Submissions by Debdeb
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Caged
I'm locked away without a key to set me free
Imprisoned in this body that's
Covered in scars and bruises
Mentally tired and chained to these fears
Fears of denial
Fears of life
Fears of self doubt
Stuck in this cage of twisted feelings
With no freedom to fly
I began to lose myself
My twisted feelings, twisted thoughts
And fears become reality
A reality I fear to face
And feeling trapped in
A damaged mind
Unable to take control
To stand firm and let go
Imprisoned in this body that's
Covered in scars and bruises
Mentally tired and chained to these fears
Fears of denial
Fears of life
Fears of self doubt
Stuck in this cage of twisted feelings
With no freedom to fly
I began to lose myself
My twisted feelings, twisted thoughts
And fears become reality
A reality I fear to face
And feeling trapped in
A damaged mind
Unable to take control
To stand firm and let go
#anxiety
#depression
#MentalHealth #weakness
#MentalHealth #weakness
769 reads
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Labyrinth of Cages
My life has become a prisoner
Of its own mind in its own
Labyrinth of cages without
No keys
Falling into a hole filled with
Pain, fear, anger and anxiety
With so much darkness around
There's not much light to
See any future or any reason to grow
Just stuck in my Labyrinth of cages
With no keys
Keys that could release the demons that
Are inside of me that have kept me
Prisoner in my own mind
Making sure that I stay in this abyss of
Pain, fear, anger and anxiety
The key...
Of its own mind in its own
Labyrinth of cages without
No keys
Falling into a hole filled with
Pain, fear, anger and anxiety
With so much darkness around
There's not much light to
See any future or any reason to grow
Just stuck in my Labyrinth of cages
With no keys
Keys that could release the demons that
Are inside of me that have kept me
Prisoner in my own mind
Making sure that I stay in this abyss of
Pain, fear, anger and anxiety
The key...
#anxiety
#depression
530 reads
5 Comments
Seeing red again
Her sights gone red
All her feelings condescend
Her arms and mind mutilated
Every muscle in her aches
Everything blurred and black
As her rage attacks
Ptsdbis the only thing controlling her
As she comes too
She prayers for light
But to her dismay,
Blood pours from her skin
She's drowned by darkness
Again
The glass shattered in cuts
Upon my wrists
She just wants to see
She just wants to be free
Let loose from the grip
Of Ptsd
She says she just wants ...
All her feelings condescend
Her arms and mind mutilated
Every muscle in her aches
Everything blurred and black
As her rage attacks
Ptsdbis the only thing controlling her
As she comes too
She prayers for light
But to her dismay,
Blood pours from her skin
She's drowned by darkness
Again
The glass shattered in cuts
Upon my wrists
She just wants to see
She just wants to be free
Let loose from the grip
Of Ptsd
She says she just wants ...
#dark
#SelfHarm
#suicide
#MentalHealth
#fear
467 reads
2 Comments
Tired
I'm tired of listening to the
Sounds of my tears
Tired of constant battling
My fears
I'm tired of wasting my days
Submerged in despair
Tired of words piercing my heart
Like a sharp spear
Tired of being fake when I
Really care
Tired of being stuck in toxic
Relationships and surrounds
Tired of lies in a world full of
Fakes
Tired of believing
Tired of putting up a show
Tired of battling defeat
Sounds of my tears
Tired of constant battling
My fears
I'm tired of wasting my days
Submerged in despair
Tired of words piercing my heart
Like a sharp spear
Tired of being fake when I
Really care
Tired of being stuck in toxic
Relationships and surrounds
Tired of lies in a world full of
Fakes
Tired of believing
Tired of putting up a show
Tired of battling defeat
#loneliness
#despair
#FeelingLost
#hurt
#fear
560 reads
2 Comments
Plastic
Plastic smile
On a plastic face
No one can tell
But you know it's fake
Enveloped by covers
No one can see
The wasted space
I became to be
No more fun
No more games
No more lies
No more pain
I'll just close my eyes
And make you all
Go away
On a plastic face
No one can tell
But you know it's fake
Enveloped by covers
No one can see
The wasted space
I became to be
No more fun
No more games
No more lies
No more pain
I'll just close my eyes
And make you all
Go away
#anxiety
#addiction
#weakness #vulnerability
#weakness #vulnerability
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1 Comment
Tortured soul
I sit here Chained and shackled
to this pathetic life
forced to see the horror in everything
horrible people, doing horrible things I cannot stop it no matter how hard I try by my meaningless existence
nobody cares nobody tries forced to conform nothing
but lies all lies I cannot stop it
so I just sit and wait wait to die
Chained and shackled
To this tortured soul
This pathetic life
to this pathetic life
forced to see the horror in everything
horrible people, doing horrible things I cannot stop it no matter how hard I try by my meaningless existence
nobody cares nobody tries forced to conform nothing
but lies all lies I cannot stop it
so I just sit and wait wait to die
Chained and shackled
To this tortured soul
This pathetic life
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar #MentalHealth
#bipolar #MentalHealth
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1 Comment
I cut
I cut because I can see my pain slowly fade away
I cut because I know things will never be okay
I cut because my heart will forever be broken
I cut trying to hide all my feelings that remain unspoken
I cut because my life is killing me inside
I cut because it's something that long sleeve and a fake smile can hide
I cut because I feel so alone
I cut because no other path has been shown
I cut because it just feels so right
I cut because the scarlet blood shines so bright
I cut to feel in control of the pain deep inside
I cut...
I cut because I know things will never be okay
I cut because my heart will forever be broken
I cut trying to hide all my feelings that remain unspoken
I cut because my life is killing me inside
I cut because it's something that long sleeve and a fake smile can hide
I cut because I feel so alone
I cut because no other path has been shown
I cut because it just feels so right
I cut because the scarlet blood shines so bright
I cut to feel in control of the pain deep inside
I cut...
#depression
#SelfHarm
#suicide
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1 Comment
Castle of pain
The world went dark and my mind went blank
As I laid here in bed
While millions of thoughts races through my head
I pick up the razor and put it to my wrist
Knowing that with one cut
Everything will go away
And take this pain away
And the sorrows with it
Your imprisoned in your own castle
Castle of pain
You struggle with the demons within
Just to fail
Seem to loose touch with reality
I just want the pain to go away
I'm in a castle of pain
My is mind is racing
As I laid here in bed
While millions of thoughts races through my head
I pick up the razor and put it to my wrist
Knowing that with one cut
Everything will go away
And take this pain away
And the sorrows with it
Your imprisoned in your own castle
Castle of pain
You struggle with the demons within
Just to fail
Seem to loose touch with reality
I just want the pain to go away
I'm in a castle of pain
My is mind is racing
#anxiety
#dark
#MentalHealth #fear
#MentalHealth #fear
312 reads
1 Comment
Shattered Mind
I see a scene of sadness
A vision of days gone by
A revelation of what awaits me here
Beneath this long dead sky
These bars, they comfort me a little
to protect me or those outside
Either way, it's how it's supposed to be
with a shattered mind
No sense of how things ought to be
No comprehension or logic here
for a shattered mind just passes time
grining from ear to ear
remorse has long since faded if it
ever did exist
And happiness is overrated, for insanity
...
A vision of days gone by
A revelation of what awaits me here
Beneath this long dead sky
These bars, they comfort me a little
to protect me or those outside
Either way, it's how it's supposed to be
with a shattered mind
No sense of how things ought to be
No comprehension or logic here
for a shattered mind just passes time
grining from ear to ear
remorse has long since faded if it
ever did exist
And happiness is overrated, for insanity
...
#sadness
#anxiety
#despair #emptiness
#despair #emptiness
377 reads
2 Comments
Fighting
Fighting images that are in
my head
Just so the nightmares stop
as I lay here in bed
Voices are screaming loud
In my ear
Just one more reason to have
My fear
Fear of the monster coming
to my bed
And the painful memories that
Lay ahead
I wish it would stop the pain
in my heart
Cause I have no more fight left
to start
Start a new life without drugs and
Fear ...
my head
Just so the nightmares stop
as I lay here in bed
Voices are screaming loud
In my ear
Just one more reason to have
My fear
Fear of the monster coming
to my bed
And the painful memories that
Lay ahead
I wish it would stop the pain
in my heart
Cause I have no more fight left
to start
Start a new life without drugs and
Fear ...
#PTSD
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2 Comments
Restless Thoughts
Another sleepless night
As the nights coming to the end
My thoughts polluting my mind
I'm lost in memories and times
My despair is overwhelming
Coming undone, I'm comfortably
Numb
Suffocating in my sadness
Drowning in my pain
Im so empty hollow
I reflect on images of sorrow pasts
Consumed with madness
Gasping for air ,fading into black
I stand alone inside
Blinded by tears i cant hide
The agony i carry inside
My broken sow has died
And you scream...
As the nights coming to the end
My thoughts polluting my mind
I'm lost in memories and times
My despair is overwhelming
Coming undone, I'm comfortably
Numb
Suffocating in my sadness
Drowning in my pain
Im so empty hollow
I reflect on images of sorrow pasts
Consumed with madness
Gasping for air ,fading into black
I stand alone inside
Blinded by tears i cant hide
The agony i carry inside
My broken sow has died
And you scream...
#anxiety
#dark
#despair
240 reads
0 Comments
Prisoner
In this dark cage of lies
I'm dangerously trapped
inside
The butterflies have flown
away
No longer does this soul
sway
Anger, pain, hatred
Now my heart is left
damaged
Deception, betrayal, lies
were thrust upon
Still a mask of happiness
I put on
Agony, depression , insanity
I try to hide
All the blames are killing
me inside
Lying dead, I stare at the
gleaming stars
Trapped...
I'm dangerously trapped
inside
The butterflies have flown
away
No longer does this soul
sway
Anger, pain, hatred
Now my heart is left
damaged
Deception, betrayal, lies
were thrust upon
Still a mask of happiness
I put on
Agony, depression , insanity
I try to hide
All the blames are killing
me inside
Lying dead, I stare at the
gleaming stars
Trapped...
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar #MentalHealth
#bipolar #MentalHealth
366 reads
1 Comment
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