
to my broken mind left in ruins,
I look down in shame at my body
for among my scarlet past
are now masses of crimson present
deep enough to burn and bleed
but not deep enough to die
unworthy of life and undeserving of death
I turn to God and beg for a sign
I plead for him to...
#anxiety
#depression
#MentalHealth
#PTSD
#suffering
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DARK POEM
Published
20th Aug 2019 10:09pm
20th Aug 2019 10:09pm
Toxic obsession
They tell me to let you go
don't give you the space in my mind
but its never as easy as that
you see you are the scar inside my brain
so you'll always throb in the back of my mind
you're the protagonist in my story
the demons in my past,
you're my present and my future I hate to admit
but I am living proof than no one can ever be free
of the monsters who gave life to you.
They tell me to stop and walk away
but only we know that its too late for that
You're the root of the evil in my soul
the reason for the hate festering in my...
don't give you the space in my mind
but its never as easy as that
you see you are the scar inside my brain
so you'll always throb in the back of my mind
you're the protagonist in my story
the demons in my past,
you're my present and my future I hate to admit
but I am living proof than no one can ever be free
of the monsters who gave life to you.
They tell me to stop and walk away
but only we know that its too late for that
You're the root of the evil in my soul
the reason for the hate festering in my...
#anger
#mother
#childhood
#revenge
#daughter
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